Caterpillars & Leaves
Maple

13-05-2022 (INITIAL)

A chat notification appears on the phone screen

" buy tamagochii" was a toy when we were little.(someone who sent a distant message ).

"hahahahah yes inget me , fit it like for collection after gameboth" (saidu )

A housewife who has 2 angels in her life ,

that's the beginning I knew about him. Yes, only through chat media.

when I was fragile in the destruction of my life.

since then we have often exchanged jokes with each other, making me feel a smile (yaaaaa, a small smile in front of the mobile phone screen )

I told you about my life about my beauty, and how stupid I was how I destroyed everything in my world.

"wake me out, I'm ready to be your vent of anger and sorrow."

(that's how he said it)

I can't stand it when I make her vent all my anger on him, yeah. He who knows nothing about me and what I'm going through, but he is willing to give me a place to scream.

#Leaf, (a name that means something to me )

the name of someone who is willing to be a place where my anger and sadness can no longer be strong.

#leaf,leaf,leaf

yes I always wait for him online just to reply to my chat every minute of the day

somehow I always try to want him to reply to my chat, I don't want him to ignore for a second.

(too selfish of me)

I felt a great pride in me, I was so proud that I was so afraid that he would disappear from my life..

jokes, laughter, yes that's what we spend in cyberspace.every second, minute, hour, day

"my caterpillar must be a butterfly"

that's how he called me, hinting at a message.

In my mind I never wanted to be a butterfly, because I knew if it happened to me and she wouldn't be together for long.

I never wanted to lose a spirit that woke me up. Every sentence of his every voice, I always pay attention to him.

why could that be?????

I have no answer for myself.

is this blindness?

yes blindness loves her without knowing who she is (#leaf )

Like I loved my God, I never knew his form. But I love him so much that loving all life in nature is no exception to, with, although I know my whole life is not looking at what I want but God gave me this there is a purpose. Yes, purpose

and I'm really afraid of losing her, afraid of everything.

When I never knew his form and who he was behind the name (#leaf)

someone who made me gobsmack, smiled spoiled. With every sentence and voice I see and hear.

is this God your love for me ?

if yes, give me your sign, give me your first Lord.

am I not the devil who compels you to ask God for your forgiveness.

And if you bring me this angel, will I be blind or dead ?

(to God )

"love the creation you didn't create for me"

I am in love, with my blindness. Loving a distant woman whom I do not know her form is unknown to me and she is a mother and wife to her family.

***chuckle me looking for happiness.

it roams every inch of the earth.

One time on my trip, though,

I met a maple leaf

simple, but very enticing***

mociie