A Mistake
Awake Already

"You...?!"

Dira was surprised to see Hans was already behind him. Quickly Dira rubbed the remaining tears on her smooth cheeks so as not to be seen by Hans.

"You've been crying too much for her.it's..."

Hans gives her handkerchief but Dira doesn't take it.

"Sok tau..ngak need" said Dira while still rubbing her cheeks.

Hans then approached Dira who was leaning against the wall and helped wipe the rest of Dira's tears with his handkerchief.

"I can do it myself." said Dira while taking a handkerchief in Hans' hands, making Hans smile.

"Let's get out of here, we'll find a comfortable place to chat. Because there's something I need to seriously talk to you about..."

"Speak about what?"

"Later you will know." said Hans as he reached for Dira's hand, but quickly Dira brushed it aside and Dira trailed behind Hans.

No chatter during the trip, Hans let Dira dissolve in his sadness. I don't know since when this sadness began but Hans certainly felt there was a share of mistakes made to make Dira feel sadness like this.

"We have arrived." said Hans disperse the daydreams of Dira.

"Eh..had arrived.." said Dira nervously.

'This is the cafe that deket lake that I have visited with Jesica.' murmured Dira in heart.

"Why even dumb again..have memories here huh?"

"Who's memories?" ask Dira while removing her seatbelt.

"Yes..how do I know? With an ex-boyfriend maybe or with another?" sindir Hans's.

"Jealous...?" goda Dira quietly while opening the car door.

"Certainly..."

'The cute idea is that again jealous.The handsome face of Mas Hans so looks like a child who is sulking.' said Dira in his heart.

Dira smiled meaningfully at Hans's innocent and honest words.

But suddenly 'brak...' Hans closes the car door and holds Dira down.

"I'm sure you're only here with Jesica but if you have memories of this cafe with another guy, we'll just move somewhere..."

"Hey...mas know where I've been here with Sister Jesica? My spies, huh?" dira said like a little angry.

"Eh no. Not me, but grandfather who told his men to follow you"

"Grandfather? Whose grandpa? Don't make it up...Don't look for unreasonable reasons..."

"Oh yes, my grandfather...Emm...don't you not know yet?"

"Not knowing what?"

"I don't know if Sasongko's grandfather was my grandfather..."

"What...? O Allah.astaghfirullah hal adzim. Why am I always being played by so many people... What is my fault, O God..."

Dira covered his face with both hands and threw his body on the back of the car seat. Hans was so confused to face Dira's attitude.

"Do his grandfather's men know what we're talking about?"

"It doesn't seem like it, because Grandpa didn't tell me that. So now I want to ask you that question, I also want to know what because of your meeting with Jesica, making you always reject me?" hans asked as he stared intensely at Dira.

"We talk outside drinking, I'm thirsty..."

Dira turned his face away from Hans gaze. Hans nodded and got out of the car, followed by Dira.

"You go first, find a place where you think you're comfortable." Hans said.

Dira nodded then headed to the table that was on the edge of the lake. Before long a servant approached then left again after receiving their order.

"Hmm.so sure that I will tell you a story..."

"Of Dira don't go around in circles anymore.don't make me feel tired chasing you..."

"Stop if you feel tired.toh all this time I did not ask mas to pursue me.." said Dira ketus.

"Astaghfirullah..What way can I get your love Dira? When do you want to play pull-out?"

"Until the mas give up.." replied Dira ngasal while sipping the mango juice of his order.

"I won't give up, until you can be mine..."

"Even if you're tired?"

Hans nodded.

"Even if I always refuse?"

Hans nodded back. His eyeballs never shifted from his sight to Dira, making Dira become misbehavior.

"Huuh..why the hell do you have to like me?"

"Your color is good and beautiful." said Hans with a smile.

"Marling..."

'Crazy.Why the longer in view, Mas Hans the more look handsome huh... And why do I suddenly feel happy when she says I'm nice and pretty... Akh...Dira, you've gone mad.' murmured Dira in his heart.

"Why do you talk again? You like it when I say you're nice and pretty?"

"Nnnga..."

"But how did your face meet red earlier..."

"This is why I want to know what I'm talking about with Jesica's sister?" tanya Dira diverted the chatter that seemed like it would long ago embarrass herself.

"So dooong." replied Hans with a seductive mischievous smile.

Dira finally told him all the talk that had ever happened between him and Jesica. From the first unsuspecting meeting that day until a few days ago when Jesica accidentally picked up Dira at his campus. Hans listened carefully to every utterance that came out of Dira's lips.

"I've guessed, Jesica took part in the relationship that happened between us. Dira.I and Jesica have been separated for a long time, I don't love him anymore. Moreover, he is now married to one of the famous businessmen in this city. So between me and him there is no bond anymore and he will never be reunited..."

"I'm tired... Currently the only thing I want to realize is to finish my college until the bachelor title with the best graduate title. And after that I want to be able to have an established job while having the opportunity to continue school again. I don't want anything, that's my promise to my mom when I was a kid, before my mom died. I don't want to trouble my dad's life with his new family, I just want to live a quiet and independent life... But why the road to my desire is always a lot of obstacles. Is my desire too much?"

The crystal clear granules dripped back on Dira's smooth cheeks...

"I don't want to take someone else's property, because I know exactly what the pain is like. Since childhood, what I love has always been taken from me. Starting mama who was so fast facing Yang Kuasa, papa who was captured by Sonya's mami and finally Damar who was captured by Angel.

Mas is currently not with Sister Jesica, but I know if Sister Jesica still loves mas..."

"What does the opposite mean? I told you I don't love Jesica... To me he is the past, just like Damar who has now become your past..."

"When aware, maybe people can lie as they please but when he is unconscious because he is controlled by liquor, can his words still be considered lying? In the past, when the mas took my honor that night, the name of Kak Jesica who continue to call. It indicates that there is still love in the heart of the mas for him and I this is only as a means of venting anger mas alone.hiks hyks... Then now how can I take the mas for granted.Hiks hyks..."

Broken already crying Dira who had been detained earlier, the pain that had been squeezing him back came one by one. While Hans is confused about what kind of defense.

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