The Light in My Darkness
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Fatma felt her heart was deeply broken hearing Nabil's explanation. Was he wrong in choosing? inner Fatma.
" Maybe it's just part of his past, brother!" fatma.
" The past? 3 days ago he just went with his girlfriend to New York and they stayed in one room!"
" Don't slander people, brother!" said Fatma who knew if Brian wasn't going anywhere 3 days ago.
" What good is it that I slandered him? Why are you defending her so much, Fatma? Have you fallen in love with her?" ask Nabil emotion.
" I'm not defending him!" fatma defended herself.
" Don't be captivated by her face, it's enough that me and those poor women are the victims!" nabil said with a sad tone.
Nabil's words once again made Fatma's trust and determination completely falter.
" I have to go, fear Abi is looking for me!" fatma.
" Yes, I'm sorry, I hurt you! If you give me another chance, I..."
" I'm sorry, Brother! I do not mean to refuse or accept. If we were to be a match, no matter what, we would be met!" fatma was wise.
" All right! I'm always waiting for you, Fatma!" Nabil.
" Thank you! Assalamu'alaikum!" hail Fatma.
" Da'alaikumsalam!" reply Nabil.
Fatma turned off Nabil's call and was pensive to remember what Nabil had just said on the phone.
" What did Nabil say, son?" ask Salma.
" Eh.emm it...Just apologizing, Ummi!" fatma replied lying. Athaghfirullah! Forgive Fatma, Ummi! inner Fatma.
While Nabil smiled smirk and felt if the bait had succeeded after calling Fatma and pretending to be sorry. You'll feel what I feel Brian! Or Boss! inner Nabil pleased.
Flashback Off
Fatma leaves Brian alone in the room, Fatma knows that it is not true, but she is furious that Brian has lied to her.
" Did you go abroad a few days ago?" fatma asked as she was at the door of her room.
" Oh, that! I'm sorry I didn't tell you, because there was a sudden meeting in New York so I had to be there that day!" answer Brian.
Fatma stepped out with a broken heart, Nabil told her the truth. O God! What should I do? Should I ask him to drop talaq on my servant? inner Fatma was confused. Give me your guidance, O God! the Fatma again.
Brian prefers to work on his mobile phone rather than hang out with the Fatma family, because he feels heartache for Fatma's rejection. Brian does not know if Nabil has said bad things about him and Fatma trusts Nabil because on that day Brian did forget to tell Fatma if he should fly to New York. A few days after the incident Brian never brought it up again and he felt that Fatma's attitude had changed to him.
Brian felt that Fatma was talking more through silence and no longer kissed Brian's hand when he left or went home to work. Brian felt that his hopes would be in vain and that perhaps even their marriage would be void.
" Are you angry with me?" brian asked Fatma when they were going to the beach to just let go of fatigue.
" No!" answer Fatma briefly.
" Please, don't be like this! I don't like it when you're mad at me!" said Brian again.
" I don't like liars!" fatma replied angry.
They were sitting quietly under an umbrella. While Azzam and Salma walked along the beach, Daffa and Arkan surfed and Rania drank young coconut ice in a cafe.
" I've never lied to you, Zair!" said Brian.
" Cihh! Never to lie! You sure?" said Fatma without frills Brother again.
" Yes! I'm sure!" answer Brian.
" Even to New York?" fatma.
" Are you always meeting at the hotel?" ask Fatma.
" right!" answer Brian honestly.
" Why?" ask Fatma.
" Because I need a little break to just unwind!" answer Brian.
" With women?" sindir Fatma's.
" Dark...."
" What's different every night?"
" Zair!" scream Brian.
Some people look towards them. Brian sighed at the guilt of yelling at his wife. Athaghfirullah! inner Brian. While Fatma was jolted because she was shocked to hear Brian scream.
" Don't yell at me!" fatma said firmly.
" Sorry!" brian said softly, though he held all his anger in his chest.
" You've been suudzon to your own husband, Zair!" said Brian.
" I'm not suudzon, that's the truth I don't know about you!" the word Fatma is full of emphasis.
Brian did admit that he used to be a sinner before he knew Fatma. Since learning about Islam, he prayed a lot that Allah would forgive all his sins.Even he often cried in his prayers considering all the sins he committed.
" I don't want to have a husband of a liar or a pez...!" fatma did not continue her words.
" Pe what's Za?" asked Brian to grit his forehead.
Fatma fell silent, she realized that she had spoken harshly to her husband. Athaghfirullah! Forgive me, O Allah! Why would a servant be such a rude person! batin Fatma sad. Since speaking to Nabil, his mind seemed to defeat all his common sense.
" Say Zair! Pe...what?" ask Brian again in a slightly high tone.
Zahirah fluttered from his place, he just stared straight at the beach.
" Fatimah Zahirah Fayyad! I'm not a good person, even if I'm a sinner, but since I know you, I've never seen another woman or even been interested in a woman other than you!" said Brian who was about to scream but he could still hold it. Fatma was surprised to hear the anger behind Brian's words, Is it wrong for the servant to be suspicious of him, O Allah? Why is he so angry? Why is he such a saintly person? inner Fatma. O God! Please, give me guidance on all these matters! Do not make the servant a wife who is blind in heart and mind over the husband of the servant! Amiins! do'a Fatma's.
" Are you jealous if I'm with another woman?" ask Brian in curiosity.
" What am I supposed to blow from you? I barely even know you!" fatma replied, instantly making Brian feel disappointed.
I'll keep being patient, Za! Because I love you so much and want you. Only you can make me happy in this world. And Fatma was more and more upset that Brian said that, and she was more and more convinced that her husband was what Nabil said.
Fatma had started her activities at school since a few days ago, she spent more time at school than at home. His heart still hurt with what happened. While Brian also overtime more than at home, he also still feels disappointed with the accusations and Fatma's attitude to him.
" Aren't you all working? Do you want to eat blind paychecks? Do I have to do it all?" brian shouted in the meeting room, making everyone there bow down in fear.
These few days Brian is always cranky in the office and wherever he is. Danis felt that his boss must have a problem with his wife, because all this time no one could make a Brian like a woman who is PMS.
" If within 2 days you still can't do it, take your salary and severance in Nindy!" said Brian then left the room and headed to his study with an annoyed face.
" Boss!" call Danis scared.
" What?" ask Brian loudly.
" Ad..ada Mr. Rino and Pp.pak Noval are below!" danis stammered.
Brian breathed.
" Send them up!" said Brian.
Rino and Noval were friends of Brian while studying at Aussie, they had a company in Indonesia that was inherited from his parents.
