NOT VIRGIN BLOOD
What's This Again?

Early in the morning Namira woke up with a condition that was difficult to define. Feelings and hopes that had died slowly grew and came back because of Saga's treatment last night.

Why when he wanted to run away Mas Saga even suddenly like this?

I think Namira wants to scream. He recalled how last night they both enjoyed the sinful struggle. 

Not long after Saga woke up. At that time Namira was sleeping on her side while staring at the peaceful face of the sleeping Saga while hugging her. The atmosphere turned extremely awkward as both of them were both in an innocent state.

"What are you doing in my room?" Eventually the self-informed sentence came out after Saga realized Namira's presence in front of Saga. The man immediately turned his body. He tries to remember everything that happened last night, but all of it makes him drown in shame when he realizes he is the one who put Namira in his bed.

"Ehem!" Saga cleared his throat after a long time of silence. 

"Sorry for last night. I was drunk and unconscious" said Saga clumsily. He spoke still with his back to Namira. A few moments later, Saga turned around. Namira seemed to be allowing a blanket to cover her open cleavage.

"Why didn't you prevent and remind me last night? Or at least you can escape. Why don't you do that" Saga said.

"Me?" The woman was pensive. Now it's Namira's turn to be overwhelmed with clumsy feelings. Because honestly Namira also has the same feeling. He misses and wants every touch of Saga.

"It all happened so fast. I didn't prevent it let alone escape" Namira said. 

Their faces were currently both blushing.

"Next time don't approach me drunk. That's very dangerous for you."

"Yes." Yeah." Namira lowered her gaze. He closed his eyes as Saga went down and picked up one by one his clothes on the floor.

"I'm sorry, Mas" said Namira to feel guilty. He realized that he and Saga had just made a big mistake. Saga shouldn't water a farm already planted. It is clearly a sin that deviates from religious law. But Namira goes to Saga when she gets drunk. He acts like a fish jumping into a boat.

"Wear your shirt." 

"Thank you, Mum."

"Hm. Don't forget to clean yourself up. I don't want any of my seeds stuck there" Saga ordered. Somehow the words were like a concern that made Namira's heart warm for a while.

Although there is no special attention. This morning's saga was a bit talkative making Namira melt down.

Saga then passed to the bathroom. Namira did the same. He took a bath in the bathroom outside the room.

Afterwards Namira makes a simple sandwich for her to eat. Just as Namira was about to touch the sandwich on the table, suddenly Saga came pulling the chair.

"It's mine, isn't it?"

Namira kontan. What wind makes Saga want to sit at the dinner table and take his sandwich.

"I .. yes," replied Namira.

"Where do you sound?" Saga looked at Namira's confused face with not knowing her.

"A .. I've eaten Mas."

"Oh!" Saga then ate the sandwich in his hand. Namira slightly folded her lips. She smiled because this was the first time Saga wanted to eat her food without coercion.

"Thank you for the food. I'm leaving." Saga pulled the briefcase beside her. He continued to step, but as he was about to reach the doorway his head turned to the back.

"Have you checked the baby?" Saga's eyes were fixed on Namira's stomach.

"Su .. already, Mas." 

"How is he doing?"

"Ba .. good." Namira smiles. "The doctor said it was stronger. Maybe later in the second trimester I can be healthier again from now on" continued the woman.

"Oh." Saga then left after finishing with her question.

Does this mean Saga is starting to melt down and willing to accept it?

High-level delusion is like a butterfly that adorns Namira's life. But a black hole is back. Namira awakens from a crazy hope that is unlikely to happen.

"No! No matter what happens, I have to stand by my point. For the sake of a good future for Mas Saga I must leave immediately."

Happy to change wounds. I don't know until when Namira has to drip warm blood from her eyes.

"When I didn't do that for sure now we can be happy with our marriage, Mas. Unfortunately I was stupid ... I was stupid for being deceived by that man," said Namira who was condemning his stupidity. His whole body is squeezing. Namira slumped on the floor while listening to the sound of Saga's car slowly moving away.

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Her night. Saga's coming home at nine. Today he was not drunk as usual. It's just that his behavior is a little strange. He went straight into the room and locked himself up without speaking let alone greeting. 

Namira who has been waiting for Saga's return since morning is certainly very upset. There was something he wanted to talk about and it was very disturbing if it was not said right now.

"Mas, open the door I'd like to talk to you for a second."

"I'm tired." Saga answered from within.

"Just for a second, Mom, I just wanted to make sure of something." Namira brought her ear to the door.

"What do you want to say? If it's about who's the father of the baby in your stomach, I'll open the door. But if I don't want to sleep" said Saga again.

"No, but it's no less important than that."

"For me nothing is more important than that!" 

Saga slammed her body into the bed.

"Maas …." Namira exclaimed in annoyance. 

"If you don't want to go out I'll stand in front of the door until you open it" Namira shouted.

Saga who had pulled the blanket turned her head. "'Please if you want to waste your time." The man then pulled out a blanket to cover his entire body. Saga tries not to care.

It didn't feel like that night he slept very well. He woke up when he heard his alarm clock go off at five in the morning. Saga sat down and stretched her hands up. 

He looked towards the door. There seemed to be no movement or signs of Namira outside his room. Knowing that, Saga smiled.

"Women always talk a lot. Which one he said would wait for me until morning," Saga murmured. 

After shaking Saga's head down from the bed. Instead of finding out about Namira, he prefers to go to the bathroom to flutter his body. 

Actually Saga himself was quite curious why Namira suddenly wanted to talk about important things. But after what happened to them last night makes Saga realize, that he must keep more distance from Namira. The man did not want his heart to melt before reaching his goal.

Saga realized that he was a man filled with desire. No matter how hard he tried not to be tempted, in fact there was still a time where he was plunged by the charm of Namira.

About half an hour of Saga bathing. He also did some other activities such as light exercise. Only then did Saga leave the room to treat her curiosity.

"Yes, Lord Namira?"

Saga rounded her eyes wide as Namira's body fell right in front of her feet.

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