The Black Valley Becomes the Empress
Part 12's

Nothing has changed with this place. It's the same as when I got out of this place. I walked down the corridor to my room. Earlier mba Rina told me if my room moved. He said, so I can have a new atmosphere. I had a conversation with my mom and Kuncoro. They were so enthusiastic about welcoming me it seemed they were happy I was back. Kuncoro sir told me to sign a contract for 3 months, and I agreed. I also needed this job. Today my mother told me to take a break, while fixing my new room. Tomorrow I start working. Mami never forgot to remind me to use contraception, I just nodded a little.

Time still shows at 2 pm, this place is still empty of visitors. Makes me more free to walk. Mba Rina was already in my room when I entered. Maybe Rina was here while I was chatting with Kuncoro sir.

"Wellcome back Queenza" she said with her signature joke.

"Oh my goodness, mba clean my room? Thanks, dear"

"The lebay lo. I miss you very much, queen"

"Related mba?" I said as I rolled my eyes. "I can't believe I can go back to this place" I continued. I saw mba Rina just smiling as her hands continued to tidy up everything in my room with 2 OB people I don't know. "This new COB is mba?" ask again.

"Yes, just got in a month ago"

"ohh. where was the old one?"

"Move down. The ones up here are all new. Boss who set. said let's not be bored"

"Ohh.." I was silent for a moment. Think of the right word to ask about mas gilang. I want to know the news now, however. "Mr.."

"hm"

"Did you come by here often?" many doubt. I saw the reaction of mba rina change as I asked about mas gilang. Mba rina rushed up to me. Without saying she sat right beside me on the long sofa I was also sitting on.

"Queenza why are you still saying that?"

"Yes just want to know anyway mba.anywhere else he will ever be a part of my life" I said. I threw my body into the side of the sofa together with a long breath.

"Here come here a few times" mba Rina was silent for a moment. "3 or 4 times"

"Who do you meet?" I said as I got up. fixed my sitting position.

"Gue forgets that I want him to never come to just one place"

"Ohh." I said again. "Well you know kirey?"

"If kirey I don't know. But.." mba rina stopped the sentence.

"Hmm what I heard he said he was invited to go to Brunei to live there"

"Same as a gilang?" my many. Mba Rina nodded her head slowly. I'm speechless. There was pain in my chest, but as fast as lightning I tried to throw it away.

"Udah, don't think about it. Everyone has their own path"

"hehe was mba, but I should have been there" I could no longer hide my pain and disappointment.

"Emang lo sure you live a happy life there? You sure it's gonna be a lot happier there than it is here?"

"Yes maybe mba. Anywhere would be happy if the same people we love"

"Lo still believes in God, right?" I just nodded hearing his question. "God has a much more beautiful plan for you"

"Haha. Mba, I will not hope anymore. How could anyone pick up a rotten piece of trash like me?"

"Nothing is impossible"

"hmmm. impossible mba"

"God is not just for those who worship. God is there for us too"

"Udah ahh mba" I said. I intentionally stopped our conversation. I don't want to make my heart hope with new hope. A hope I will never have. I should have known myself enough to live like this. I don't want to let the hope I once cherished grow back in my chest even in a different person. I've been in pain, and I don't want that pain back.

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Change the dappled nose guy into my room. Their goal was only 1 want to enjoy my body. I'm doing my job. Sometimes I enjoy it, but sometimes I serve them just because of the demands of my work. Once I met a man who interested me. His face was ordinary. But his personality, his way of speaking, his way of treating me, I like. Being with that guy makes me comfortable. I rarely miss his return. I wish he would come to see me. But he never came back to see me. There was a sense of disappointment that filled the chest every time I opened the door and it was not the man who came, but I immediately brushed it off. I can't fall in love anymore. My job is just work. My job is to make love, not to love. No one is ever happy to go through a job like the one I do. Every time I smile at those who come, it's just a smile full of falsehoods. A smile filled with fabrication. I can not deny, if my mind is very sick when they, people I just know lunged at me on the bed. They seemed to pounce on me mercilessly. Tearing away all my pride. And when they finished throwing away their tiredness they passed away without glancing at me back. They left my old body and threw me a note of tips if they were satisfied with my service. Sometimes some of them just leave. It was not uncommon for anyone to beat me mercilessly when they were dissatisfied with my service leaving bruises on my body, some of them berate me with harsh words that make my heart cut, leaving some wounds in my heart.

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"G*b**that's not possible" the man yelled at me as he flashed me a slap that landed on my cheek. I grimaced in pain. The man I was serving this time was still very young. "What's really****" he continued.

"Yes sorry dear"

"Darling? it's really nice to say dear to the cave" he snapped again. "lo lakanin what the cave asked *****" I followed his orders. All the touches he made to me meant nothing to me. I didn't feel the pleasure I was supposed to feel. "Lo mute heh? you can't sigh?" snatch it again. "I'm in vain to pay you dearly. If this is how you can't" He yelled at me again. "Bugh" a hard lump landed on my cheek, blood started to come out of my lips. The raw bogem he had laid on me made my lips bitten.