Sweet Wounds
Track 7's

I didn't’t leave because I stopped loving you,

I left because the longer I stayed,

The less I loved myself.

- unknown

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Today or often called the millennial era now, appear to share words, terms or slang. One of them, said Bucin which is an acronym of Slave of Love.

Bucin is often addressed to people who are willing to do anything when they are in love drunk or when they are in love with someone.

If the term has existed since a few years ago, maybe Elva can be included in the category of Bucin. Getting married at the age of 19 made Elva easily fall for the charm of Grian who was then 24 years old.

Let's say Elva was stupid for falling in love with a guy like Grian. Other than being handsome, the man had no other charm that made him worthy of love.

That's why love can't be blamed, right? We will never know when and to whom our hearts will be anchored? All we know is, we love that person.

Loving a man like Grian makes Elva forget herself. She even became immune to all the cruelty that the man had committed to her.

He still vividly remembered all Grian had done to him.

“Kak, my campus is still 3 km away. How, stop anyway?”elva asked the husband who suddenly pulled his car over near the stop.

The man ignored the question of the occupant of the bench sitting next to him, he still put his attention on mobile phone “There is a gojek on hp lo, right? Pesen now, I'm not a driver who has to anterin you to campus. Down here. Lo wait for his gojek in front of the stop,” he said cuek but with a repulsive tone.

Elva was just dumbfounded to hear the man beside her. The guy kicked him out? The campus is still far away and it is certain that he will be late if dropped off here.

Grian diverted his attention from the phone and found Elva who looked at him in wonder, immediately made himself upset “Reach see me? Lo deaf, huh? Cepetan go down, my girl pause again until.”

Listen to the tears that were almost dripping, Elva got out of the car. After her foot stepped on the sidewalk in front of the stop, her husband's white rover drove away from her.

In the past, every time Grian was so, Elva could only encourage herself, hopefully she was always given patience to face the man who was forced to marry her.

Given that they were married because of an arranged marriage, the girl understood that like any other romantic relationship, she also had to undergo tests that would later strengthen her love for her husband.

Love doesn't just have to be reciprocated, right?

When you love others, you will feel enough when you see them smiling happily even if the cause is not you.

That's what Elva always felt. Seeing her husband smiling happily, the deepest part of her heart felt warm. He understood that it was a consequence of loving people who put their taste in others.

The incident at the stop was only one of many other cruel things he had ever felt. Trying to convince herself to survive, every time hurt by her husband, eventually made Elva realize that she was not immune to the wounds her husband continues to give. He realized that he could no longer allow his body and mind to be tortured continuously. He has to finish everything.

With the support of her parents and Nindya, she learns to love herself. He realized that it was him that he had to love first.

But again he was tested. In the process of forgetting and learning to love oneself, he must accept the fact that in his stomach there is another life.

Anger was the emotion he felt at the time. Any questions in his brain?

Why is God so bad for her? Why did she have to get pregnant while she was trying to forget about Grian? Had he done such a great wrong in the past that he had to accept such a heavy punishment?

That's about the question that came up when she found out she was pregnant. Fortunately God was so good that he sent a helper angel who made him realize that the fetus had now grown into a smart and handsome boy, the child he once wanted to kill was a wonderful grace of God Beautiful and is now the reason he survived.

Then, the man came again. 1 week ago became the second time his son met with Grian. Elva can still breathe a sigh of relief because so far, the man acted as if Wren was not who he was when he already knew the truth.

He was relieved because of the man's attitude as if he did not recognize Wren as his son. That means his son will always be with him.

However, he could not deny that some of his heart felt disappointed because his son had to face rejection by his own father.

He was used to rejection and it was very painful. Elva didn't want her son to feel the same way. He's enough.

“Ica, mama call daritadi kok diem? Think what, anyway?”

The mama's Line question made Elva realize from her daydream. “Hngg?”

“Wanna share with me?” tanya Line is back.

Elva shook her head, “Not a big deal, ma. Sales bias again decreased so I again turn my brain to find the right solution. That’s all.”

“Mama has finished packing?” he continued to try to divert the mother's mind.

“Udah daritadi. Mom wanted to ask you for help, but you didn't know where. Mama was designing herself. Come, prepare! We have to go to the airport now, you know what the capital is stuck like.” Line said.

Elva thumbs up, “Okay. Mama please help Ren get ready well, I change clothes first.”

“Sana change clothes, Ren is not ready fromadi.”returns his mother.

Elva kissed Line directly on the cheek, “Please my dear mother. I’ll be back soon.” he said before running towards the room.

Line just shook his head. Elva even though she had given him a grandchild still acted like a child.

“Mama is happy with your childlike behavior. It makes mama feel better because you still want to show your weakness than you act mature but only as a mask to cover your sadness.” he said in his heart.

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