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Choosing loved (finished )

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A year ago.

Ara stood in the hallway leaning against one of the refuting poles.

The view is straight ahead, towards the door at the other end.

After yesterday Rendi said she passed the selection of prospective manager candidates, Ara also took the initiative to encourage the first day of Rendi in her new office .

During the competency period Rendi and several other candidates are placed in one office to work together to complete a project.

And here comes Ara. Waiting at one of the exits at the back of the wake that was so high towering.

When parking his vehicle earlier he had looked up, trying to stare at the end of the wake.

There is a sense of pride to have a lover and be able to accompany him until now his career has skyrocketed.

Of course, Ara has a lot of hope for her future with Rendi.

Once again Ara felt lucky and did not choose to love a Rendi.

30 Minutes later, the waiting one appeared and walked up to him.

Ara immediately put on her best smile.

'' honey, I brought it to eat '' shows the bushel containing the food of his cooking.

Ara even asked for permission not to enter work to make the special cuisine.

Rendi let out a rough breath.

He's pissed. In the midst of his busy life, Ara called out to him just for this matter ?

He shakes in disbelief.

Taken it while saying thank you, then it just passed.

Ara, who was a little disappointed in her lover's response, tried to hold back by convincing herself that maybe Rendi was indeed very busy.

Ara turned around with her head bowed, and ' bruk' she accidentally bumped into someone .

'' ma-ma-ma-sorry mas.. '' Ara held her head up. He flinched when he saw that the one he hit was a man .

'' no papa, that voice sounded so friendly.

The man with the name tag 'Zean' was smiling at him.

For a moment the two stared at each other.

'' eng, sa-i '' Ara fluttered and confused, not knowing what to do.

Aside from Rendi he hardly ever interacts with other men.

He was also awkward to deal with the situation at the moment.

'' that was Rendi, yes ?'' zean's words made Ara look back at him.

The man returned his gaze while smiling broadly.

'' i-iya ''

'' her boyfriend ?''

'' i-iya ''

'' I'm Zean. Friends of the office and also one part with him ''

Zean reached out his hand which was greeted hesitantly by Ara.

Ara was feeling unusually nervous, as her palms came into contact with the foreign man before her.

Accidental meetings don't just happen once.

From then on, whether by chance or part of their destiny, whenever Ara came to visit Rendi , she must have met Zean.

Without them noticing, something began to intertwine between them.

A friendship that only the two of them knew.

And for the sake of maintaining a relationship that is only limited to friends, they also agreed not to be too close so as not to cause misunderstandings later.

The originally stiffened aura, slowly began to feel at ease in Zean's supple personality.

Zean was also a very polite man and spoke soft words.

Until he starts to open up about his relationship and Rendi.

He even made Zean a place to confide and began to complain about Rendi's cold attitude to him.

One more thing that Ara liked about Zean, the man never once sided with her or Rendi.

Zean considers himself to be a listener who never speaks up, let alone acts to express an opinion.

Until the unexpected comes to Ara.

Zean and his parents come to Ara's house to propose.

Ara surprised.

But because he was still in a relationship with Rendi, he asked for time to give an answer.

'' ever since I first met you, I have loved you, Ara.

For a year I've been trying to hold back.

And it turns out I'm not strong enough to control my heart and my feelings.

I love you, Ara.

Maybe this sounds shameless because you're still Rendi's lover and Rendi herself is my close friend.

But I really can't control how I feel Zean said as Ara asked her to speak to each other in the field right next to her house.

Ara speechless. Zean's expression of love sounds so sincere.

'' tap-but ak-me.. ''

'' Ara...

everyone has and has made mistakes in the past .

You know that I'm not the type to judge.

I don't care what you've ever done.

I promise, if you will give me a chance by receiving my alarm, I will never bring it up let alone fuss about it.

So, will you believe me ?''

Ara speechless.

After that night, all of Zean's words always ring and fill his head.

Ara began to doubt, worry and also slowly pessimistic on the continuation of her relationship and Rendi.

Until then came. Rendi gave the news that he managed to get a position as assistant manager and would receive training for one month outside the city.

Ara was happy to hear that.

Especially when Rendi invited him to dinner while giving him a surprise in the form of a plane ticket to Bali.

Rendi took her on vacation .

Ara who had started to hesitate immediately hope reappeared.

He thought maybe Rendi would propose to him there.

* * *

That day has arrived.

They are already in Bali and start enjoying every beautiful thing that is there. Walking with hands like a couple on their honeymoon.

" if only we were married "

But everything is not as imagined. That night, after their exciting romance..

Ara fell silent after Rendi flatly refused her invitation to marry.

All his hopes and hopes were dashed.

He had even tried several times to seduce and persuade Rendi . But all his efforts were in vain.

The man chose to sleep and turned his back on him.

Heart hurts. He felt he had no pride anymore.

Ara was crying in silence. Her tears came out nonstop.

Until finally he was too happy.

It was all in vain . What he has given and what he has done for the man he loves so much is not considered at all.

For the first time he felt that everything he had done was wrong.

Love shouldn't be like this.

The sin of everything he had done because of being blinded by his feelings for this man was already too great.

Ara wants to end it. But he was too scared.

Fearful of her future as a woman who can't keep her pride and honor.

What if he gets underestimated ?

Seen one eye or even there will be no more men who want to accept it ?

The crying is growing. Make Rendi turn around and look at her.

Ara immediately wiped away her tears. He turned around and changed now he was the one behind him.

'' don't overdo it, ra.

I don't want to marry you.

But I haven't told my parents about you at all ''

' deg' Ara's cries stopped instantly.

He sat down and held a blanket to cover his naked body.

He looked at Rendi with disbelief.

'' you haven't told me anything yet ?''

' ck' Rendi clucked in annoyance and then sat down.

''actually, what did you consider me all this time ?''

''don't start the drama again, ra ''

'' right. You're correct. All we've been doing is drama.

And it seems like my role is nothing more than just your lustful gratifier ''

'' ra, I don't like you talking rich.

If you don't like it, why don't you refuse every time we do it ?

You never even mind and always come when I say ''

Ara nodded.

It's really waking up now.

He was stupid and very stupid for being entangled in love with a heartless man.

'' this is the last time.

This will be the last time I ask you ''

'' ... ''

'' pliss, ren. Before leaving, send me to my father ''

Again, once again Ara convinced herself by throwing away her pride to beg at Rendi.

Wait until I tell both my parents and come with them .

We just got married ''

'' I did not ask for marriage directly .

But at least I applied to my father first ''

'' why are you, maksa ?

Are you pregnant ?''

Ara shakes. Because that was indeed not the reason for urging Rendi to propose to him.

'' then ?''

Ara stood up, picked up the clothes scattered on the floor and quickly put them on.

'' I won't ask and urge you again.

You have a week before you go to consider it.

Until then, I won't call you either.

And if there's no news at all, I'll assume our relationship is really over ''

Ara said before finally getting out of the hotel room that has been a witness of what they did during a week of vacation in Bali.

At this moment Ara felt like her world was destroyed.

He could look back. Her tears are back.

Don't persuade, just catch up with him the man didn't.

Ara came back to be self-devouring.

I don't know what made him so blind that he loved and gave everything to Rendi.

All the way from the hotel - on the way to the airport until finally he got on the plane Ara tears did not stop flowing.

He repeatedly cursed himself. Blaming stupidity and attitude has no self-respect.

It is still clear in his memory how he first handed the crown of chastity to Rendi. He wanted to bind Rendi with a responsibility, hoping that the man's attitude would soften on him.

He even prepared himself with the contraceptive pill he swallowed every time they finished connecting.

She also does not want to get pregnant if it feels like Rendi is still half-hearted to her.

But after that, he was sure. If there had never been love for her in that heart.

Without a second thought, shortly after returning home, Ara accepted Zean's proposal .

And the day before the wedding, Ara sent Rendi a handbag using courier services.

However, it was misrepresented by Rendi.

He thinks Ara's anger has subsided and the contents of the handbag Ara's shipment are evidence to persuade him.

Rendi is too confident. Let alone thinking of apologizing first, he even arrogantly did not want to contact and was sure that Ara would definitely contact him first.

A week passed, Ara never called.

Until the training period ended, then bad thoughts began to approach Rendi.

The joints start to flutter. Ara's cell phone number is off. Even the office friend where Ara worked said that Ara had stopped since last month.

Slowly Rendi also realized, if he had gone too far.

He then plans to propose to Ara after his return. And with his zeal he also prepared a ring which he would use to challenge Ara.

His heart was blooming as well as nervous. I can't wait to think about it.

He is getting excited and has decided if later he will tell Ara that he loves and wants Ara to be his life companion.

But what happened was so surprising.

He was faced with the fact that Ara was married. And what he did not think was, how could the husband of Ara be Zean ?

And here they are.

Standing opposite each other in the middle of the field in the yard right next to Ara.

'' are you cheating ?'' tanya Rendi looked at Ara sharply.

He was upset and also very angry because he felt betrayed.

'' cheating ? I think the name is cheating if we still have a relationship.

You forgot what I said last time ?''

Randy thought for a moment. Digging into the memories of the incident that Ara meant.

'' you're still the same Rendi. Who never thought my words meant anything ''

'' tap-but how can you marry tan-''

'' you also never appreciated my gifts.

The handbag I sent, you definitely haven't opened, right ?''

Choked joints. What is it really ?

'' inside was a farewell greeting card and also my wedding invitation ''

Rendi's sharp gaze receded and slowly turned sad.

Is the woman in front of him no longer his ?

Is Ara really married ?

'' I think it's enough to get here.

In the future I'll make sure we never see each other again.

Tomorrow me and Zean will go .

We will start and live our new life Ara turned around to step but did not so because Rendi mentioned her name.

'' Ara.I love you ''

Ara smiled wryly. He looked up, holding back his tears. After so many years of passing thousands of days together, then why is this man saying things that he has been saying since the past ?

Ara turned around, facing him back.

'' sorry, you're late Ren. Because now I've stopped loving you ''

'' but it can't be that fast, right ?''

'' no problem, no problem. As long as there are faithful people who love me and accept me for who I am.

I'm sure , the feeling could definitely be gone.

Just like I did to you.

So many years of hoping that with all my efforts, I can finally make you love me too, right ? ''

' gruduk-gruduk-gruduk' the rumbling sounds of each other rumbling together with the lightning that split the starless night sky.

'' divorce her. And I will marry you right away ''

Ara chuckled, staring sinisterly at her interlocutor.

'' you are still confident. Do you think, just because that late declaration of love was gonna make me come back to you ? ''

'' I love you. And I don't care even though she fucked you ''

'' you want to claim me for that ? You feel entitled because I slept with you ?

Conscious Ren. Open your eyes wide.

He's my husband.

It's only natural that she fucked me. So obviously, he is more entitled and more deserving of my body ''

'' Ara '''

'' I'm pregnant ''

'' ap-what is it ? Kam-you're pregnant ?''

Ara nodded firmly.

'' it can't be his son.. It-it must be my son right ?''

'' you are still unconscious.

I've been married to her for a month .

And we were just from the gynecologist.

The doctor said my pregnancy has only been 3 weeks . It's definitely not your son ''

'' ... ''

'' why ? Do you wonder why while doing it with you, I am not pregnant ?''

'' ... ''

'' because since the first time I turned myself in to you, I had anticipated it.

I always take the Pill every time we finish doing it ''

Rendi fell silent. He can no longer talk.

His gaze was still fixed on Ara. He is not willing, unwilling, very unwilling to have women owned by others. Many times the sentence filled his head.

'' being loved is more fun than loving without ever being reciprocated.

Just like I did to you.

As time goes by, I can definitely open my heart and repay Zean's love ''

'' Ara '' Rendi slumped, both knees felt limp and bent to the ground.

'' don't be like this, Ren.

We're done.

And no one will be able to change it.

Sorry if I hurt you.

So please, go. Forget what ever happened between us ''

Ara passed leaving Rendi who was trying to get back up straight.

He stared at the back of the once satisfied woman he was fondling. The first woman and always she hoped would be the last.

And that he thought would be the only thing in his life.

Regret is of no use.

No more submissive Ara and the one who faithfully will always love her .

The point of rain began to fall slowly, then it was getting heavier when Rendi was already in the car.

He saw how Zean's hands were coiled around Ara's waist and led her into the house.

And the door was closed.

Ara, sorry. All because of my ambition and selfishness.

If I wasn't late to say it. Maybe right now what's in your stomach is my son. Our kids.

Rendi was no longer able to endure her heartache and cried so badly.

Condemn the stupidity that has caused him to lose the most precious thing in his life.

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