TRAPPED WIDOW CHILD ONE
FEEL GUILTY

Maysa ran into the hospital. He went to the information table to find out where Kavin was. Yes, Ilyas just left it at home.

" Where is Kavin Lambyyan's mother?" Ask Maysa to the information officer.

" For a moment, Miss, I'll check." Her speech.

The information officer looked for it on the computer screen.

" Kavin Lambyyan is in Miss number one VIP inpatient room." Her speech.

" Thank you, Mother." Maysa.

Maysa immediately headed to the ward that the officer meant by relying on the instructions. Arriving at the door, Maysa immediately opened it.

" Mommy." Said Kavin who seemed to have consciously looked at Maysa who was standing in front of the door.

Ilyas looked at Maysa and vice versa.

" Dear." Maysa approached Kavin and hugged him regardless of Ilyas' gaze. He's too happy to see a good Kavin.

" Dear you're okay?" Maysa cupped Kavin's face and kissed him.

" Calm down Mom! Kavin's a strong boy. Kavin's okay with just playing with water." Sahut Kavin.

" I'm sorry dear Mommy, because your Mommy is like this. Mommy really doesn't take care of you." Maysa wiped the tears in the corner of her eyes.

" Mommy don't cry! Don't talk like that! Kavin's fine, Mom." Kavin.

" no.. Mommy's not crying, Mommy's just happy that Kavin's okay." Maysa kissed Kavin's face again.

" His body temperature reached forty-one degrees, just a little too late could be fatal to Kavin. Lucky Kavin didn't have a seizure, so he's fine. But he needs a doctor's supervision. I hope you don't make mistakes like this again. I don't know what I'd do to you if anything bad happened to Kavin. Make this a lesson for you, and I'm sorry for yelling at you." Ilyas.

Maysa looked at Ilyas, in fact his heart ached to get such treatment from Ilyas but he understood Ilyas's attitude from panic and fearing his son why he was not.

" I'm the one who should be apologizing Mas, I can't be a good mother to Kavin. Even in this case I don't know what. I didn't know that Kavin would get sick after playing water." Maysa looked away at Kavin.

" Mommy don't say that! Mommy is a good person, proof Mommy wants to accompany Kavin to play. Not the wrong Mommy but the wrong Kavin because Kavin does not obey Mommy. Mommy had asked Kavin to stop playing but Kavin was unwilling. Kavin's sorry Mom, because Kavin Mommy got mad at daddy." Kavin's words moved Maysa.

" No, baby, you're not wrong. Mommy who is less assertive and less careful in taking care of you." Maysa Sahut.

" Oh yeah has Kavin eaten? Kavin's taking the medicine?" Ask Maysa.

" It was Mom." Kavin Sahut.

" Smart Mommy's son, sorry Mommy's late here so can't feed Kavin." Maysa.

" Mom no Big." Kavin Sahut.

" Okay, now rest! Mommy will accompany you here." Maysa.

" Look over here Mom, hug Kavin." Said Kavin patting the bed on his side.

" Okay, Mommy's gonna hug you." Maysa climbed into bed.

Maysa lay down next to Kavin while hugging him. Ilyas looked at the two while sighing. He knows Maysa is hurt and tries to avoid him.

Before long Kavin was asleep, while Maysa could not sleep because he thought of this. He almost made his son go. He really regretted his actions that Kavin obeyed playing water for a long time.

" Dear have you had dinner?" Ask Ilyas.

" No need to think about it anymore, baby! Kavin is fine and hopefully things will get better." Ilyas.

" Let's find some food first! I don't want you to get sick from missing a meal." Take Ilyas.

" You are, I have no appetite." Maysa Sahut.

" But baby...

" Let's just say it's a punishment for me for failing to look after Kavin." Maysa cut off Ilyas' speech. Ilyas exhaled his coarse breath.

" Dear Mas knows you're hurt by Mas's treatment of you, I'm sorry. Mas was very panicked darling, Mas was afraid Kavin why napa. You know that I love Kavin very much. I don't want to lose him. I wish you could understand it." Say soft Ilyas.

" Even though I understand him but the name of the wound is still Mas's wound, the wound will not heal just with an apology. Seeing your actions leave me earlier made me realize, if at any time I am still a stranger to you. I'm not entitled to Kavin because I'm not who." Maysa said what stuck in her heart while holding back her tears.

" Dear why do you think that? He explained it to you. Mas panic darling, anything can be done when people are stricken with panic right? I hope you understand that." Ilyas.

" Yes I know I was wrong. Sorry!" Maysa finally said. He does not want to argue and disturb Kavin's sleep.

Maysa tried to close his eyes, he was too lazy to argue with Ilyas because he realized his mistake. He was only disappointed with Ilyas' attitude towards him.

" I'll eat, you can eat here later." Ilyas.

Without waiting for Maysa's reply, Ilyas walked out of the room. Fifteen minutes later Ilyas returned with two plastic bags of fried rice.

" Dear." Ilyas shook Maysa's shoulder slowly.

Maysa who had not fallen asleep turned her head towards him for a moment.

" Buy some fried rice for you, let's eat together!" Ilyas.

" I told you that I don't have appetite, I'm not hungry so you're the one who eats." Maysa closed her eyes again.

" Dear you may be angry or disappointed, but please do not torment your body that does not know what. Your body needs food, baby, otherwise you'll get sick later." Ilyas.

" Don't mind me! Care about yourself and Kavin. I can take care of myself." Maysa Sahut.

Feeling annoyed by Maysa's attitude, Ilyas carried Maysa and lowered her to the sofa in the room.

" What the hell, I'm going to sleep." Maysa.

" Shut up there! I'll bribe you." Ilyas.

Ilyas opened the package, then he took a spoonful of fried rice. He thrust it into Maysa's mouth.

" Open your mouth, baby! Eat while the fried rice is warm, if it's cold it doesn't taste good later." Ilyas.

" I can eat myself Mas." Maysa said snatch the spoon in Ilyas' hands.

" All right." Ilyas.

Maysa began to feed the fried rice into her mouth. Ilyas smiled seeing that, at least Maysa did not miss her dinner.

After dinner, Maysa returns to bed. This time he was able to fall asleep soundly after his stomach was full. Ilyas laid his body on the sofa, he looked up at the sky of the room seeming to think of something.

" I can usually lose control by yelling at Maysa. I'm sure he's hurt a lot, I'm sorry. You accidentally hurt your feelings." Monologue Ilyas closed his eyes.

TBC..