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CHAPTERS.13.

It was 5 pm, and I lasted until the afternoon because Mba Acha asked ustadz for permission to go to the boarding school so I could stay here longer, he's worried because tomorrow is UN but I'm only 2 days studying with him.

I waited long enough but mr. ustadz gag out2, he said ready\_ready neat nganter me back, got up from the sofa because he wanted to go to the bathroom which happened to be lewatin Mba Acha's room, he said, but how surprised I was to see the 18\+ scene because the door of the room was half open, but I could still see clearly.

Yes, I saw the incredible view of how the husband and wife should do and sah2 only in the form of worship. But why am I like a very big stone crucifixion man, I sunnguh inner shock, my heart choked it feels pain, like struck by lightning, really I oh God, I want to cry.

No, even bulir2 tears have gathered in my eyes, yes I saw a couple of husband and wife is doing a scene of kissing, friendly. Huh why I feel here I am a boyfriend who sees a lover I love is cheating, so the picture of my mood, stepping feet it feels like to run but do not know it feels like my legs are boneless, limp jelly tub.

I washed my face with water many\_times while saying, this is not true An, this is wrong, you should know!! end this barbaric feeling, how if you or mama know, what they will feel, you must be able to control yourself. You should be happy to see it, it means the household Mba Acha harmonious, huft but instead of subsiding my tears even more flowing, what\_what am I, I swear I want to curse!!.

After taking a deep breath many\_times and calming my heart, I took my foot back to the living room, and it turned out that the couple was already there.

"Kirain ran away An, called gag nyut" Mba Acha, you don't know sad I'm hyks, "from the bathroom Mba" I answered trying to calm down and ordinary.

"can go home now, it's almost Maghrib, gag the same manager, again I have a memorization deposit" I swear I gag again want to linger_long again.

"Yes have already departed mas, let you turn also gag kemaleman" said mba Acha, what else do they, as if Mba Acha told pak ustadz not long\_lama huh?.

We were quiet on the way to the boarding school, even sitting in the back seat, even though he could see his back more clearly, or he could see me from the front of the car, the important thing is a bit far, let gag get sick2. I'm already a rich girlfriend again crave the truth, fortunately they will gag know my true feelings.

"Thank you, An, you and your family have helped keep Acha from small until now" said Mr. Ustadz may try to open a chat so that the gag is awkward.

"An, your family is able in terms of finances, then the benefits to find good knowledge, it's an opportunity that is Godly love, so that one day the knowledge you get can benefit the people" his advice.

"many An, who want to go to college but gag there are funds when they are smart, so actually you just need more effort again really, you pinter An, you pinter An, yes, but cleverness also needs to be sharpened, rich knives, if in the biarin lying gag ever in use what else gag ever in the sharpening will be dull and rusty, ahirnya dag useful" he said again, he said, I just sighed as my reaction that I was listening.

"man is also An, if he has a target, his life will be standard and gag excited" right I know everything he says is just my brain gag synchronous, gag synchronous,

'can his advice next time and to others' would like me to interrupt his words, who is still in college for free, maybe because the lecturer has so many languages, but I am brave, how brave, gag knows if I'm tangled gini, "just shut up An, gag likes ya" he asked which made me surprised because daydreaming.

"No sir, maybe you haven't had a bath so gag refresh, hehe" I replied then. "for ya An, the rules you took a shower earlier at home" what2an this guy gag knows what I saw last live show that made gini pain.

" Thank you sir has been delivered safely" I said when we were Samapi in the boarding school, even a new car up to the gate but I was desperate to get off when the security guard was opening the gate, I immediately ran to the side of the pesantren the way through to the dormitory so that faster, bodo very ama he who might think me why even just say thank you without greetings, I swear I was upset.

" Assalamualaikum" I said after I opened the door to my dorm room and I found 3 of my roommates tadarus while rote, a routine activity ahead of the Maghrib.

"walaikumsalam" they replied in unison, "new tumben came home" asked Ratih, he was the one studying, he was the same age as me so we were the same2 struggling, he said,

"marathon, tomorrow war" I replied as I passed by preparing to take a shower because it broke again must be the adhan, "the spirit of dong ya, let the marathon also, right while washing the eyes of ustadz keceh" said dance, dance, in the mercy of the mouth.

"keep your eyes on ta, zina eyes look out you know" that beautiful scaring, I was silent and immediately entered the bathroom, yes our room immediately there is a bathroom so small, so that, the important thing is that the queue gag prolonged, for a moment I was silent before starting the ritual bath, I thought of the word beautiful, zina eyes.

What was I also insulted the eyes because I saw the scene of the couple's kiss, Samapi my age at this time I just saw it, even imagined never, and worse, never, do I also despise the heart because it has an interest in the husband of people, god what is my day as a man wrong place and khilaf.

I rushed to follow my friend\-friend to the mosque because I was already at the residence, he said my long bath, here, in this mosque that I have been in for 6 years, he said, I really feel the calmness of all the anxiety of the heart, especially after praying, it sounds sahut2an chanting verses\-sacred verses Al\-Qur'an that children\-sons of pesantren chant, while memorizing, reciting, oh yes Alloh keep the heart of the servant of all forms of insecurity and make restless, my prayers and I hope semog in Ijabah, really my feelings are not comfortable with this all, I am not comfortable with this, with all the fear and anxiety that is not necessarily true.