The Regret of the Wife
One-third of Agus's Night

Prophet Muhammad SAW said “Rabb us Tabaraka wa Ta’ala down every night to the sky of the world when there is still a third of the last night, then He said: “Whoever begs for forgiveness to Me, I will forgive him. Whoever invokes (something) for Me, I will give him. And whoever prays to Me, I will grant him.” (CHR. Bukhari).

That night the sky was so cloudy, there was not a single starlight in the sky. The cold of the night was like a very sharp thorn through the skin. Agus woke up from his sleep. He saw a round flat object next to his nightbed, the time still showing at two in the morning. The net is still a little sleepy. However, his legs rose from the bed and refused to re-spread his body. His footsteps brought him to fetch water.

An old relic of his mother held in a special room where he performed prayers.

"Allahu Akbar." cried Agus in heart.

Takbir echoes he repeatedly in each of his prayer movements perform two rakaat prayers isikharahnya. After that, he prayed to the Khalik for guidance about his wife.

In prayer he asked "O Allah, forgive me all my sins. Strengthen my steps in the face of this harsh reality. I love him very sincerely. For the rest, I ask that if he is the soul mate of the world and the Hereafter to me, then by Your Will melt his heart to receive me as I am. Make this marriage a sadinah, mawadah and warohmah. But if he is not my soul mate. Therefore, please allow this heart to accept the fact that You have predestined that my wife should depart from my life. Maybe this is the best way for me and my wife.

The next day, Agus was about to visit the residence of Mr. Mamat accompanied by his father to meet his wife. However, his goal was blocked by the Big Brother.

Mamah Ade said "Why expect a woman like her to leave you only for world affairs. He cannot accept all your shortcomings. That woman is very hypocritical" he said.

Suddenly Agus was furious, knowing the wife was made fun of by the Brother. He did not expect that the Brother he respected all this time could say such harsh words.

"It's a waste of time to expect that hypocritical woman back here. It's possible that out there he's laughing at all of us for making us play." he said.

Agus is getting furious. He clenched his right hand to form a fist and hit hard on his glass.

Cluck...Clack...Blood dripping from his hands mixed with the broken glass debris scattered everywhere.

"Astagfirullah. Agus your hand is hurt." Momamah Ade was worried. Soon Mamah Ade took out a medicine box to treat her wound. However, he clasped his hand. Refusing to be treated. Meanwhile, his blood continued to flow throughout his fingers.

Mr. Ridwan was only fixated on seeing Agus that angry. This was the first time she saw her son angry.

"Astagfirullah." Inner Agus repeatedly called the sentence istighfar.

"I can't be like this. O God, you are the only one I can trust. There is no place for me to complain but only to you" he said in his heart.

To avoid a worse commotion. He hurried to leave them. Take the key to his motorcycle contact. Then passed away to drive his motorbike at a very high speed. No matter what, he had to go through the traffic lights. Right now his mind is in chaos. On the way, he was looking for a place to calm down. In the silence of that night, far from his family he tried to comfort his own heart.