My prayer My Miracle
flashbacks

already this week rendra is always on the brink of questions about consideration - khumay considerations about his work, he decided to resign because of some factors that make khumay have to leave the company. one of the reasons is when he is no longer able to stem the disappointment of someone he once loved but prefers other women , and it has been 5 months that the man married the woman of his parents' choice.

the man who had made her feel devastated because of his decision to choose another woman, making Khumay have to leave the company that has raised his name all along in his village. this decision is certainly not known by rendra , because indeed he did not tell his story this time to rendra. khumay was not able to see it continuously while working , because indeed they are only different divisions only.every moment even every time he will look into the eyes of the man.

"yang , I think I should resign from the Bram company. I'm tired." said khumay when they were sitting together enjoying the sunset on the edge of the lake which is not far from the cost.

"are you sure you want to leave the company? what is the strongest reason? mas want to know." reply rendra curious for the strongest reason khumay.

but khumay refused to give an answer to the reason, he continued to condense it. "gapapa darling, I just emang pingin already there. already tired of work. if fit again there is an event, I just want to be there, like far dear.I want to find another one that can stay here with you." he said as an excuse so that rendra does not ask again the strongest reason.

"sorry mas I lied, there is indeed the strongest reason that you do not need to know. This is my past about giko. the man I once loved, just as I love you now. he prefers this woman as his wife. and for 5 months I had to endure the wound every time I saw his face and his life, which my office friends talked about in front of me. that was enough to be my strongest reason to resign and leave in front of him.sorry mas.." he said in his heart immediately he fell silent and did not realize that rendra had called him from earlier also waved his hand in front of his face because it was so cool to daydream.

"which .. why ? what do you think ?" call rendra

"not the , I just thought I could not be far from hariis and tika, my work partner. they've done enough for me to feel at home and our teamwork always produces its own satisfaction for the company, but this decision was already round. the day after I wanted to meet with Bram to submit my resignation letter." khumay

"yes, if it is already your unanimous decision.I hope there is a better job that you want.mas support aja origin it's positive." bala rendra smiled towards Khumay who was staring blankly at the sunset.

"yes we have returned yes mas, umi want to ngbrol the same indi." invite khumay to rendra , because it is already late at night.

after arriving at his boarding rendra say goodbye to go home because it has been waited by his sister to be invited to go.

" ndi , ndi , what are you doing in Dalem?" call khumay in front of the Indian kosan.

lala who opened the door "eh kak khumay , enter. kak indi again bath. but already from earlier si. may be briefly again finished. oh yes kak khumay. lala has a new temen loh. tomorrow you want to play here to meet you guys, and want to know you guys."

"ooh yeah ? what's her name ?" ask khumay.

"nara. he temenku from yogyakarta. swear he was very good, type all foreigners to lala, he still want to be the same lala , even though lala away , lala , but he still wants to be the same lala." he replied briefly

khumay daydreamed when he heard the name "nara ? is she the wife of Giko ? ah I can not suspect.where maybe he was the same lala. let alone he was married." he said in his heart. make lala wonder because khumay daydreams.

"kak khumay, hello .. kok daydreaming ?" lala was confused

"sorry, is he married ?" tanya Khumay made sure more about the woman.

"he was married, yesterday I met her husband also , her husband was well sworn."

khumay fell silent to Lala's confession about nara , his heart racing as he heard the name. "stay where can you know?" ask again curiously but his heart kept shaking.

"not far from the campus, sister why do you think you know the same nara ?" ask lala suspiciously.

"not the , just a familiar kayak with the same name" replied Khumay gave an excuse to lala not to suspect anymore.

suddenly indi came and became the reason khumay run from the naughty gaze lala because smelling the motion - suspicious khumay gerik about nara. "hay ndi, has finished bathing ?" greet Khumay to indi who just came out of the room towards the seat beside her.

"already, why are you ? like again there is a real problem.the story." Indi reply staring at the face khumay.

"i want to resign tomorrow" he replied briefly.

"are you serious ? what reason?" tanya Indi was surprised at khumay's confession.

"gallot."

"giko ? that fucking guy? the guy who made you hurt ? I can't accept that that's the reason you resigned."

"but this has been my strongest excuse. plis ndi."

"mi , explain to me the reason why you used to be so crazy to him ?  I don't know until now."

**flashback**

"so gini was first..."

"at that time I was a new kid in our company, only 1 month old, arrived ...

"hay, I'm riski, do you know what loe's name is ?" asked the foreign man who was standing right in front of Khumay while extending his hand.

"i frowned." but he did not return the riski's hand and only answered his name with his sweetest smile.

"oh okay, can I sit here ? you're on your own, right ?"

"may, I'm always alone." reply again briefly

"oh yes khumay, you get greetings from giko" he continued while eating his lunch.

khumay looked at riski with a gnash of his eyes gesturing to tell him.

"the man sitting across from us, he kept gliatin aja towards loe, he giko. lo fans." pointed riski towards giko in follow 2 khumay eyeballs, he said, khumay simply returned giko's smile and ignored it again.

"oh, yes walaikumsalam, if that's me first."

khumay left his own riski and went into his room, followed by the riski kemna khumay left, making Khumay feel uncomfortable but he could not refuse.

when all are working according to their respective jobs, suddenly riski entered into the room khumay , making indi , hari and tika feel strange because the direction of riski is directly aimed at khumay.

"whyn't you go to the khumay table ?" ask indi jutek

"it's up to me dong, emm khumay I asked for lo dong number." he said while removing a small piece of paper towards the pens khumay being in his hand.

"sorry whiskey, I'm still busy, and not tasty with the others. You bother them. I'm not happy." subtly refused

"gue does not care, or I have to keep standing here until you really - really love lo. love also needs to fight." forced riski.

"crazy you ya ki , new kid you already embat aja... how are you the same diamond ?" ask harris to riski

"'this is for giko. diem aja lo ris. pursue love lo who will never be accomplished." he replied with a cynical smile towards India.

"diem deh you guys noisily.i'm the one who went. I want aduin to a pack bram aja if you guys make a scene in my room." ketus tika and go away.

khumay fell silent and wrote a letter containing his number to riski. "say the same thing, don't ever involve you again , I don't feel good about each other. and you do not need to be a bridge for us. thanks." he replied straightforwardly.

"emm alright lady. I'm coming in." reply riski and leave the room.

"khumai ? lo deket same riski same giko ?" ask indi curious.

"don't ndi , umi mah justan don't want to make a fuss, so yes already love to him. umang why ya ?"

"he already has a girlfriend even wants a fiancee, but yes why is it still a godain oranng other.not out pikkir is the same guy." said Indi annoyed

without realizing it must have heard it was furious, "ekheemm, I'm also a boy." said harris annoyed

"iya kayak loe also, another girl seductress, by itself already have."

"hey, who said I had one ? you have it."

"goe ? I don't want to, and I don't like the way you joke."

"later surely you lose me, klo I've stopped making a flirt lo. uh but I forget that love also needs to be fought." reply again while bringing his face closer to the face of India. making Khumay feel surprised because of their inevitable debate.

"what the heck lo, forward a little more I gibeng lo" said Indi pushing his body that was near him when they both approached towards khumay.

"can't you guys just keep fighting,"

indi returned to his seat as well as the day after, soon the clock came home , khumay rushed to go home, as well as indi and hari.

"oh yaa may, if you want to be with me back, I'm willing to do it." said Indi offered her a ride.

'yes ndi , I wait in the post then." reply khumay agreed.

"khumai ? ati - ati ya on the street." the voice was right in his ear as he was walking towards the elevator.

khumay looked and was surprised because giko who was right next to him, making khumay blush embarrassed. "iya makasih.".reply singkaat and passed because the indi had been waiting for him.

****

every night khumay salalu disturbed by the notif - giko's notif, always gave a romantic word that can make khumay began to open his hatin, although he did not know who the real giko.

and it turns out their closeness is smelled by the indi who is now his best friend. Khumay tried to keep a distance when in the office area, but it turns out that he can not hide from the indi. while being cool chatan indi tried to seize the mobile phone belonging to khumay and mencba to check what is going on with this shabatnya , and true alleged indi so far , that gikolah is approaching khumay.

"mi , lo deket same giko ?"

khumay just smiled grimacingly and grabbed her phone again in the hand held indi. "yes, what happened to giko? he's good, isn't he ?  he's a romantic" replied khumay

"i know it's ndi , but no one knows it" replied khumay making the indi silenced.

"then, later if you stay married the same she how ? do you know the risk of third person ? and a second girlfriend?"

"indi ? I'm the same he just won doang, calm down yeah, I'll be good - all right"

****

after the incident, giko and khumay are getting closer, not infrequently if they always meet in the free time of giko.

outside of work hours and outside of hours met his girlfriend, and it was very they enjoyed both, so that Khumay did not realize that his heart would be hurt later.

"umi, I saranin deh mending lo lessin communication same giko, I denger 1 office already on know if lo deket same giko , I do not want you in say ngrebut girlfriend people. I am sick with horror." said indi kedapa khumay while enjoying the beauty of the sunset in the piggie lake, making Khumay turn his gaze towards India.

"ndi , I know it hurts a lot, I'm slalu in the number twoakan. but I miss him sma. I can't forget him that's all ndi , '' 'cause , I've fallen in love with him." he replied casually but made India surprised.

"khumai ? you realize the same what you said this ?" ask indi wonder

"he has so many memories to me over the past 1 year, I still have a hard time getting away from him."

"but mi , your relationship has kissed her boyfriend , I don't want you to have problems with him."

"do you know where ndi came from ?" ask khumay.

"already mi , I beg you very much lo."

"but ndi. there are things that make us can't be far away.dn I'm sure if we are paired" he said with full confidence

"can you be sure that's about a soul mate?" ask indi wonder

"i'd like to try to forget him."

"gue sure you can."

that afternoon was the beginning of khumay's move to leave giko, when he had already begun to feel sidelined by giko. the days will feel lonely again and will feel bland again as before the presence of giko in his life.

even though he is only a mistress of giko, he quite enjoyed it because he can look at the face every time on the working day. and feel quite happy because giko is enough to give happiness that he never got from other men.then in the tourist attractions that became a silent witness to their intimacy. and pretty haunting night - khumay nights later.

*****

that morning Giko felt very excited to start away from giko, he asked the reason to khumay who was making his favorite tea. "khumay ? why are you ?" a familiar voice sounded to him, yes he is a giko.

but he was reluctant to answer, he only returned with a smile and went back into the room. and Giko was not brave enough to follow him from behind because he kept his distance from the view of people for his dark relationship with Khumay. because there is one employee in his office is his girlfriend's best friend.

"hey mi, you abis meet giko ? what the hell is he talking about ?" indi asked curiously, because he saw giko and khumay in the kitchen while he was making tea too.

"i don't answer, I just go away. let me not be difficult to make a move on her." she replied briefly

"great if that is. I was horrified from diamond if semalem his father mengelamat tuh his girlfriend.and there will be no engagement, but they want to marry me directly." explained indi , making Khumay surprised and suddenly daydreaming.

"yes already mi , justin aja .. show if you can move on, you point to the whole world if giko is a guy is not good for lo who is too good for him."

khumay only smiled at the words of Indi , muffling the wound to keep it smoothly going without him , without ruining his career as well as his heart. he tried hard to show everyone that he was okay, but not with his best friend.

he knew very well who Khumay was and the shrewdness of khumay hid the wound behind his smile.

*****

crings .. crings ..

the BBM notif from giko makes khumay vibrate his heart, beat his heart , he immediately raises a video call from giko , and asks the truth that is indi.

"hallo khumay, how are you ? have you not heard from me for a long time and do not want to pick up the phone, video call or reply to my chat ? what's up ?"

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"i just don't want to hurt my heart more deeply and more often. Thanks to everything you ever created with me. , those memories will become a story later. oh ua, oh, I was horrified he said yesterday your father nglamar nara ? really ?"

"yes may, I don't know if the father went out of the house to go to the nara house to nglamar him. Actually I've told my family if I prefer you , but my family prefers the nara , because our residence is close and he has a lot of good with my family , until - until the father of kemaaren in the hospital he who paid. and you're not good at what he did to my family, may."

"okay. thanks for the explanation, and thanks if you choose me more than your girlfriend, but your love is not strong enough so the reason you turn away, it turns out money wins more than everything."

"i don't want our relationship to end like this, but I can't cancel the proposal, sorry I may."

"i'm sorry you're sorry, you don't have to beg my forgiveness anymore, and you're quite living this matchmaking, it's probably the best choice of your parents.I hope you continue to be happy ya." soon Khumay hung up the phone and cried - so without anyone knowing, even indi.

*****

"khumay, your eyes are swollen ? lo abis nangis ? how do I not know ?" indi said when he saw the eyes of the khumay that was as moist as it was. happened to be a holiday. so khumaybmampu closing his sadness from all office people.

"i've severed my dark relationship with giko, but ndi. you need to inget. even though he is married and already has 1 or more children, he will not be able to eat me. and he'll regret it for life, I'm sure of it." 

"khumay, you're not wrong ? I'm not wrong ?" this word is astonished

"we see 2 years later." continued khumay.

"okay alright, if so let's have fun, don't think of anyone."

"knight ?"

"please don't discuss the knight, I'm quite lonely because of his disappearance, I just want to be happy without him."

after the marriage between giko and nara, giko still continues to pursue khumay silently - silent, but khumay has ignored him. because khumay's wounds continue to get wet when remembering their memories of the two.

khumay's days continued to run colorless.After 4 months of walking without someone meaningful, changed when he began to get close to rendra.he began to ignore his feelings for giko.

**flash on **

"what have you done until - until you can't eat each other ? aren't you the same redra now ?"

"the color of the wound will remain."

"okay okay, what is rendra's response about this lo decision ?"

"he agreed."

"oh, yeah if it's your daughter, what can I do."

khumay hugged indi , as well as indi returned a khumay hug ,"ya already , lo now back already malem , you have to rest. beok lo must be done - sort the goods lo at the office. SPIRIT."

indi said to encourage khumay who was crying because of this heavy decision he had to take.

****

believe me this is my true story, now the man has a 2-year-old child lenih , because of this incident in 2017, it wasn't long before I met someone who gave me the color of my life after this guy.

and the truth is I did become his mistress, it was quite painful.