god's scenario is beautiful
1. HERE IT IS, EVEN MORE!!

Whatsap~chat

ME

"why is it that you rarely tell?".

the text of my whatsapp chat message that I sent to my boyfriend, more precisely the prospective husband, because he had proposed to me because of serious intentions related to me.

a little story about him while waiting for a reply chat from his busy work.My age and he's 4 years apart, I'm 22 years old and he's 26th. adult male right? it is appropriate that he is looking for a wife not just a girlfriend to play2.

that's one of the reasons I accepted his proposal because I thought he was a grown man2, definitely heading towards a serious level. whereas we only knew 3 months, but the seriousness has been seen since he proposed to me. We are not engaged indeed, we have not been engaged,but he already talked to both of my parents about to propose to me, so early next year he still wants to save up so that our marriage is worthy.

actually I am not the type of person who quickly 2 want to get married, especially my age is still 22 years. but on the other hand I am tired of dating, I am tired of likes, pdkt, dating, disconnect. muter2 there mulu. I want a serious, I want a serious,and grateful to be found with him.

he's a very nice person, and patient.especially facing my attitude that always wants to be spoiled.we never quarrel with trivial things.always solved with a cold head. we are just as willing to give up so that the problem does not last.

And since I met him my worship began to improve, I always pray for him and myself. Honestly, I have loved him very much because for me he is a perfect man2.

But in the last few days he has rarely told me, my eyes are a little restless, the last I heard his work is piling up and sometimes he forgets to eat his busy crotch. I hope my bad premonition is just my excessive worry.

TING!

Uh! after a few minutes my whatsapp chat was answered. I hurried to open the chat from him.

ARY💕

"*sorry syg, the work is still piled up"

ME

"oh, what's important is don't forget to eat ya".

ARY💕

"yes".

honestly my heart is still a little stuck, because as long as we live a new relationship this new reply is short.but I try to question it, I do not want to be selfish and angry2*, it may be true because of the work.

~.~

the next morning, I saw the phone with no message or phone from him, I waited until lunch, break at work,but there was also no message from him until the night until I fell asleep no message entered from him.

Me

"*holiday? from yesterday I've been waiting but no word. Where?".

ARY💕

"i'm lazy to send a message*".

the message from him made me hotter, but I could not get angry.My tears started to make the dam read it because I was upset.

Me

"why lazy? I'm your girlfriend, you're just told you're telling me"

ARY💕 

"already, I don't want to take root, don't discuss what2 first yes" .

Me

ARY💕

"i'm gapapa".

I'm getting more and more sure he's got what2.

Me

"if there is a problem, the story to me later also we will be husband and wife right?".

ARY💕

"Don't talk about that first"

DEG!

My heart seems to stop 2, not usually he does not want to discuss the matter of marriage, usually he who always discuss our wedding, until the reception plan.

Me

"*You, why? honestly*"

this time he replied for quite a long time almost 1 hour, and finally he replied, without pause for me to reply to his message.

ARY💕

"*This re*".

I started to feel like something was wrong, because he called me by name, not by affection, but I still listened.

"**I don't know, why the more I come here the more doubtful for your marriage"

"You're not wrong apa2, you're good"

"i'm also confused by my own feelings"

"i hope you understand re"

"i never intended to hurt your heart, but please understand my decision, because I also do not want to maximize my feelings*"

"*More on our relationship not too long ago, so it's not too late to get everything together"

"again I'm sorry re**".

At that time my tears were not blocked again, my breath was tight, my heart was broken reading a message from him. I opened my mouth so that my screams did not sound my parents.at that time I was confused to reply to the message I had to reply like what. and I decided not to return it and let it go anyway.

Not to think, for the umpteenth time I was shown. moreover this is more painful than before. because our relationship is not just a "boyfriend" but a prospective "husband wife" he even asked my parents for permission. Now what should I explain to my parents?.

o god what is my fault??. this time I failed again, even for a serious degree.from this I realized that age does not guarantee the maturity of a person.why should I spread a promise if not sure, why take my heart if only to be hurt. From now on I stop believing the promise of men2 without proof.

~episode 1 finish~

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