Thousand Wounds
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***How are you soul?

Still injured?

How's the heart?

Still keeping lara?

Your tears, are you still crying? Sometimes you have to admit your own stupidity

Survive for a wound

Survive for a whole mourning

That pseudo-kindness you mean a sincerity

False love means loyalty

Time after time passed

You spend it being a garbage box of falsehoods

Day by day change

You use it to be a container of thorns of lies

You let your heart hurt and hurt again

You let your face wet with tears every day

Your beautiful life turned into a long drought

The scorching heat you let torment your mind

You know he's unfaithful

But you still hang on to his side

You know her heart is not as beautiful as her face

But you still set your heart on him

Good soul of the soul

Stop your steps for a moment

Let your conscience go in search of the truth of your Lord

Until your soul is able to distinguish the good and the false

A beautiful soul

It is time for your silence not just to be silent

Letting the wound come over

Without a care even though your face has turned deathly pale

What's wrong with you?

You let your heart break just because you fear solitude

You let your soul ravage only for fear of loneliness

You want to spend your night with your tears

You are willing to pass your hot day with the wound

Try asking yourself

Why are you afraid of losing, and you know that nothing is eternal in this world

Why are you afraid of being alone When you know everything will go alone

The soul is getting tired

God knows that man is weak

You can never go through a night without stars

You will never be able to cross the day without a bright light

So why are you still pretending to survive

While you've been this broken

You have to be strong but not pretend to be strong

Your silence has not saved your soul

You still let your soul be wounded on the wound

You still refuse to go for uncertain reasons

Shut up and get away

Leave your wounds because your Lord forsake your false love for the holy love of your god

Don't waste your tears crying over creatures

Don't waste your time lamenting falsehoods

Stop wishing people or you will be disappointed

Stop your love for which you are uncertain of its purpose

Or you will get hurt

Go back to your creator

Only love is never extinguished

Return your misses that have been misguided

For God has long been waiting for you

Shut up and walk away from the falsehood that will save your heart and soul from pseudo love

(Cited from : Ninik Handrini in***musicalize "Khlaslah When You Choose to Shut Up And Go Away)

It was a day that Raka had been waiting for. A wait full of patience. On the balcony of his house, he stood with a cell phone still attached to his ear.

"Broo, I've got information where Casandra is now," said someone from the phone.

"Where does he live now?" reply Raka with a probing tone.

Until now, Raka is not fully able to

move on from that love of her time. Husna was beside him. However, for him he felt he still needed to know what reason the woman had left him. Although his family has explained about the affair committed by Casandra and Kevin. However, he wanted to hear firsthand the confession from the woman's own mouth.

"She now lives in her parents' home, in Australi. He also has a son who is about six years old. He currently works as a young lawyer" Frans explained.

Frans is his secretary and closest friend. He does ask Frans to find out where Casandra is. As a friend, Frans knew exactly how Raka loved her so much.

Frans will do anything for the happiness of his best friend and boss. Frans was a man with a very temperamental soul. He does not hesitate to remove a person's life from his body, if to find out his boss betrayed. Even until now Raka's adopted brother Kevin continues to try to hide from the cold-blooded hunter.

"Is Casandra really married to Kevin?"ask Raka.

"According to the information I received, Casandra is currently a single mother. She lives with her mother and father in Australia. Even in his office, he is also known to be a single parent woman. According to her office friends, Casandra has a child with no marriage ties" explained Kevin.

"Who is the father of the child? Is it Kevin or another guy?" asked Raka with a chaotic feeling.

"On that I'm sorry Ka same loe. Information about the boy was minimal. Casandra completely shut down the information about her son. In fact, he will prosecute anyone who dares expose the news about his son" Frans explained.

" Ok thank you yes" said Raka.

Raka then disconnects her phone. Now Raka's mind is filled with the question who is the father of Casandra's son? Why is Casandra so shut up about her son?

He could not deny the mistakes he had made with Casandra in the past. The relationship between her and Casandra is an unhealthy one. They often have intercourse like a husband and wife. Raka had time to think if Casandra's child was his child? or the child of another man?

How is Casandra related to Kevin?

According to Frans, Casandra had a child without marital status. So in conclusion Casandra and Kevin never married.

Raka was completely preoccupied with her past thoughts. He forgot to think of the heart of the woman who was currently standing behind him with a warm cup of coffee in his hand.

"Sorry, Husna is interrupting his time. Husna came here just to deliver this coffee" Husna said. The woman had been standing behind her husband for a long time. He heard all of Raka's conversations with Frans on the phone. However, he chose to be quiet and just act normal.

"So, has Adek been there a long time?" ask Raka to his wife.

Now the man felt a little guilty for his wife. He married that woman. Supposedly, he began to learn to accept his wife and forget her ex-lover. But all of this is not easy. It takes time and a long process.

"Alhamdulillah, adek has been here long enough mas. Sorry I felt bad if I had to disturb you. You're still getting calls, '" Husna explained.

"Did you hear all the talk?"ask Raka.

"Yes, listen to me" Husna said briefly.

She had no intention of asking about her husband's conversation on the phone. Because according to Husna, let Raka herself tell him without him having to ask first.

"Didn't want to know what I was talking about on the phone?" ask Raka.

"Sorry mas, did not at the beginning of the matchmaking mas asked that Husna should not interfere in personal affairs mas. As a wife, it is my duty to obey the words of my husband. Of course, as long as what the husband says does not contradict the commandments of Allah" explained Husna.

Then Husna put the coffee in his hand on a mini table in the place. Then he went back to the living room

to gather with the mother Goddess and Mr. Aditya.

"Mas, come back to the guest room. You see, the father and mother are there" said Husna.

Raka just stared at his wife. He doesn't know what to behave like right now. He believes that right now, Husna knows that he is still thinking about and loving other women. However, Husna's patient attitude made Raka feel guilty towards the woman.

Husna turned her body and stepped out her legs. However, Raka grabbed and restrained his wife's wrist in order not to continue his steps. It made Husna fall on Raka's body. Now the two people who have been tied to the wedding rope are trying to knock down the barrier between them.

"Dek, I'm sorry," Raka said.

Now only an apology can be said Raka to his wife.

"I'm sorry for what?" reply Husna.

"For this heart deck. I can't lie to my feelings.

If the reality until now is fully mas still can not forget Casandra," explained Raka with a bitter voice.

He knew that his words would hurt his wife. However, no matter how bitter the reality is, he prefers to be honest with his wife.

" Mum, call Husana while releasing Raka's embrace. Adek happy mas want to be honest about the feelings of mas to adek. Can I ask you something?"ask Husna.

"What do you want to ask?"Raka said while holding his wife's wrist.

"How long have you been dating Casandra?"ask Husna.

" About three years. Why the deck?ask Raka.

" Yes not why the hell mas. eemm.. according to adek anyway, it's only natural that the mas can not love adek like mas love Casandra. Casandra dated for a long time. It's been three years, while the same old man has only been dating for one month" explained Husna.

Just contact Husna's speech caused small vibrations in Raka's heart. He could not believe his wife would break it like that. Now he was convinced that Husna was a woman who deserved to be his wife. Husna was a woman with a very high level of patience. Already the umpteenth time he hurt the heart and feelings of his wife with his attitude and with his tongue. But the woman can still be patient.

Raka tried to untie the covering of Husna's face.Slowly he opened the veil that covered his wife's face. Now he can clearly see the beauty of the face of his wife.

Raka placed her hands behind Husna's head and a kiss landed perfectly on Husna's forehead.

" Dek, allow the mas to carry out their duties as a husband" Raka said as he stared intensely at his wife.

Husna understood her husband's intentions. Then he just nodded his head. After that they went into the room

After being in bed. Raka asked Husna to lie down. Then he put his right hand on the top of his wife's head. Then read the prayer before doing the husband and wife relationship.

Now the morning sunshine seems to be a silent witness of the romance of the two people who are starting a new chapter of their lives.

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