god's scenario is beautiful
Episode 3, HIJRAH
Like I said before, it seems like I got "hidayah".well, I feel it. And it may have something to do with my relationship and arya that ended up arriving2.
God may forbid me to date, but I don't blame God for my relationship. Because I believe God has a better and beautiful plan without us knowing♡
slowly, confidently I want to change myself for the better.honestly, I want to change not because I want to look good in front of everyone or so that arya returns to me. but I remember that JODOH IS A REFLECTION OF SELF. then how can I get a good soul mate if I am not good and worth fighting for??
So, I am sure.by trying to improve myself then God is preparing the best soul mate for me. Maybe not now, later.
god must have come at the right time I believe that.
~.~
I began to train fardhu prayer(mandatory) so as not to bolong2, because before my prayer I still often leave, sometimes 1 day only get magribnya only, or dawn and magrib. masyallah, hopefully it can be better in the future.
I also sort out clothes2 that are worth wearing to hijab well, because usually I wear hijab but the clothes still somewhat follow the curves of the body, he said, so I decided not to wear them again and tried to buy some long skirts or simple gowns to work with.
Not only was my interaction with coworkers, especially men2, I began to limit it, not as fanatical as religion, but talking as necessary. every day I try to listen to religious studies even though it is at work.
I decided to HIJRAH(go on a better journey).You know? how wonderful it is to know the history of religion and draw closer to God. There are so many advantages, for example, we can be calmer, able to withstand emotions, even though there is a burden of problems still feels light as if God guarantees everything.
I'm sure that's the pleasure God gives us that wants to change for the better.
"Late2 I noticed your appearance is a bit different re" asked my co-worker fika in the office.
I smiled
" *weird huh?" much
"oh! not really re, even more so" What's up?".
" hehe is nothing really. insyallah me again trying to fix myself fika"
"oohhh, good if that's re. but aren't you a good person2 huh? what else to fix*?" .
this Fika if talking to him must be detailed so that he understands. But because he is non-Muslim I explained about Islam or hijrah, he cannot understand.so I try to simplify my story if I talk to him.
"what's wrong if we want to be better, right?" I smiled back.
fika smiled back at me.
"yes re, you are so good".
And we continue our work.we work in a novel publishing company that is quite famous.if ordinary hari2 our work is not too much.but, when the deadline? (target/time limit). almost want to greet each other just can not be.
But from childhood I have dreamed of becoming a writer.or at least the work in this publication has been good enough for me. So as busy as I still enjoy it.
So, love your work first then your work will love you too.
~.~
Lunchtime clock🍽
" re? not having lunch? yuk". Take my coworker.
" ah! thanks, I'm not eating anymore". I answered half as hard as typing a computer.
"hmm, are you on a diet?".
i smile.
"no mas, no more sunnah fasting".
"Hey, it's Monday? okay if so, I'll go first".
"ready, mas".
*sunna is usually done on Monday and Thursday*
bayu is like that, in fact we are only a difference of 2 years, but because of his position above me I call him "mas" because he does not want to be called "sir" aging he said and make awkward. unless there's a klein or an office meeting.
mas bayu also advised me to think about getting married.he said my age is appropriate for married women.if there is a serious need not be postponed again he said. because he was married at a young age. he and his wife only have 1 5-month-old heart, he just got married last year.
But, what can I do. maybe God has not met me with my soul mate.God still keeps it..
~.~
at 6:05 pm, I packed up my stuff to get ready2 to go home and break my fast there..
"have you gone back?". fitri tea called from his office chair with his Sundanese accent.
"yes tea, the work is also done".
"Eating out with me yuk, again want to eat out nih". added fitri tea looks bored
"i followtttt".the kingpin emil arrived2 also said that when it comes to food he is always number 1 and second is I haha
"*where do you eat tea? I'm the one to follow all iftar. already want maghrib too"
"why not say oruh, just look for a place. use my car aja yes re. motor used to live in the office, there is a guard sir who guards. emil also come?
"iya dong come along, always hahaha" replied emil*.
we decided to eat at the newly opened cafe which is quite close to our office area while waiting for our order to come, he said, we decided to pray maghrib first and I took a sip of mineral water to cancel my satisfaction first.
after that we returned to sit in our place, 2 people who came was increasing. shortly after that our meal also arrived, a delicious aroma stirred our appetite. and it turns out not only the aroma is delicious but the taste is also not disappointing.
I ordered omlet and turkey beef kebab as well as orange juice, toast fitri tea and americano, emil? spaghetti, burger and squid rice and milk whipped. It is clear who eat a lot of who??. we also eat our food 2 and talk to each other about the state of this sizable cafe.
Tampatnya is good, almost 90% covered with glass.in it there is a special place for customers to pray. and the toilet is quite clean. neat arrangement of chairs, and there is a special place for customers to pray, black and white themes that give the impression of simple but elegant.many ornamental plants2 hanging and placed on the table.
his service is also friendly2, all his male servants2 are fairly handsome and neat, reasonable many female customers who come. including me, teh fitri and emil. this place is a rekomennya emil the gembul centil but beautiful. whereas me and the tea fitri come along. indeed who ngajak eat fitri tea but who knows where2 eat champions emil.
But honestly all the places that are recommended by emil never disappoint our eyes or tongue. everything is delicious2 and not too draining of the bag. actually, the initial intention of emil invited us here because he heard about his handsome male servant2. taste problems later he said, but not unexpectedly it turned out that the food was delicious and suitable in our tongue.
although fat emil pretty, white skin tiny lips.he is also not fat like obesity kok BB her about 62kg or less more. And emil is even more experienced about love than me. while the fitri tea of a single mom who has 1 son2 who has Junior High aged 32 years he married young around the age of 19th.
she and her ex-husband divorced because her ex-husband did KDRT (Inhouse Violence).he who always keep her body slim so it looks like she has not had children, teh fitri never intend to marry again, he just wants to focus on taking care of his son adam until marriage.
"*yourself why not married re?". asked fitri tea
" yes, when you are beautiful, white, the body is also fitting! not fat not skinny. pinter cook and never angry2 again*". continued emil who spoke while eating
I smiled at their questions.
" Marriage isn't that easy, is it tea, mil? married because of physical appearance? the old wrinkles, how?".
"*But not the face mbak mbazir hehe.
"Yes anyway, really what do you say re. don't kayak me, buru2 marriage because thinking of love and lust end2nya divorce.marriage only lasts 3 years. fortunately still graduated high school so can continue college abis si adam born. can find money. if not? waduh*." lamented the content of fitri tea.
"Early! laki2 is the same, so I prefer food in the cold as men2".emil continue to eat the burger.
" maybe not all miles, but we have not found the real2. later also there must be time anyway".
we continued our chat.we laughed at the behavior of emil when paying for our order to the handsome male cashier2.the man2 just smiled friendly while playing his cashier.
said emil men2 was seen sexy when playing the cash register. hahah yaampun me and tea fitri just laugh and apologize to the man2 cafe service was for the treatment emil. and the waiter was very positive response as it beckoned to us "it's okay2, I'm very happy. please come back".
we came home at exactly 08.00 pm, I returned to the office to take my motorbike. Pak wawan security guard at the office was watching.he smiled when he saw me and immediately approached me.
"*have you come home?". asked the wawan sir to me.
" yes sir, thank you for taking care of my bike".
" yes, samama2 neng. hati2*".
mr. Wawan continued to walk around and I drove my motorcycle to the house.
when I got home, I cleaned my body and prayed.
after the prayer there is an unanswered incoming call from the mas bayu and a message. it turns out that tomorrow I have to accompany mas bayu meet klein or can be called a novel writer who just published and became a bestseller in the market.
~.~
at 02.15 pm, I performed the tahajud circumcision prayer which I heard from religious studies.this prayer is very good to facilitate all affairs. what I hope may god always remind me with good things for today and beyond. And may my hijrah be istiqomah♡♡♡
***Episode 3. HIJRAH.
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