Thousand Wounds
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Drowsiness now afflicts Husna. Without opening his face he lay down his body on the prayer mat. He folded his hands as a head brace.

In his deep sleep, Husna seemed to see Raka hugging a boy tightly and the child called Raka with papa's call. Husna also saw that there was another female figure who embraced the child with Raka. They look like a very happy family.

Without realizing it, her tears were pouring down her face. In his sleep he kept crying. He is really haunted by feelings of guilt because of his current condition. Truly with all his heart he desperately wants the presence of a seed in his womb. She never wanted to disappoint her husband.

Raka who was asleep suddenly woke up to hear the sound of sobs from his wife. He tried to turn on the sleeping lights that were on the nightstand. After the lights were on, Raka looked towards the bed but Husna was not there.

He got out of his bed and found his wife sleeping on the floor with a prayer mat.

She walked towards Husna. He intended to move Husna to bed. But just as Raka lowered her head suddenly she heard Husna deliriously apologizing to her.

"Abi, please kindly abi sorryin umi who has disappointed abi," Husna said many times.

Now Raka's heart is completely broken hearing the screams of the heart of the Sholehah woman. He felt guilty for Husna. He realized that he had cut a thousand wounds in Husna's heart.

Raka bowed in silence. He doesn't seem to know what to do right now. Raka's tears fell right on Husna's cheek. The woman woke up from her sleep. She was so shocked that she found her husband crying nearby.

"Abi,abi why?how does abi cry?" ask Husna.

"Let's not do anything," replied Raka slowly.

" Why couldn't Abi cry? husna.

" Abi nangis because abi had heard umi ngigau while sleeping.

Umi continued to apologize abi," replied Raka.

" Astagfirullah umi apologizes. Umi is not aware of bi," said Husna.

" That's all right, umi's nothing wrong. So don't keep apologizing" replied Raka.

" Bi, you know " said Husna cut off.

" I don't know" answered Raka.

Raka smiled looking at the pouting Husna.

" Umi wants to say what the hell? ask Raka.

" So Umi was like a dream that you know bi. Umi dreams abi is like a hug boy who looks like abi is like a great love for the boy

and the boy called the abi Papa" Husna said.

DEG.

Raka was shocked to hear what Husna had said. He was silent because he did not know what to say at this time.

" God what should I tell him now. Should I tell you the truth. But isn't it just going to make her even more hurt," Raka's inner.

" Abi did he?" asked Husna while moving Raka's hand.

" Ah..eh..anu.it.what was." said Raka gelagapan.

" Abi, how come kayak is that? abi why?" ask Husna. She felt strange about her husband's attitude. He felt that Raka was currently hiding something from him.

" Why, no. Now let's just rest first," said Raka trying to divert the conversation.

" But really, what's wrong?" ask Husna.

" Yeah, I'm okay, '" replied Raka.

" Yaudah then we will rest now" Husna said.

She actually knew that her husband was trying to divert their conversation. He understood the reason why Raka behaved like that. That's why she tries to understand her husband's feelings.In his opinion Raka is not ready to discuss any issues related to children.

Husna moved her feet towards the bed. Then he laid his body. Raka tried to pull the blanket and cover Husna's body. Rakapun laid his body beside Husna. Now with a guilty feeling Raka grabbed Husna's body and hugged her. Occasionally Raka rubbed the soft shoots of Husna's head. A kiss landed on Husna's forehead. Husna smiled from under the blanket that covered her. She returned the embrace of her husband. They fell asleep hugging each other. In the warmth of the embrace, Raka and Husna try to put aside the problems they are currently facing.

For a moment Casandra's shadow seemed to fade from Raka's mind. He felt calm when smothering his eternal lover.