The Night Woman Repents
WMB 52

Two months have passed since the loss of Prima and my future baby, I am still being treated for this rehabilitation, now I sit alone in an empty room.I am afraid when quarantined and make a scene again.

"It's good enough mother, Yunita already wants to eat even though she is little, the bath also wants" said the sister when chatting with mama in front of my room.

"Alhamdulilah sus, thank you guys now my son can be invited to chat even though sometimes not connected" Tukas Indri who sat with a smile.

Every day mama checks me for medicine from the outside, she buys it at the Chinese herbal store in the city of T, the shape of the medicine is round wrapped like gold tin with a box like a jewelry box.

At night I still scream sometimes laugh, because I made a noise other patients saw the nurse running towards my room.

"Aaaaaa no where is my baby, you evil...Prima you get a hukaman later, Rajaaaa..I want to come with you..!!" hesteris shouted as I sat down at the corner of the room.

"Don't be noisy, Sssst"

Sister was busy making injections for me, while Mama was confused to keep me quiet.

"He's fricking again sus"

Mama said while holding back and stemming the tears that were about to fall on her old face.

"But he did not act recklessly, ma'am?, if like yesterday we had to isolate him and tie him like yesterday" said the Sister who asked me to lie down in this bank.

"Please don't Sus, don't tie my son up, let me take care of him" Mama was very sad and gloomy-looking.

After I was injected with a sedative, the nurse came out to check on another patient, Mama sat at the edge of the cashier looking at me who had fallen asleep maybe a drug reaction olyang injected nurse.

"Hurry to heal son, mama promise that you will be healed, mama will not forbid anymore" Mama stroked my hair, tears fell unconsciously on the face of the old mama.

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In the morning I was bathed by my mother, because I began to want to eat I was fed by my breakfast mama this morning, I did not talk at all but if it crossed the man that was so distasteful I kept screaming.

After the meal, the doctor was seen accompanied by the sisters who came to check my health and my mental health.

"Where is my pediatrician?"

Mama said she hoped I would get well soon.

"It's good, he already wants a response if people talk, already want to eat and shower, this is good progress, patience yes Mothers children mother can be cured" The doctor said with a smile giving hope to Indi mama Yunita.

I've been allowed out to walk in this rehabilitation hospital park, my steps stopped when I looked at a

the room, there was a young man who was sitting down and screaming sometimes, he said he was a drug addict.

This place is not just a place for the mentally ill, but people who are drug addicts and severely depressed.

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Four months on I've started making progress, I've started talking and talking and taking a shower myself.

"Yunita swung the streets, saw in the yard many flowers, the air was also cool" said the Sister when she saw me in the room sitting dreamy.

"Same to go out"

I said because people started to talk.

Sister purposely told me to breathe fresh air so that I do not get bored in the room, at this time I have come out of my room, I am heading to this hospital garden.

I saw awe of the flowers planted neatly in the garden yard, as well as a fresh breath of beautiful morning air, this heart feels cool, I throw my own smile while enjoying the beauty of this hospital garden.

"Are the patients here?"

Said a young man who came to me at the hospital.

"Yes"

My short word for being lazy to talk to strangers, let alone a man.

"If I wasn't a patient, my mother had been a patient with depression since her business went bankrupt" said the young man who was standing next to me.

"Who asked?"

mutter me while I throw my face away.

I kept my distance as the young man sat on this long bench, he was now sitting next to me.

"Who would you like to talk to?"

Said my mother in front of me.

"Not knowing me"

I said while shaking my head.

"Sorry mom I just talked to talk to the mother's son" said the young man bowed politely.

"It's okay"

Tukas mama with a friendly smile.

Since I was sick mama spoke differently, softly did not scream anymore or yell at me, now I have never heard the loud voice of mama.

During the illness I did not like to hear loud noises let alone noise because I wanted calmness.I walked alone around in this park, the young man I was living with my mother.

"Here look after or look after the patient son"

Mama accompanied the young man to sit on me.

"I take care of my mother"

The sweet young man smiled kindly.

"Why is your mother?"

Mama wants to know more about the sweet young man's story.

"Our business went bankrupt because it made my mother depressed" said the sweet young man with a sad face.

"Patience dik, just keep it entertained so quickly healed" continued Mama who is now sitting leaning on a long iron bench.

"Sorry mom, I'm not too presumptuous if you may know what sick mother's child?, he seems to be starting to improve" Tukas youth kernyit forehead.

"She's been severely depressed ever since she broke up with her fiance" answered her mama's face starting to grieve.

"Oaleh..sabar ya ma'am, where is the fiancee?" The young man never stopped wanting to know about my person.

"Not yet a soul mate, her engagement has gone a long way"

Mama replied smiling wryly.

"Then I go in first"

Follow the mother who got up from her seat.

"Call me nanda ma'am"

The young man wanted to know far away.

"All right Nanda"

My mother went straight into my room.

I was still walking slowly enjoying this beautiful air, my long hair was sobbing as the wind blew a little, this face started to shine again probably because my healing stage was starting to exist.

"The grandfather here is talking"

Nanda had noticed me in detail.

I just kept quiet as I walked closer to Nanda, now I'm standing in front of Nanda for keeping my distance.

"Thank You Heheheh"

I laughed a little while there was nothing funny, while Nanda understood my behavior because I am a patient here.

"Kasian is still young already so, it seems this girl is still a teenager, but why is it like this, dear is crazy beautiful" muttered Nanda with a forehead massage.

Nanda was silent, I also remained silent standing in front of Nanda, and then without saying goodbye to Nanda I walked leaving the sweet young man in the garden.

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The next day when I wanted to be safe, I saw Nanda was sitting on the bench long last night, so I sat on the bench keeping my distance from the tall sweet black man for the second time.

"Your name is dik?, can we be acquaintances, when we often meet but the name alone I do not know" said Nanda Money saw me smiling sweetly.

"Yunita"

Answer me without looking at Nanda with a flat expression.

"May I ask why you are here?, who knows your burden is reduced" Nanda said with nyeplos.

"Ask what?, I don't want to talk strangely" answered me without seeing him again.

"Oh that"

Nanda looked ahead, the questions stored in the heart did not dare to say.

"Hem"

I just shook my head as Nanda looked at me meaningfully, then I turned this face away.

"I'm sorry if I'm rude, but can we be friends?" Nanda smiled kindly.

"May I be friends"

Answer me flatly.

"Thank you, just call me Nanda"

"Yes, then I go in" said I flat expression and sit up, The man was silent and the nod of his head was probably disinclined because of my reaction without a smile and indifference.

I sat in this silent room, I saw a right hand full of incisions, I remember when I slashed this right arm, because I was left-handed so this right hand became the victim.

Yes, a few months ago when I just entered this hospital, I broke the glass that my mother brought from home, with the ease of slashing this arm was intent on suicide, some sisters ran towards my room, she said,because I thrashed, they had to tie my hands together on a bank, and then inject a sedative into me.

Sat hours passed by my father came, my daydreams about suicide crap, I was happy when my father visited me, only both parents knew I was rehabilitated, neighbors and friends no one knew, no one knew,my family kept all of this a secret.

Both of my parents may be ashamed that they did not tell anyone, especially I once made a disgrace in the village about Wijaya first when they heard this thing that did not like to laugh.

"Where's the deck?is it our daughter?" Tanya Darman who sat beside Indi.

"Alhamdulillah already lightened, already want to take a bath, eat alone, talk also began to connect, laugh the same cry suddenly was rarely heard" Indi smiled with relief in front of her husband.

"Alhamdulilah O God, may our only daughter be like before" Darman patted the tired shoulder of Indi taking care of Yunita.

Darman continues to encourage Indi, they do not want his only daughter to go crazy next, so any effort they can afford.

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Two thousand years two even I five months rehab here, I have been progress, have been talked to, my rehab costs are borne by the plantation, because I am a child of plantation employees, I have been,maybe if your mama's regular guy I can't afford this place.

Today my mom called my friend pskiater confided in me her name is Jennita, every once in a while my mom called Jennita at personal expense, no matter how much she spent for me who does not know this self.

Mama I'm a super strong woman, when faced with the disgrace that I made, I was very selfish, maybe it's my karma that does not want to hear your advice.

"Thank you for your service, I can't repay you, I'm sorry for your son" I sat down as the skier sat in front of me.

"Today Yun seems healthy, tell me calmly, son, I am ready to listen to your complaints today" Jennita smiled as she sat facing me.

"I'm sad Mother Jen why I'm like this, why they can leave me, my baby candidate is no more" I said repeatedly just that word every time Jennita asked about my situation.

"Son, this life is just a little while, there are still many people waiting for you and dear to you son, wasting away your past, that is your life lesson, that is, look at me love you, look at your mom and dad love it they're the only ones right now who care about you, your future is still long, son, pray the same faith you have" Jennit said as he patted me on the shoulder.

These tears accidentally fell because touched by hearing the words of Mother Jennita Pskiater I, I rubbed tears cheeked because of the shame seen by Mother Jennita.

"Thank you ma'am, all this time my mother continued to support me as well, so that I would rise up, my mother would listen to my complaints patiently" I became smiling because this time I spoke I was connected,because in the past when asked or spoken to I saw other things that I unconsciously said.

"Well mother has calmed down, mother is not just working to get money, already dozens of patients who mother heard complaining, well now Yunita Rest first" Jennita gently rubbed my body to lie on the top of the fence.

I am glad that someone wants to hear

my complaints all this time, the complaints I have been complaining about continue because I need more attention.

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The next day the doctor examined me, I had a lot of progress and was allowed to go home, mama spirit packing my things because we will go home.

When I passed through a quarantine room that I have seen so many times, it turns out still the same young man who was desperate because drugs always screamed, actually he was handsome even though he was Chinese, but unfortunately he became like that.

It was with great pleasure that my mother and I returned home by train to the city of T, where there was a bitter memory that I had with a Sissy like Prima.

Mini Bus passing towards my village, I saw the stadium that once held millions of memories with my friends and lovers, he said,it's been a long time since I stepped on that stadium.Rasa Rindu adorn this heart but unfortunately time can not be played back.

Arriving at home I went straight into the room, I was surprised to see my private room was different - the last place I left this room, mama decorate my room, mama decorate my room,the letters of the former and the Photograph of the Late King no longer exist.

Maybe you've been throwing away or keeping memories of my boyfriend, or

maybe mom threw away my memories

in this room so I don't think about the past anymore, the past is full of heartache.

"Eat Yun Mama is ready !"

Mama said as she stood in front of the door.

"Yes my mom"

Answer me who sat on the bed, I was still wondering where mom took the picture of the deceased, I wanted to ask but I did not do it because I was tired of thinking about this inner tormenting romance.

I walk to the kitchen and sit at the table to eat, I greedily eat alone mama tau my favorite food is gulai cassava leaves, salted fish, fried tempeh and sambal belacan.

"Tok tock "

Suddenly the front door of the house was knocked on by people, mama walked towards the front to open the main door of the house.

"Bolek..., has Yunita come home from the hospital?" Wati said when she heard that I was coming home.

"Oh already, the headache is healthy" said Mama let Wati go inside.

Hearing the sound of wati, eat me immediately stop and I run forward hugging Wati.

"Well, you've not been around for a long time, you're getting whiter Yun, you must be locked up in the hospital I heard you came home and I came here, I'm sorry I can't look Yun far in the city M" Said Wati taking off a hug.

"I'm glad you came, I missed you, where's Ndar?" ask me to see Wati with haru.

"Entar again followed Yun"

Wati said while sitting back on the sofa.

Now we miss sitting together in the balcony terrace.Chatting with the loose although this feeling a little awkward but I tried to cover it, because I realize my heart is sane.See Indar walked closer to us.

"Hi Yun, reach for my miss, you know, hei quickly recover we hang out again, the more white you are, "Indar hugs me constantly.

"Hahahah Ndar I miss"

Tukas me while returning Indar's embrace.

So fun to talk Princess and Lisa are already in front of us, they also come to visit me.This heart is so comfortable and calm to see all my old friends.

"Ahk Yun is well?, sorry Yun we all can not look at you, because your mama forbid us to look away" said the Princess while taking a seat next to Lisa.

"That's okay Lis, I'm healthy now the proof can join you again" replied me with a sweet smile.

"Eh Yun you're looking for Darma"

Princess just grinned, when I wrinkle my forehead.

"Again lazy near men"

Connect me in a flat tone.

House scene tells their respective boyfriends, I just listen to their stories sometimes laugh sometimes smile.

They all don't know if I've ever been pregnant and they don't suspect what I'm sick of, I don't want to tell you about my problems, let the parents and I know what the last problem is.

"Eh Yun, last night Merry sent a letter to me, he sends greetings to you" said Indar who sat with Wati.

"Why?, how healthy is Merry?" Connect me who misses Merry too.

"He's happy there, he's got a new guy ahai" Girang Indar smiled widely.

"Oh that's good if that's the case, I send my greetings back if you reply to Merry's letter yes Ndar" Sahut I'm sitting on Lisa's left.

Hearing the words of the guy I was a bit shaky, This fear is a little there, even if I have actually healed, but I try to strengthen this fear so that friends do not suspect.

"Next week we go for a walk" Invite Lisa the idea crossed Lisa's mind.

"Yes eat us,eh hamdani kiirim salam you said quickly healed" Indar seemed to be beaming calling his lover's name.

"Well say hello, thank you, Ndar, eh eaten mama's snack I'm delicious, Wati kok diem aja you nyet?" I said with a small smile.

"Ahk ahah I'm glad we gathered gini, yes I eat this fried food is good free mumpung" Tukas Watu smiled cunningly.

"Tolor is happy when you're the same free" Indar as Wati's head

"Mahaha"

Putro and Lisa laughed crisply as Indar nyeplos spoke.

"Can you go to school Yun?"

Tanya Wati yabg switched the conversation.

"Seeer"

Hearing the word school I quivered,

maybe my trauma is still there, but I don't look in front of my friends, I try to relax.

"Hem I don't think anymore"

Answer me while twisting the end of my shirt.

Indar likemya know read my situation that seemed anxious, Indar immediately shook Wati's head.

"Tolor.., he just returned from the hospital, can not be studied, his head hit the asphalt still can not think much" said Indar who spoke to Wati.

"I-iya Wati"

Answer me a little nervous.

I look clumsy in front of Wati, thank God there is Indar who can read the situation

"Eh I came home, yes, about the affairs of Hehehe's home" said the Princess moved from her seat.

Princess and Lisa came home because the day was also getting late, the three of us were sitting on the balcony terrace.

"Eh I can not be long too, quickly healed Yun, tomorrow I am here again" said Wati who saw his watch shows at six in the afternoon.

"Be careful Wat"

I said with a small smile.

Stayha the two of me with Indar, we continued chatting again, until azan mahgrib reverberated melodiously in the mosque.