The Power of the Female Heart
resignedly

after today I started my anxiety began to disappear I saw the curses on the phone turned out to be many who experienced and fared the same as me .

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there are those who immediately act there who let someone pretend to not know like me .

I listen to advice for advice from sources .

"we cannot love or rely on our fellow men, we leave it to the almighty.because nothing is eternal in this world ,increase our worship so that our hearts are calm and leave everything to him , he is almighty all devoted to him will make us feel calm peace and will not feel disappointed" I listen to him.

then I think and it's true, I try to explain if indeed mas reza duesuakan me.

even if I stay here even to do my duty only.I focus on my son is my priority at this time so that time will answer all .

I try to find a job on the internet, I do not want to rely on Reza mas I prepare myself if one day I am left behind I will not have trouble .

mas Reza also felt something strange to me .

"why do you want to work and then what about dawn, what is my money less "anyanya .

I just kept quiet, and then he pulled my hand and asked me again about this .

I answer you briefly

"sorry mas I have to start independent, I don't want to depend on you maybe now you are here but tomorrow if there is a guarantee ".

mas Reza was amazed by my answer he began to think if I knew his behavior outside.

then in also confirmed

"i will never leave you and dawn, you are my life, you are everything to me ".

in my heart said

"if that's the case why I'd you include another woman in our family ".

"gold there is a guarantee if you stay with us , then what if one day you die do I have to follow it too ".

hearing my overly harsh answer Reza was dumbfounded and silent and then she started walking past .

my words may have pierced him a little bit but I don't care anymore , now I insist on myself I have to get used to being independent I can't love and hope in humans .

hope in humans will make us disappointed .

the moon changed and my son had a lot of development he had started walking and talking .

it is an adorable and important time .

"i'll lead you, son, I'll teach you every word son because you're my investment ".

the day remains like this nothing changes and tapping my phone is no longer active

I just want to find peace .

let the Reza mas complacent outside I am getting used to this , my heart did not feel as sick as yesterday .

the medicine of patience and trust and surrender to the almighty .indeed powerful because every time I feel pain for the actions of my Reza mas immediately affirm in my heart .

"eliminate your love lose your love don't depend on humans depending on the almighty ".

and thank God a little bit of tightness subsides in my chest .

I am not losing but I am giving up I am not silent but resigned .

I hope this doesn't sound like a big family .if they hear then the split between my parents and Reza's parents is inevitable .

***ayo sister support me who just learned yes thanks💗💗💗