NOT VIRGIN BLOOD
That's the Illustration

Saga immediately opened the letter with two trembling hands. He had not yet read, his eyes were already glazed over. Saga could barely read the letter if her heart was not forced to stay strong. At least he should know what the letter is about

Dear, Saga.

If Mas has received this letter, it means I have gone far. Please don't look for me again, Mom. I want, from now on you to learn to live without me.

The first sentence Namira wrote made Saga's heart feel tight. He really did not think that Namira could write such an evil sentence.

I'm sure it's not that hard because you never thought this marriage existed in the first place. Of course I can't blame you either because all these problems started with me. It's also supposed to put an end to all this, Mom.

Wouldn't our relationship end that way? So what are you waiting for, Mom?

For a moment Saga closed his eyes slowly. The second and third lines are too painful to read.

All I do now is speed up time. Same with me, so I hope you can learn to rearrange your life that was scattered. Women out there must have been impatient to want to queue up to be won.

I'd be happy if someday you'd be happy with another woman, Mas.

And ...

I'm sorry because up to this point I couldn't be honest with you. This honesty is too hard to tell. There are too many secrets you should not know. All this for your own good. So let me go with this secret that has not been revealed.

Pray that I will take care of this baby, Mom.

Oh yes, if you came to my father to find out where I am, you would only do the pointless thing. He knows nothing at all.

My father knew I was leaving, he had also prepared a place for me to stay for a while, but I never came to that place.

I chose to go to a place where I could live alone without the people I knew.

Again, I'm sorry, Mom. I'm sorry for all my mistakes for making your life a mess since I married you. But trust me, you're the man I've loved the most. No man has a heart as soft as yours, not even the father of this baby will be able to replace you.

Thank ye.

Warm regards from Namira.

Saga's tears have been divorced since. He did not expect Namira so depressed so far even planned to run away from far away.

If Saga were a little roomy and accepted Namira as she was. Maybe it won't happen like this. Rice has become porridge.

What Saga did with the intention of making Namira honest, actually made the woman choose to go from him. It was like he was hit by a boomerang that he threw himself.

"Sir, relax, Miss will definitely come back to you again" Damar said.

"What if something happens to her, Damar? She's pregnant" said Saga, full of anxiety.

"You're worried about Miss not being pregnant. But because you still love him so much. If you give little room for Miss to survive, maybe she won't run away like this."

"What do you mean?" Saga looked up with tears still divorcing. At this time he eliminated the shame and selfishness that is usually always embedded in the man's body.

"I mean, all this time you couldn't accept Miss Namira's flaws. So why does he stay by your side with such unclear circumstances. It must have hurt her heart so much. So running away is the best way. Whether there are other reasons or not" Damar said.

"But I did that so he would confess to Damar!" cut the Saga fast. "The problem won't be this long if he wants to confess. And it's possible that my heart might melt if he's honest as he is" Maki Saga was really upset. Now he doesn't know who else to blame.

"If you want Miss Namira to confess, then take her heart little by little. Make him feel comfortable, not even threatened," said Damar again.

It felt like Saga really wanted to shout at all of that.

"Ah, fuck!" Saga swept some items on the table with his hands. He was really that frustrated at the moment.

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