god's scenario is beautiful
2. I,IKHLAS
"Geez, how could arya be like that re?".
ask my best friend Alia after I told her about yesterday's incident.
"i also don't know lia, when before we had no problems, you know what me and arya were?"
I'm not crying, but my heart still hurts.Today I stayed at alia's house, I'm in need of someone to share my grief.and only 1 thought of by me is alia. he was the most understanding and always there for me.
"continue, what about your marriage? your parents agreed, right?".
"*that's exactly what I'm worried about, I have to say what to my parents"
"yeah, I'm very angry you are the same arya. can2nya he is like you. if not seriously want to marry you do not have to start from the beginning, you do not have to start, even he has the same permission as your parents re".
"no lia, I'm confused*".
our conversation in the room stopped for a moment.
"*better, you're honest about your parents, tell them the truth".
"but I'm scared".
"continue? do you want to cover up?? until when?.they're your parents re, they definitely wouldn't be upset if you were honest to them*".
I looked into Alia's eyes, as if it was a sign"what could I".
"Later to be with me, okay" .alia held my hand and smiled confidently at me, making me confident and venturing to talk to my parents.
~Home rere~
With worry, nervous, afraid to be one. me and alia came to my house to talk to my parents.my mother and father looked a little surprised at the presence of me and alia.
Seen once their faces were confused and asked 2. I slowly sat closer to them, honestly I was afraid, I was afraid they were shocked and disappointed.
finally I told him everything about my relationship and arya that had ended arrived2, without problems without obstacles our relationship just broke up. Our marriage plans were canceled.
I told them the truth, without me being clear.
the look on my papa's face remained flat, because indeed he was not a person who was good at talking.However, the mother who looked more shocked and sad.
mama hugged me tightly, which I did not want to cry in front of them. Without me realizing that my mother's embrace was so emotionally provoking, I was hooked and finally the sadness I endured broke.
How my mother was not surprised and feeling sad. Arya is a kind and loving man not only to me, but to both my parents she is also polite.The unexpected thing arya left me without cause, without permission to both my parents. instead of leaving me with a chat message in whatsapp app.
"now how do you feel? do you feel vengeance with arya rere?". said my papa who arrived2 he catapulted.
I was silent for a moment and took off my arms from my mother, my mother looked at my father.I wiped my tears and came to look at him.
"*no pa, rere is not vengeful with arya. disappointed indeed, but maybe we have not been a match. and arya could have other reasons that he did not tell. I'm sure everyone has a reason for every decision".
"do you want to go after him again*?".
I fell silent, looking at my papa's increasingly serious face.
"No pa, if indeed arya wants to go. Why forced to come back again?. insyallah, I'm IKHLAS".
my papa smiled with relief at me, and rubbed my hijab.
"thank God, my son, I'm relieved to hear it. That means you're ready to accept all of this".
I don't feel tough in front of my parents, because I don't want to see them hurt, but it's true.I'm sincere with arya's departure, Arya said, it is only a matter of time until this wound is completely healed2..
~.~
"Haahhh" . I lay my body on my comfortable bed
"Where now? relieved right?" asked alia who was also lying next to me.
" yes, thanks to you I can be honest".
"iyaaa,sama2". alia smiled
"*anything now I want to focus on work, I want to step up".
"insyallahhhhh" we said, and we laughed.
"hehe, doain me yes alia. after this incident I was given guidance to God"
"hideya?".
"yes, maybe this is a warning for me to stop whose name is dating. if there is a serious one just apply to the house. if the match is definitely until marriage. so do not put your heart first dehh*"
"Aaminn, this is a real incident"
"*alhamdulilah dong, model ta'aruf hehe"
"later shocked to arrive2 proposed,haha"
"ih ! ah even discussed lamar, my soul mate has not been seen already discussing marriage"
"yeah, we buy a snack yuk out, while watching drakor*".
I agree that's a good idea! because eating is my hobby that can relieve a troubled heart.and drakor for entertainment for the singles hehe.
if asked disappointed? very. sad? really. but I'm not worried about it, my future is still long not to be spent just to cry for people who are not our soul mate.
now I'm just focusing on my job as a writer, managing my future. mate problems? it is a god who set. because the woman is in struggle not fight.so why fight if it is not expected.not a matter of prestige but, women must have self-esteem.
But since that incident alia keptss just introduced me to men2, whether it was her coworkers even until her cousin she introduced me. yaampunn alia benar2 gave me a headache. but I'm glad that alia's been so attentive to me.♡
Alia knows why I don't want to date another man2, because I'm a difficult person whose name moves on and open my heart again.had to be years2,indeed until now I still love arya and in my heart still kept his name and hope he returned.
I'm willing to forgive him if he comes back, and I'll keep saying "yes" if he comes back and wants to marry me. It might sound stupid, but that's what love is.blind, it's what love is,deafness and kadamg can make us stupid!
Without us knowing sometimes when in love we do something stupid, and do not do it with common sense. But fortunately I and arya benar2 never do senono. until doing things that invite our passions.
From there I am grateful, I am still given awareness in proper relationship with God, I and arya dating never crossed the line. not dear if we are not married but have done something?????....
Dannnn more lucky again friend2 colleagues I never know if I'm ALMOST married.they know me from a long time ago was single hehe. because I never menumbar2 my relationship and arya.
thank goodness I didn't have to explain at length times the height to them why I didn't get married, what would happen if they knew and a thousand questions came to me?. just imagine I was dizzy.
So now there is a problem in my heart, sooner or later move on depends on me. I will not try to forget arya, and the memories with him. because, the more memories we want to forget, the more memories we want to forget, the stronger the memory of him that cannot be forgotten.
how-how? IKHLAS, whatever has happened is released without resentment or self-blame.believe that one day, our hearts no longer hurt when we see it. or when our hearts are no longer amazed by all his actions, it is a sign that we have given it up and forgotten how to get him back.
because basically humans are found to be separated.♡♡♡
***Episode 2. I,ikhlas done**
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