WOUNDS IN HAPPINESS
Gibran's Note
Tests...
Ayuna's Tears are dripping.
" I'm sorry, mommy, I'm just pretending to be okay in front of you. But Mami completely forgot about you."
A photo of Gibran.
" You know, son, your desire to have a twin baby sister is fulfilled. Inside your mom's belly are your twin sisters." Ayuna.
Then Ayuna remembered Gibran's note given by Mama Bayu that she always carried in her bag.
Taken his note, and began to open it.
First Notes.
...Today I am happy and sad. I'm happy because I finally have a father. He is Lukman's father. But, I was also sad because before that I saw my mother crying because of being ridiculed by the citizens....
...Mother, if I could, I would pluck out the mouth of the man who had cruelly cursed and spied on you....
...mother...
...I hope that one day we will both find happiness and there will be no more people who demean or ridicule you....
Ayuna closed her eyes, trying to recall the events first. On her cauldron were tears dripping.
Opened some sheets after her.
...Today is the saddest day for me and Mommy. Where, today even one month I underwent cancer treatment. I haven't seen my mom's smile since I went to this hospital.I've seen Mami cry more when me and Papi don't sleep....
...Mommy...
...Forgive Gibran if because of Gibran's disease Mami always cried....
...Mommy...
...I believe Gibran wants Mami to always smile....
The following sheet..
...Mommy...
...Gibran is very happy because the zebra has a new friend named Bayu....
...And it turns out Bayu suffered from heart abnormalities since childhood. And he needs a donor heart to be able to live normally like a child in general....
...Mami Gibran is eager to help Bayu....
...Had Gibran had two hearts, Gibran would have given one to Bayu....
Ayuna jumped over some of Gibran's notes.
And it stopped on the date when it was a few days before Ayuna found a blood patch on Gibran's bed sheet.
...Mami Gibran is dizzy. At the end of this Gibran's nose also often bleed. But Gibran didn't want to tell Mami, because she would be sad. And Gibran didn't want to see Mami grieve for Gibran anymore....
...Excuse gibran mami, Gibran did not intend to lie to mami. but Gibran just wanted to see Mami smiling always....
Ayuna opened a few sheets after her..
...Today is Mami and Papi's wedding day. I'm so happy to have a priest who has found someone who can always make him smile....
...Thank you Papi for being in your life....
...There are no more words to say than thank you.....
...Mom,...
... You're everything to Gibran...
...There is no mother in this world as good as you....
...I love you with all my soul and my body....
...Your mother was everything to me...
...you're always there to make me happy....
...gave me abundant love and attention....
...I love you so much, Mom...
...I hope I can always see you smiling....
Sheet by sheet, Ayuna read it with tears that were unceasingly flowing.
...Mommy....
...if at any time Gibran had to go because the pain suffered by Gibran did not heal. Gibran wants Mami to always remember that Gibran loves Mami very much and Gibran wants Mami to keep smiling. Even though Gibran is no longer beside mommy....
...Mommy...
...Gibran gave the heart of Gibran to Bayu. Is Mami going to let Gibran do it?...
Ayuna closed Gibran's notes. He was no longer strong enough to continue reading the note.
Bagas who had just finished packing some of his belongings, immediately put the item on the table as soon as he heard the sound of Ayuna crying.
Chequek.
" Sailor..."
Bagas immediately walked over and approached Ayuna.
" Ayuna what happened, why are you crying?"
Bagas raised the closed chin of the swing so that now their eyes are facing each other.
" That's why I won't bring you here. I don't want to see any more tears coming out of your eyes." Say Bagas while wiping Ayuna's tears.
" Hiks..."
Ayuna hugged Bagas.
" I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you. Me, I'm just sad to remember about Gibran after reading this note."
Ayuna showed Gibran the note, Bagas took it and read some of the sheets.
" You know what the message is behind Gibran's note?" Ask Bagas.
Ayuna shakes.
" Gibran wants you to always smile even if he's no longer by your side. Gibran wants you to always be happy even if you're no longer together."
Ayuna looked at Bagas, and confirmed Bagas' words. Then his gaze turned to the photo of Gibran beside him.
" Listen, if you continue to grieve, are you sure Gibran will be happy? no. gabe. Gibran will be even more sad to see you continue to fall."
" I.i..."
" Look, I don't know for sure what it's like to lose someone very valuable in our lives. But I'm sick to see you continue like this. I'm so hurt, I feel like I failed as a husband because I can't make you happy. I feel like I failed because I couldn't close your wounds or just comfort your sorrows."
" Bagas..."
" No, listen to me. Maybe this sounds selfish. But I never asked you for anything, I just asked you to think of yourself as well as the baby in your womb."
" Give me some time Bagas. Give me some time to accept the fact that Gibran isn't here anymore."
" I've always given you Ayuna time, but you don't seem to want to get out of this mess."
Ayuna fell silent, what Bagas said was true. He was too lost in sadness.
" I..."
" It's okay. You don't have to say anything now, I'm still giving you time to accept the reality. And until finally you're the one who's gonna come out of this pit of grief."
Ayuna hugged Bagas.
" I'm sorry I still haven't been able to get out of this grief."
Bagas hugged Ayuna tightly. He felt that the wound in Ayuna's heart was too big, so Bagas was unable to cover it.
After quite a while they hugged each other, Bagas took off his embrace and looked at Ayuna.
" Do you want us to stay here for a few days?" Ask Bagas.
" Can you? but didn't you say this apartment was sold?"
" I'm sure the owner won't be upset our attitude lives some lazy course."
Ayuna smiled and nodded.
" Then let's eat something and sleep in this room. What do you want to eat?"
" Anything."
" Alright wait here I'll buy some food for us."
Ayuna nodded and stared at Bagas' departure.
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