TANKER (TTM)
I do it with my feelings

"Divorce process is not complicated? " Tanyaku to the resty some time after the incident my closeness with aryangga increasingly intimate

"Mom Liany seriously?? "Ask her while widening her eyes

"Yes, I've thought about it well, the risks and my life in the future how" I replied while stopping my coffee shavings

"Is this all because of aryangga sir? "

"Hmmm.... Not really" I replied after a few seconds I fell silent thinking about it..

**I finally chose Divorce, not for anyone.not because aryangga also..

**Resty who had noticed that I was turning back my food that was not running out..

"Not good food is bu liany? "Ask him as if he could guess

"His son, just why yes. keinget pak aryangga continues" while I stared fixed how resty's reaction.

"Bu liany fell in love with arya sir??" her question is full of searching

"No "my answer is short which is a bit of a mood

"Why did it come to this? so not in the mood, talking divorce, thinking too" he tried to be a detective

"Seriously ?? bu liany did it? while looking at the eyes..

"Yes, "my answer is short while playing a cup of coffee and food that dariitadi not abis abis.

**Resty who looked at me was astonished, how far I had a relationship until I gave up everything, which all this time no one had ever been able to tear down the wall of my principle resilience, without her daring to ask

"i'm sure, ma'am Liany has thought about this good and bad everything, which is for sure. I love the same bu liany. really do not want to see bu liany hurt anymore" as he shed tears, he tried to understand how much support I really needed back then.

"Just be calm, I've thought about the risks.."As I held her hand it calmed

**I once said to Resty, perhaps an indicator of how my next relationship with arya sir, is with me resigned everything..

but. I've been thinking, what after everything happened..arya will leave me, just like when he fucked the woman, which he bought then he threw away and became a toy? or she remembers me as a memory or we'll get closer to becoming a person who never gets forgotten.

**Indeed, from that moment on, I was too busy thinking about her, the overthinking that made me uncomfortable, of course. I felt something was different.but I didn't know what it was. I even felt ignored, I feel jealous, I feel hurt. I do everything with my feelings. I want to be a person who means something to him. I want him to know..

but.. I realized it would not be possible.maybe for me. The first time I did it after I got married, but him? many times.with women who change.and I think, my demands are too perfectionist.he is too difficult for me to reach. and many times I failed to convince my own thinking.. actually he's a guy who might approach me because of loneliness, not because I'm different from other women.. Lany's...

I asked, what is so great about lany that makes you fall in love, how great is lany who may be lucky to be the person you love and you wait..

**I came home, with all the raging feelings, full of questions that I didn't know the answer to