Dourened
part 8's

@Deniz and Shila in college

when I got to the meeting room, the first face I saw was the man's face

I looked at the man in shock in disbelief

now that he's back, after a long time gone, he's present when I thought I'd never see him again

my heart was beating, rumbling

I breathe my breath down not because of it

his name is Deniz Alvarendra omar,

he was a man who was once in my life

fill in the beautiful story in the memory of my life story

he is the man who wipes away my tears when I am sad

he was the man who hugged me when I felt weak

he was the man who supported me when I fell

but he's just a friend to me, though,

I know he misinterpreted my attitude towards her.

I once thought maybe the feeling I had for him was just a momentary one, though,

that's why I never changed my attitude towards him, but in fact I was wrong, I gave him more hope

she really loved me even though I told her there was no love for her

yes, I can't deny I've felt happy with him, he always brings laughter in my life, he said,

but trying to love her never crossed my mind,

my heart has kept the name of another man, and foolishly, that man never once looked at me....

every now and then I steal a steal from her, looking at her,,

he's changed a lot, he's,

his eyes were still as they used to be, sharp, like the eyes of an eagle, nothing had changed from his clear eyes

I still remember clearly his smiling face, a face that once made me calm when I looked at him but now it looked serious, looked tight, like a lot of weight in his mind, no hospitality, no friendliness,

...I don't know if this is the new one or maybe he was intentional so I know he's still so disappointed in me.....

...'I'm sorry Deniz'...

indeed every time he came to my mind every time I wished he could forgive me for being so cruel to him,

suddenly my body felt cold hot, I was nervous, anxious, I was like a defendant who was waiting for the decision of punishment when I found the clear eyes were pondering deeply, no matter what was in his heart at this time,

quickly I quickly ran my gaze, towards Bang Fariz who was talking about our hospital, and without me knowing the clear circle decorate the corner of my eye, fortunately I can still control myself, otherwise I can not imagine what will happen, and what will be thought bang fariz later

she was nothing like me, from the first time I entered the room and the moment bang Fariz introduced me to her she looked calm, more relaxed..

like never knew me before, even farisha he did not greet, even though farisha was the one who introduced me to him, farisha was his friend when they used to learn the same in the same bimbel ..

he's changed, not as friendly as before

but whether he did change or just with me he was acting like this, I don't know

I looked at the fariz bang next to me, held her hand tightly, and she looked at me smiling without knowing what I was feeling

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"doctor Deniz.." bang Fariz called Deniz who was about to leave the meeting room

"there sir?"

"how do I buy lunch today, just think of it as our introductory gift, how dear, farisha?" I coughed chokingly hearing the words of Bang Fariz, farisha who was beside me rubbing my back

"geez why, baby?" ask Fariz bang to me, please,

"papa bang just choked.." I looked at him, he didn't look at me, he was cute, he was cute,

though he used to be the most worried if I was coughing chokes, so hate is you to me Deniz?

"be ordinary, later afraid of his bang Fariz think that is not it!" farisha whispered in my ears