Gold And Diamond
Part 59 "Dilemmatic"
Don't forget to pray. Bismillah. 🤗
Take two eps only. But, eps 60 is longer than usual. 🙏🙏🙏
"Therefore, let me propose, Nana. With the intention of bismillah, I want to make him a friend of life."
After Abimana released that line, Vey gasped. He just wanted to find a strong reason why Abimana could feel for him, while he did not feel loved at all during this time. Before Kala was finally rumored to have fainted on the street, he was just wondering. And that question line kept buzzing over and over again in his head.
Not with Uncle Gani. The expression he carried seemed to have long known that the betrothed was coming. There was a twinkle of happiness on his face. It's just that he did not look rushed to welcome directly assented the proposal Abimana. He let Vey take part in the decision.
However, once again Vey did not know what to make the decision. He has said that between himself and Abimana there is no need for a bond and commitment. The statement on the phone was clear enough to indicate that he was not happy. Moreover, after seeing Kala being cold to him.
"Keep what, La?"
Kala.
"I understand. If I were you, I might be confused. I'm not sure if I'm going to mate with Abimana, La. You also understand, right, if I don't like him. I still wish I could meet Kafil."
Kala remained silent. Be prominent. Then, shake.
"If we don't have to get married?" She asked. Little doubt.
"I can't decide, La. The thing is your marriage is a kind of order."
"I was suddenly not so sure about Gus Omar's attitude. I was worried that he would marry only because his brother asked. What can a child do if their parents are sick?"
"You want to be sure?"
"I'm too shy. The more I want to avoid this marriage, the more I remember Mama."
"La, how do you really feel? Mending you a story!"
"I don't know either, Onni. Sometimes change quickly. Although sometimes I can resign, sometimes I want to avoid."
"After I knew Mr. Abi liked you, I suddenly felt very unprepared. I was afraid to be in a situation where I married a stranger and was sick to see who I liked marrying my own brother." Kala continued in his heart.
"Now I'm not telling you. Nor can you forbid you from making a decision, La. But, maybe right now you can only postpone it. Can't avoid. The whole ndalem family must have known about you. A little or a lot of Gus Omar must have told me. Because Abah Kiainya just understand. If it were me, I could have rejected Abimana."
"But?" Kala quickly replied.
"Yes, there is no tapi."
"Why am I not sure. Gradually you must fall in love with Mr. Abi, Onni. You can't possibly ignore him even though sometimes you think of Bang Kafil," his inner self again.
That morning witnessed that Kala had admired a man since the first sight. Debar and his gaze became defined. If he could just convert awe into love, it was likely that others would do the same. In fact, it is possible that love will come without cause.
"What if it turns out that Mr. Abi is a person who insists on his feelings? I don't even know him. But his speech and manner of speech alone identify him as a typical faithful man, "inner Kala.
"Since when has Abi liked Onni?" I swallowed that question again. He changes his mind to interrogate Vey with a few more questions.
Darkened.
Silent.
Waking up on its own. Then, ask for answers to all his worries. Lines of sentences he can cover. Just so he can be sure that Gus Omar is his best mate. It was not Abimana who had pledged feelings to her brother. He did not ask God to change his destiny. He only asks for birth and inner sincerity. No more than that. If faith is established, the feeling of Abimana will break down by itself.
And at the same time, Vey began to roll out his alphabet. He woke up to the ringing alarm he had prepared last night. In prostration, he asks to be shown who his true soul mate is. He realized that Abhimana's arrival was like he was anesthetizing a fresh gaping wound.
Vey and Kala went out of the room together. Although not sleepy, they did not plan to do anything after that. They then just sat down without any intention of opening the chat. The voice interrupted the silence. Also the clanging of the clock, which shows at four o'clock, sounds louder than usual.
"M.m.," they murmured together.
"By the way first," pinta Kala.
"OKAY. La, but sorry I wanted to continue our conversation last night. It's okay, right?"
"Father. I want to talk about that too."
Vey continued even though he did not find the twinkle of Kala's gaze.
"La, Uncle Gani just sent an SMS. Later that night we have an invitation to eat at the boarding school. Abah Kiainya said he wanted to see you. How's it?"
"There will be no Abi sir, will there be no?" thought Kala later.
"La, how?"
Kala stammered. "Yes. Uncle also chatted me, but I haven't opened yet. Maybe I'll talk about it. We're told to shop."
"La, but why, yeah, why didn't Gus Omar himself talk to you?"
"Gus Omar avoids these kinds of things. Maybe you never chat with girls."
"You really are too. Especially if you are his wife."
"Wife candidate? Wife-to-be?" Sometimes those two words still sound strange in Kala's own ears.
After school and after Vey cooked grilled chicken to take to the boarding school, the two of them got ready. Before that Vey had also had time to complete a sketch. Then, Kala prepared all the baked goods-chicken, cake, and fruit-to the living room so that Uncle Gani could easily take it.
"La, what time is it?" tanyanya while sprinkling powder onto the cheeks.
Kala turned to his watch. "Hour half seven."
Vey's busy dressing up. Didn't realize Abimana just called him. She just checked it out after she was ready with all her outfits today. Presumably he excitedly accompanied Kala to meet Abah Kiai.
"What's he calling?" Vey had intended to call again even though he finally did not do it. He chose abai. If until now he had not put any feelings on Abimana, it was an opportunity for him not to cultivate those feelings into other meanings. He won't have any trouble. Now, he felt the need to get away from Abimana.
