World Marriage
CHAPTER 2

I walked down the dark hallway carrying a torch. I saw a light and it must be the Hereafter. But, well, my guess was wrong again. It was the light from the operating room. The suicide I had planned in detail ended up failing just because my mother who somehow came home very early.

I can still hear some sounds even though I can't open my eyes. I felt the syringe go through my skin and spit out a liquid. In an instant, I could no longer feel anything. I was in the hospital for a few days. I lost the urge to eat so that my body was very weak and there was certainly a needle that drained blood into my body. At that time I did not want to know who the generous person who would give his blood to me.

When I woke up my mother greeted me with a scolding. He kept cornering me while threatening to send me to my father's place. But yeah, I can't be hurt by that anymore. I prefer to listen and think of it as a lullaby.

This is my life. As soon as I recovered, I was thrown into a rehabilitation center and I wondered why it wasn't my mother who took care of me when she had seen her only child almost become a star.

It is not my life if it is not challenging. I tried to leave the world without permission again. It had been a few days that I observed the nurses and the places they had entered. When I had the chance, I was sneaking around to steal the medicine in the storage. I laid my body on the floor and downed them all. The last thing I remember was a lot of foam coming out of my mouth. I smiled and thought it would work this time.

Wow, I was wrong again. I woke up after 3 days in a coma. But there is an unnatural new sight. Yeah, it was my mom, looking at me crying and my dad and his girlfriend sitting in a chair and walking over.

"What are you doing Yuzu? Mom works even though mom's bones almost broke for you, my daughter." Mom's tears spilled for a moment. It must have been his heart scratched after I tried to escape from him. He kept stroking my hair while expressing the feeling he had been covering up all this time.

My father is the same. He regretted not spending more time with me. Dad said that he would not be able to continue his life if this beautiful daughter was hurt. Seeing this epic scene made my eyes water, perhaps this moment was what my little heart wanted. I have no regrets about doing this stupid thing over and over again, but I make sure I won't repeat the mistake that made my parents sad again. I am so thankful to God after all this.

Now I'm not sent to a rehabilitation center anymore but brought home. Mom and dad alternately my neman. I was not bothered at all even though I was alone when going to the toilet and shower. The rest, I'm always mobbed by a lot of people. I realized I was blessed with so much love that my eyes could not see it. But I have since prayed that I would have plenty of time to try to repay my family's affection.

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I'm still taking tranquilizers of my own accord. I am well aware that I am not as natural as I used to be, but I will definitely return to normal as ever. Although I did not have the courage to look at the faces of others, but I always tried to improve interactions, especially to my beloved family.

"This is your breakfast, Yuzu. Who do you want to eat?"

"I'll eat alone, Mom."

"alright. If you need anything just say it. Mother's leave is over and today mother will be working. For the next few days, your father will be with you while you work. Don't be spoiled huh" mama sneered with her faint smile. All this happiness made me forget for a while that I still had unresolved studies.

Two months later, I returned to my original routine. Although many people avoided seeing the scratch marks on my wrist, I still did not try to cover it up, because for me, this sign was a gift from life. I stayed and focused on my learning. Nothing could hurt my feelings anymore, including my old friends trying to get back to me. I kept smiling at them even though I kept my distance from everyone.

As a result, the last few semesters have passed quite well. I graduated and became a student who got a high ipk. My parents seemed very happy about it, especially my father. He asked me what reward I wanted for my hard work. Of course I said that I just want to be happy with my family.

I went straight to work after graduating from college. Although bearing the title Bachelor of Psychology, I did not only directly work in large companies despite getting several offers to become HRD staff. I prefer to start everything from the beginning. Although it seems to be a waste of opportunity, for me the most important thing is to shape who I am.

Despite the opposition from father and mother, they finally agreed to my wish. Now I'm living in a rented out house with some other nomads I don't know yet. Although it was a bit clumsy to go through the day alone, I began to get used to all these things. The place I live in is a little bigger than my original home. There are 6 rooms with two bathrooms on each floor. My own room is upstairs with two other rooms.

When I first entered the room, I was very surprised because the room was very neat and clean. This is contrary to the words of the contract owner who said that my room has been idle for 4 years. Once inside, I tidied up all my luggage, including the family photo I posted on the bedroom wall.

In my heart, I miss my mother. We who used to meet every moment made me want to see him. But I have decided that I will just go back to living a comfortable life with him when I have been able to be proud of him. So for now, I'm just going to call mom and try my best to achieve my goal.