SARANGHAE OPPA
I Wish That You Could Realize My Dream Gyuri - ah

This morning the four of us sat down for breakfast. I sat next to Donghae oppa, Eunhyuk oppa in front of me and Haneul oenni facing Donghae oppa. I could see the two of them looking at us and smiling with a strange expression that made me feel so bad, that I could only bow my head in embarrassment. I can't even enjoy breakfast this morning. How could it be if the two of them did not stop looking at me with such a gaze.

“Eng.. Donghae-ah, what did you do to Gyuri so she was like that? even last night I heard the cry of Gyuri so loudly” Tanya Eunhyuk while pointing at her own lips. And looked at me with a look of pity that made me feel like a helpless victim of violence.

“Aniyeo, it's okay” I replied while trying to smile withstanding the pain, it really felt sore when I had to pull both corners of my lips to smile.

I can't possibly blame him for dropping that ballpoint in my room, because I know he did it too.

“I suggest, you better do it carefully. I know you're newlyweds and still have an uplifting spirit. But you're supposed to be gentle, don't be so wild. See the consequences on your wife” A silly statement is thrown from Eunhyuk oppa's mouth. Aish, never satisfied it feels like he's teasing us.

“Hya, Yes. Bwosfirm? I did nothing to him” Donghae oppa replied firmly he looked at Eunhyuk oppa sharply as if he wanted to throw the fork he was holding onto his face.

“Yes, we didn't do anything. I'm not lying” I chimed in on Donghae oppa's statement.

“You know, he fell for stepping on the bolpoint you dropped. It's all your fault, it's not me who did it” Donghae oppa back to defend. It seems like he really can't stand being cornered by Eunhyuk oppa.

“MWO? Lee Donghae, you blame me for what you did to your wife. Outrageous, you've even bitten him to such an injury?” Said eunhyuk oppa while giggling amusedly. Absolutely outrageous. How is it possible when enjoying breakfast even open a chat with such a theme.

“HYA..HYA.. LEE HYUK JAE, if you don't stop talking. I threw this fork I held onto your face”, Donghae oppa said with emotion. Too bad he had such a perverted friend. ckckck

“Already Eunhyuk oppa, do not talk about it uterus. Just eat your breakfast in peace” said I tried to stop the debate between these two good friends before the fork held by Donghae oppa floated into Eunhyuk oppa's face.

“Aish, don't be shy. Naturally, you guys are still newlyweds” Reply while chuckling amusedly. I saw Haneul oenni just smiling at this inappropriate conversation.

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This morning Eunhyuk oppa and Haeneul oenni will return to Seoul. They'll be home by plane at 9. Actually me and oppa also have to go home soon, but Donghae oppa still have to make sure there is no mistake in applying the concept they have compiled last night. Donghae oppa told me to come home with Eunhyuk oppa and Haneul oenni, he said if I get tired of accompanying him here I better go back to Seoul, how can I go back to Seoul and leave him here alone. Yesterday I had not had time to walk in Jeju, if now I have to go home it is a pity to miss this opportunity. If I go home with oppa, at least I can take a short walk today. That's why we're both going back to Seoul this afternoon, from Jeju to Seoul it doesn't take long, so I guess I'll definitely be able to go to college on Monday. Ah outrageous indeed, it must be very tiring if tomorrow I have to go to college again. But I have promised oema that this holiday will not interfere with my college schedule.

Well, never mind, what can be done. I wanted to come here anyway, monitor every single thing Donghae oppa did, but apparently he didn't do anything strange in front of me.

“Donghae-ssi, and Gyuri-ssi. We both go first” said Haneul oenni while shaking my hand and Donghae oppa alternately, then bowed his body with a smile.

“We go home first, you two just enjoy being together today. It is still 8 am, still enough time to continue the delayed last night” said Eunhyuk oppa, he glanced at Donghae oppa while winking one eye and turning his eyes to me, then laugh with great satisfaction. Aish, what's on this perverted guy's mind.

“Lee Hyukjae, you better get out of front of me quickly, before the shoes on my feet drifted to your head” Reply Donghae oppa with squinting eyes looking hard at Eunhyuk oppa with a sadistic look that seemed to want to kill his best friend.

“Mianhae, I shouldn't be talking here. But I suggest you just slow down Donghae-ssi. Look at the consequences on your wife, replied Eunhyuk oppa looking at me while pointing at my lips that still have wounds due to a fall last night. Absolutely outrageous of this man, why still tease us with it.

“HYA.. LEE HYUK JAE….quickly go from before me right now before I give you the letter of dismissal”, Donghae oppa said as he raised his hand that was ready to throw a punch in Eunhyuk oppa's head. Haneul oenni could only chuckle at the behavior of these two equally crazy friends.

“A...A... Mianhae. I promise I won't bring up what you did to Gyuri so that it makes her lips hurt like that. I understand you as newlyweds” replied Eunhyuk oppa who is still not satisfied tempting us, until now I think my face becomes red withholding embarrassment

“LEE HYUK JAE…. YOU....!” donghae Oppa shouted still raising his hand and aimed at Eunhyuk oppa's head.

“AAAAAAdwe andwe, mianhae sajangnim” replied while trying to protect his head with both hands.

“We go first” said Haneul before they finally entered the departure terminal. And immediately prepare to return to Seoul.

This time what else should I do. Donghae oppa still has to monitor the hotel staff, surely he will be silent inside the main office all day.

The two of us immediately left the airport and immediately returned to the hotel.

***

Donghae’s POV

Eunhyuk and Haneul have gone home, I still have to stay here until the afternoon to monitor the staff working on all the concepts that we compiled yesterday. After everything went well, I was able to return to Seoul quietly. It could have been Gyuri coming back to Seoul by now, but she refused and still wanted to stay here with me. Good, it's something I wish for. The two of us immediately left the airport and immediately returned to the hotel.

“I still have to go to the main office this afternoon, later in the afternoon after I finish I will see you soon. If you are tired of going for a walk around here, I will ask one of the staff to accompany you as long as I do not have”, I told Gyuri who was still sitting on the sofa lazily, he hugged both of his legs and resuscitated his chin to his knees while looking at the TV screen that was showing the news show this morning.

“Gwencana, no need to be accompanied by staff, you think I'm a little boy who should be guided so as not to be lost. I can walk around by myself” he replied in a lazy tone, without distracting him from me

“Keure..., great if you don't need company. It does not bother the hotel staff. You don't complain, last night I advised you to come home with Haneul and Eunhyuk, but you didn't want to and chose to stay. So enjoy a few hours in Jeju before we go back to Seoul” I go to him while tidying up my tie and wearing my black suit and get ready for the main office immediately. Actually I also do not want to leave him alone, the two of us from yesterday have not gone out together, ah boring once I in Jeju really just spend time in the office.

“Oppa, until when are you there?” Gyuri turned her attention to look at me and lowered both her legs from the sofa.

“About 3pm this afternoon, after that we will return to Seoul by plane at 5pm. There is still quite a lot of time if you want to play around” I take my laptop bag and immediately prepare to get out, before that I approach him who is still in sitting on the sofa comfortably.

“All right I go first” I said as I put my hand on her head, stroking her gently and smiling. He took a quick look at me, then tilted his head to the right. He scrunched his eyes and now tilted his head to the left.

“Hya, Lee Gyuri, wheyo?” ask me while paying attention to my appearance and top to bottom, what's wrong? What's he watching?

“Igo..,ng that I think your tie is tilted. Her knot was also a mess” Gyuri straightened her head and immediately rose from her previous position. He came up to me and stood right in front of me. The top of his head is under my chin, I can breathe the smell of strobery from his hair, hem, the smell of the shampoo is so sweet.

“Eh? Really?” I replied as I bowed my head and noticed the tie knot I tied in a hurry earlier. I had a little trouble fixing it, My right hand was carrying a laptop bag, when my left hand was about to fix it, Gyuri immediately held me back.

“Let me tidy it” Gyuri said as she pulled my das and opened the knot. He tied it very carefully. I bow my head looking at his face. God, this face why is it so beautiful, why does this wife really look so beautiful. I could see her plump eyelashes, and her beautiful nose line, her red lips without lipstick polish. Kim Gyuri, em Aniyeo Lee Gyuri, my beautiful wife, very beautiful. This time I was completely satisfied looking at her face fixedly, the face of a girl who had held my heart back, making me crazy and yearning for her every day. Yes, every day has always been my main focus, my need to stay alive. Missing her heart that never returned my feelings, reciprocating all my love that really has been very high. For some reason the more the day this feeling deepened, but I could never say it, never being able to express in front of him, yes Lee Donghae Babo, I realized that. And even more funny, who managed to take my wife's heart was a 2nd semester medical student who was still very unstable. Really sad your fate Lee Donghae.

“Gyuri-ah do you know my dream when I became a husband?” I said slowly because his current position was so close to me. He still tied the tie knot slowly, making it as perfect as possible. This time he did all this to me. It feels really happy. If only he could be like this every day, I would be the luckiest husband in the world, for marrying a Kim Gyuri em, Lee Gyuri I mean. Yes wife.

“Mwo? What was your dream when you became a husband?” ask him without distracting all his attention from my dasiku.

“My dream when being a husband is, when I wake up my wife will give me morning kiss. After the shower, I'll make you a nice sandwich and we'll have breakfast together. Before going to the office, my wife would fix my chest and give me a kiss goodbye. Dreams that do not know when they will come true. It must be very happy if my wife will do all that for me” I look into her eyes deeply, looking into her big clear eyes. Which always makes me flutter when I look at him, makes me confused when he looks me in the eye. But she never noticed my gaze, not realizing every moment I was always looking at her, and hoping she would see me next to her. Gyuri stepped back and tidied up my shirt collar.

“It's done” she said with a smile, really looking very sweet.

“1 Your dream that your wife will fix your tie before going to the office right? I've done it. But I can't do anything else. Sorry” Gyuri back sitting on the sofa with the previous position. He lifted his legs up and hugged him tightly, his attention returning to the television screen. Well I know, in his heart there is no me. Although I am her husband, but I cannot claim her role as a wife. It's okay, I'll keep waiting for you, wait for your heart to change and be able to reciprocate my feelings Lee Gyuri.

“Gumawo. It was my dream with my wife. With someone who really became my wife” answered me before I went out and stepped my feet open the door of the room. But then he turned his eyes to see me.

“I'm your wife, Mr. Lee. But I'm sorry, if I can't be a real wife yet. I can't guess how I feel, I don't know what my heart is like. I don't understand everything. And it makes me even more confused now” His words make me jerk. I stopped my steps when I was ready to open the door. What did he mean by that he apologized to me and he didn't understand his own feelings. I turned towards him, looking into his eyes still paying attention to the other object before him. Well I can see confusion there, empty eyes. Unlike the Kim Gyuri I knew once a high school student, and then became a level one student, before she became my wife and became Lee Gyuri's mistress. Is she feeling miserable about this marriage? Did I make her life depressed? oh my God, what am I supposed to do?

“I go first. Be careful if you want to go out alone” I said before opening the door and leaving immediately. I took a deep breath as I closed the door from the outside. Lee Donghae.., calm down everything will go as it should.

***

Real wife, why can't I do it? Why do I not understand my heart? What does my feeling mean to Jinki? What does my feeling mean to Oppa?. The more days I felt Donghae oppa was really affecting my life, I even felt like I always wanted to be close to him. Is this what is called love? Then how do I feel about Jinki? Is that love too? Questions filled my mind. I really don't know what the answer is to everything. It's giving me more headaches. Now I am alone, alone in this big room. I bowed my head and stared at my pendant, the necklace that Oemonim had given me after my engagement party with Donghae oppa, the pendant with a truly beautiful dark blue gem.a necklace that had special features, the necklace that Donghae's father oppa gave to oemonim and now coiled perfectly around my neck. The necklace I received with a promise, a promise to treat Donghae oppa well, a promise to be a good wife who respects her husband. But what am I doing? Until now I am still a youja cinggu another man, I am a wife and on the other hand I am a lover. Ah my head really hurts, if it's alone like this I can get even more tired. All right I think going out would be nice. I immediately got up from my position and prepared to go out, I glanced at the clock at the small table beside my bed. Exactly at 10:00, oppa will return at 3 pm. Long enough to walk-out, I could at least forget all about my chaotic feelings.

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“Mrs Lee, are you sure you will go alone? Sajangnim asked us to accompany you around” said two women in the same uniform. They are the staff at this hotel, Donghae oppa told them to? I told you I'm not a kid and can go alone. Why would he have two people follow me like this, how could I have fun.

“Gudecana. You don't have to accompany me. I want to go alone. This is not the first time I have come to Jeju, thanks for the attention”, I said, bowing my body to the two women in front of me.

“Sorry, Mrs Lee. But... Eng... What's with... lips?” one of the staff asked hesitantly. He pointed at his own lips, while holding a smile. But a moment later the fellow next to him immediately nudged his waist, he muttered softly as he blinked his eyes.

“Ah.., this...em, I was injured last night” replied me with a forced bitter smile. Aish this wound I think will be a warm conversation today.

“Em, I think Sajangnim was too excited last night so hmmmpp....” his words were interrupted when his partner swiftly wrapped his mouth.

“Chosungeo, Mrs Lee” she smiled as she furrowed her brows so her expression looked very strange.

“Em..., I will go out now” I told both staff who started to make me uncomfortable.

“Algaesimida, Mrs Lee. Good luck and be careful” reply one of them, I think his age is much older than the other. Maybe he was an employee supervisor. Hem, why would oppa keep me up like this.

“Em. Thank you” I said while bowing my body and soon passed out.

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Walk alone in the crowd. I started to step my feet towards some funny stuff stand. I got into it and browsed through various excellent crafts. Trying them one by one and taking pictures with my phone, I think this activity is quite exciting. Although alone but still fun when we find something beautiful and can distract all my attention.

I didn't feel like I was walking long enough. And now at exactly 14:00, ah it's worth my stomach feeling so hungry, I haven't even had lunch today. Ooh, I was holding my stomach which was starting to hurt, I could hear his loud voice. Really embarrassing.I think it's better I go back to the hotel alone, it's 2 pm, 3 o'clock Donghae oppa is done with the task. I'm heading back to the hotel, hem, I think I really should fill my stomach before I pass out. When I entered the hotel, I immediately headed to the restaurant on the ground floor. Hem is really hungry. I sat on one of the sofas in the corner of the room, put my sling bag next to the sofa I was sitting on, and turned my gaze around looking for the whereabouts of a waiter who was not busy of course. I raised my right hand, and one of the waiters immediately approached me

“Mrs Lee. Anyeonghaseo” said as he bent his body very low, I think almost 45⁰ he bent his body. But how does he know me?

“Eh? Anyeonghaseo” replied to me while bowing my head short

“There is something I can help Mrs Lee” she said in a very polite tone. It was really strange to be treated like this, probably because I rarely visited the hotel. It's my family's hotel, but it really makes me uncomfortable.

“Em, what is the special lunch menu today? I want to give it a try” asked me in a polite tone and smiled at him.

“Algaesimida, please wait a moment. We will soon present him” he noted in a small book he held and soon passed. About 15 minutes later he served a very tempting dish. Em I'm eight now. Immediately I spend 1 serving of food in front of me until it runs out.

“Ah.... completely satiated” muttered me while leaning my back against the sofa I was sitting comfortably on. I took a glass of water and drank it. Suddenly I heard someone calling me.

“Lee Gyuri He half shouted. I glanced at him with the tip of my eye without releasing the glass that was still stuck in my mouth. MWO?? LEE JINKI??… I spouted water in my mouth until it all came out wetting the table in front of me.

“Lee Gyuri...” Jinki approached me with very fast steps and waved his hand at me. While I just gap and round my eyes when I see it getting closer. Maybe I was just hallucinating because of my stomach problem that was empty and suddenly filled with lunch today, maybe because of hunger, the way my brain works so messy like this. I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand trying to really focus. Then I patted both of my cheeks which were painful. It's real, it's real, I'm not dreaming or hallucinating. LEE JINKI'S? Now it's right in front of me. Oh my God, what he talked about yesterday when he said he was going to come up to me to Jeju he really did. This boy actually came and met me here, Aigoo?

“Hya…. Gyuri-ah.. Lee Gyuri... Kim Gyuri Jinki wagged her palms in front of my face, I tried to really focus and looked at her fixedly. Yes Lee Jinki, really Lee Jinki.

“Jinki-ah I muttered in a very slow voice without taking my eyes off her face.

“Gyuri-ah bogosipho..” Jinki widened both hands and prepared to hold me.

“Kyaaaaa, andwe..” I rewind my body and hold both hands to get away immediately. Crazy.., how could she have called me in a place like this. The entire staff of this hotel knows me as the daughter of the owner of this hotel and also as the wife of its chief director. What they will think of me, my history is over.

“Gyuri-ah, wheyo?” Jinki lowered both hands in great disappointment.

“Khaza...” I said while pulling his hand to immediately go follow me. With half a run I passed this hotel and went to the park around the hotel that looked deserted. I spread my eyes around, making sure no one saw you two here. I took a deep breath.

“Babo...” I said with half a shout in front of his face.

“You want me dead huh?” my continue. I was really emotional facing this man before me. How could he come so peacefully to me in this place and say “Gyuri-ah bogosipho” is really crazy..,

“Mianhae.., I really panicked when I found out you went to Jeju island with Hyungnim. I can't think of anything but you. That's why I immediately went here last night” yes God, this boy turned reckless as well. He even came straight to me here. Ckckck.

Jinki brought her face closer to mine so that it made me swiftly rewind my face and furrow my eyebrows due to her sudden strange demeanor. He tilted his head to the left, looked at me fixedly then tilted his head again to the right. What's wrong with this boy.

“Igo.., your lips...” Aish, lips again. Why today the theme of people's conversation with me is ‘bibir’. is there nothing else?

“Aniyo, wattage. Just injured a little” I replied lazily. How many times should I explain to the people I met today.

“But why get hurt? Hyungnim biting your lips? Aish, how rude of him. Dare to hurt my girlfriend.” Jinki grabbed my chin with her index finger and noticed the wound on my lips. He grimaced as he continued to grumble indistinctly.

‘PLETAK’ I clocked his head hard, until finally he stepped back and rubbed his head while crying in pain.

“Gyuri-ah, wheyo?” he said with a sinless face that really looked like a child who knew nothing.

“Bwossteoria? What do you think we're gonna do? There's –ada only. Besides, if he dares to bite my lips like this. I will report it to the national child protection commission, and I file his actions with the national female protection commission on domestic violence charges, cih”. Why didn't I wear a mask, so nobody would see it. Or I plaster my mouth, so I can't talk at all. Superfluity.

“Who knows, don't you think, Hyungnim is a man and you are a woman. How can a man sleep peacefully if beside him there is a girl who even has the status of his legal wife. Although he has no feelings for you, Hyungnim is still a man. Didn't you ever think about all that? You are why Kim Gyuri is so innocent. Bamsae hansumdo jalsu eobseo, I think about it every night, you know?” This time Jinki's emotions had already started to rise. I think this boy is always emotional when it comes to my relationship with Donghae oppa, but what can I do, this is already a consequence if he still wants to be my lover.

“Why can't you sleep every night? This is too much of you. You must have understood well, right? me and Oppa couldn't have done anything. He's a man and I'm a woman, so what? We both have no feelings. Why is your mind so shallow. You coming here is like killing me. All the staff here know me as the wife of their leader. If you act like this, what will they think of me. Use that smart brain of yours to think Jinki-ssi. I think the way your brain works starts to fall apart from having to memorize the names of viruses and bacteria. Aigooo ” I really can't resist my emotions facing Jinki. I can only shake my head while shaking my right hand to get a little wind, ah emotions make my body temperature go up.

“But you don't know how I feel, you don't know how panicked I was. You don't know I'm really afraid if you fall into Donghae hyung's hands. You just belong to me Kim Gyuri. You're mine, just for me. No one can take you from my side. Including hyungnim even though” jinki emotions began to peak, he replied to my words very harshly. I saw her eyes red from restraining emotions. His two hands clenched tightly, making me very afraid to see him. The Jinki who were always so sweet to me, the Jinki who never spoke in such a high tone to me, who always treated me like a princess. Now that I've seen the other side of him, Jinki is really angry right now.

“Already, I don't want to argue with you here. You're hard to explain. Understanding a little, I was caught in a confusing situation. I'm even married now. I've given you a choice, I've asked you to let me go before. But you rejected it, you rejected it all, you chose to keep me by your side. But if your attitude is like this, how can I stay by your side. I am confused, I am in a situation I never thought of before. You know I always feel guilty when I remember my family. My father and mother, and of course Donghae's parents oppa as well. Do you know my feelings are tormented because of this situation, I was between you and oppa. I was among the 2 people I both care about. You're my boyfriend and he's my husband, it doesn't make sense, does it? My life really doesn't make sense, does it? Just imagine being me, what would you do, huh? Answer me...” unconsciously I spoke at length, until it felt like my breath was exhausted because of my overflowing emotions. Now I take out all my heart, I convey all my turmoil that I have been holding myself. Which has been tormenting my mind all along. Making me change from the previous Kim Gyuri, making me Lee Gyuri who was always haunted by a great sense of fear and guilt.

“Keure.., come with me now. I want to know how you really feel about me, KHAZA..” Jinki grabbed my right wrist and pulled me very roughly. He forced me to follow in his footsteps, which was full of emotions. Jinki who is currently in front of me like not the Jinki I know, she is really angry and treats me like this. makes me very shocked by what she did to me.

“Appo.., release, Jinki-ah, sakiiit, release me.” I tried to get my hand out of its grip. But he still did not flinch, he pulled me until I was almost dragged in his steps. What exactly does Jinki want. Where am I going to take you now? God, I can't even do anything.

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