From Duren Down To The Heart
Chapters 20. I'm proposed?

"where am I taking you? Cost or place of sale?"

I looked at the clock in my hand. "to the hostel, it's almost 3 pm, it's been a bit too late to open again."

Keanu nodded. "okay."

We arrived at the hotel after about 10 minutes of travel. Yeah, my place is pretty close to Keanu's.

I got off the bike immediately, then took off the helmet and gave it to Keanu.

"thank you, I'm going straight in..!" I turned around to go to the boarding gate.

But suddenly Keanu's hand restrained me by holding my arm. "why rush?"

I turned my back and faced Keanu. "then? what else is it?"

Keanu looked at me with his hand still holding my arm. "it should be me who is grateful, Keisya always repotin you all this time. I really don't feel good about you."

I let go of his hand. Because it makes me feel uncomfortable, with my heart beating so irregular.

"it's okay. I don't mind, because I really love Keisya like my own sister."

"sister?"

I'm nodding.

"no.. child?"

"i don't have any children yet.."

"you have a sister?

"no"

"why think of Keisya as a sister if you don't have a sister? You don't think of Keisya as a child because you don't have a child."

"i've wanted to have a sister, but my mom can't get pregnant anymore. So I like kids because when my friends have a sister, I just go with them to take care of her."

Keanu nodded his head.

"but one day, I also want to have a child, who is as sweet as Keisya.." I smiled as I imagined Keisya's pretty and cute face.

"now Keisya has considered you as his mother.."

I nodded. "hm. yeah.."

"mmm.. about my question yesterday, what do you think?"

"hm? which one?" I raised both my eyebrows.

"what if Keisya wants you to really be his Mama?"

Jelbb.. Why would he bring up that question when I haven't prepared myself like this?

"mmm... that.. I do not understand the meaning of Mas's question what?"

"yes. I mean, Keisya is very fond of you. She really thinks of you as her mom. So.." Keanu took both of my hands. "do you want me to be officially Keisya's mom?"

"hm?"

Whahuh?

Is he proposing to me right now? This fast? Ish's..

"i know, this must be too soon for you. I don't know why, I'm sure that you'll be a good mom to Keisya."

I still don't answer.

"and I'm sorry, if I say it at the wrong time, I don't have a ring to propose to you yet, because I didn't expect I'd say it so soon either."

"what are you. do you want to propose to me just because you are sure that I will be a good Mama for Keisya? Is it just because of Keisya? That so?"

"it's not just that. I'm.." Keanu sighed, "i've liked you since I first saw you."

Oh My! It's not a dream, is it? Seriously? For what?

And so now my mind is floating around somewhere. I can't believe it's really true yet.

I just kept staring at Keanu.

Does this super handsome guy really like me? Ever since I first saw you?

If it's not wrong, then I was angry with him with the state of my nose that uses a brace?

Well, I really don't suspect it in the least.

"but Nadia.." I don't understand why I'm calling Nadia.

"Nadhe likes you."

"what if Nadia likes me?"

"he was my friend, and also my neighbor. So I'm gonna feel really bad about him."

"but Keisya and I don't like it."

"you mean. You hate her?"

"no. but I just think of him as Keisya's teacher, and surely Keisya also just considers it that way."

I did not respond to Keanu's words, because my mind had completely lost control. Either go hovering where? I can't focus one bit.

"then what about you?"

"hm" I turned back to Keanu.

"what do you think of me? Do you like me or not?"

"Mas Keanu's.. Nadia must not like us talking like this. She'll hate me.."

"i just want to hear your opinion of me, not of Nadia." Keanu's tone still looked calm.

"but I care, he's my friend Mas.." My eyes were a little teary. Either it's because I can't explain what's in my heart to Keanu or I'm giving Keanu up for Nadia.

Keanu was stunned, then said, "well, I seem to understand. You'd better go to the point, say that you don't like me and don't want to be Keisya's mom. Not carrying someone else's name in the middle of our conversation."

"that's not what I meant by Mas.."

"i'm going home..!" Keanu smiled, and passed away.

Good Lord! Why does it feel like this hurt? Even without feeling it, now my tears have flowed so hard on my cheeks.

I sat under the fence, bowing my head on both knees, with my hands crossed in front.

I kept crying, ignoring the passers-by and commenting on what I was doing right now.

I didn't mean to say that to Keanu. But I want him to know what my position is now. And I understand if he's mad at me. Because I was also annoyed by what I was talking to him about.

Huh..

"Claras? What else is it?"

My head turned upward, wanting to see the person who greeted me. "Ririn's? You're home yet??" I immediately stood up and hugged Ririn, with my cheeks still slightly wet and eyes moist.

"yes, this is me from the airport. I haven't been home yet, I'm going to kost-an lo kelewatin if from the airport." Ririn took off our embrace. "Lo why cry gini?"

Finally I took Ririn into the hostel and told her everything that happened.

I know, he must be tired of just coming home from out of town. But I really couldn't bear to devote all of it to Ririn.

"you're honest with me! You actually have the same feelings as him?"

I sighed. "likely yes, I'm starting to like Keanu."

"who?"

"what?"

"that's. Mas duren lo, what's his name?"

"Keanu."

"kalo his son?"

"Keissy."

"Keanu and Keisya?? You have a picture of him, don't you?"

"why so surprised? What's the matter?" tanyaku while giving a cellphone to show a photo of Keanu and Keisya taken during a walk to the playground yesterday.

Ririn looked surprised, then she shook her head. "ckckckckck.. It turns out God's plan is really beautiful Clar.."

"you mean?"

"i mean, your choice is right! You love the right people!"

"you mean what the hell? I don't understand?!"

"later lo will also understand. Sorry, I can't tell you why right now. I'm tired of going home, okay?"

I drove Ririn forward after she gave me souvenirs. And I'm still wondering why Ririn could talk like that.