OCTOBER BEARS
~Langsa, 22 October 2017~

it..tokkk...tokkk!!!!

The boarding door that was clutched in front of it rang out loud. I began to set foot towards there, because whoever the guest still had to I who welcomed him, these two hostess brothers were very busy with their own dreams, each of them, so asleep in this hot broad daylight.

“Iya a minute!” I shouted a little loudly so that the people out there were a little patient.

“Assalamualaikum Adzkynaya Seiza?” greet the moan that was none other than Lia my best friend. This bloody Acehnese girl had no idea what to come in broad daylight and holidays like this, well I heard first what she wanted to say.

“Waalaikumussalam, what is it li?” lirihku while pulling Lia's hand gently to enter.

“Yukss, the roads to Mangrove Forest.there is Dirga and there is Yudha too. Immediately prepare Aya, 10 minutes more I return you should be ready ya” pinta Lia show the watch in the circle of her hands.

“There is an event what Li, hot gini we out, Lia sure?” I asked politely to her, I didn't want to let go of the sweet smile that she gave me.

“Have not many reasons, I went to the Dirgha dlu kost. I'll pick you up again. Dandan beautiful yes, daaaa Ayyy” Lia passed without embellishing the fate of my heart that began to worry.

What do you have to dress up to be categorized as beautiful? ah I don't know. I immediately scattered with the beat of time, competing with each other to be able to adjust the steps who was prepared first. My finger swiftly snatched something in his bed, like a bath is a ritual that must be completed first.

“Eh where is the blanket going?” suddenly Nia's voice stopped my steps. It's a little strange, since when did this kid wake up and catch my behavior.

“Ay want to take a shower, why?” I answered with a confused face.

“Iya brother knows, but that blanket you want to bring a bath also Ay, brother who just woke up, koq you who became ngigo!” Nia continued with a look of annoyance because I turned out to be wrong.

“Heheh, want to take a towel, apparently this is a blanket yes.heheheh” I was forced to laugh with a cry while returning the blanket and making sure this time it was the towel he was holding.

The ritual of bathing to the word is over I've been through. The next step was to contact Lia, knowing that this girl was deliberately waiting for my news first before she had to struggle in waiting. I scrolled the phone screen, searched for Lia's name and started typing. All right, I'm heading downstairs just so that when Lia comes, I can go straight.

Sunday, at the end of October is very hot, even though the clock has shown a number that is not young anymore. At 17:00 Wib. Suspected of the heat, the sky seems to be in a deep sleep when soon dusk will say goodbye to go home and night together to arrive. Maybe the sky is tired, or is reaping anger to leave the heat like this, the heart could be more boiling if in the face of turmoil and the embrace of air that is not okay.

Both balls of my eyes touched every human who was passing nonstop in accordance with their respective goals, until he smiled when he met the figure of Lia and the man named Dirgha. They throw each other a glance. Then Lia gave a code that hinted to invite with one direct nod I was willing to and board the seat of Lia's car.

“Where are we Lia?” my sap slightly raised the volume of this sound because the road is not possible to whisper.

“Try Dirgha, Lia also do not know where Ay” replied Lia. Immediately I turned my body and waved at Dirgha for a bit closer.

“Why Li. Where are we.?” the voice of this child is heard.

“Terupon the heck, where are we Aya.?” now Lia's throwing the riddle at me. Manaku knows where he's headed. They are the ones who have a plan, I'm just a connoisseur of every trip.

“I know, we go to the mangrove forest only.” muttered Lia next, all laughing at the behavior of our friends this. How not, he was confused himself where to go, now he also directs what to do. Basic Lia it's lucky you're my best friend.

I don't know which horizon brought the wind to blow this afternoon. Everything feels soothing, let alone the hustle and bustle of motor vehicle sounds like the sound of birds singing all the time. Every touch of wind managed to pamper me at a point called comfort. Time, please don't pass, I feel alive in this world. I enjoyed everything on the streets, everything seemed to spoil the eyes, except with a man who was busy clutching tightly to his lover, spreading intimacy everywhere.

They think the world has them? Want me to flush her lover so that regardless of her so spoiled attitude, does she not know how my eyes hurt with such a sight? Or I'll just pull this lover. If he falls, fall into someone else's arms!

“Down Aya, have arrived. From earlier your face looks tangled like a thread without embroidery, but this is a happy afternoon is not it?” lia's voice managed to disperse my every routine on the streets

“Eh?”

I let Lia frown while Dirgha shook her head without any problems. Alright, my attitude is completely unable to hide, even though I am in the world of privates. We stepped into the entrance of this tourist spot.it is actually not a tour, it's just that the habitat is preserved.

All kinds of trees are there, even I just enrich my knowledge after meeting this place, not only pine and teak trees, there are many other trees. Where magrove plants are able to neighbors with tributaries, the, with so many mangroves that manage to live among the flowing water without any one will be eliminated and that is one that makes this Forest very beautiful.

Lia clasped my finger and when stepping in, while Dirgha walked in front as if to be a tour guide, even though his position was there that made me disturbed. To see the view ahead, I had to look at his shoulder first.

“Dirgha, you walk behind the gih. Your body is as high as an electric pole, can not I widely see!.” ketus Lia suddenly, I just do not believe Lia's words are able to represent the argument of my heart.

“Please-please” the answer is flat and let me and Lia be at the forefront.

“Tadi said Yudha is coming. Well, where is he?” I asked when I realized Lia's words this afternoon. I looked at both of them, but they looked at each other.

“She didn't come with Ay” replied Lia later.

“Iya know, why?” I threw the question back, dissatisfied without being given any evidence.

“Just do not follow, ask Dirgha just” tepis Lia, while Dirgha I see normal.

I narrowed a little towards him, don't tell him he also said no and told me to go back to asking Lia this, I can throw the fruit he gave the monkey here to put in his mouth. Come on Dirgha, answer my question.

“Actually he didn't come, he moved today Ay. He was willing to come, suddenly he just canceled.” explained Dirgha by still not looking at me instead focused on repeating his new friends, naughty monkeys.

“Too convoluted!” lirihku, but he ignored by stepping a few steps forward. Lia also followed him.

I exhaled the leaves that were in my grasp, sometimes I let Lia pull my hand, but when she let my guard down I repeated again pulling the leaves of the tree on the right and us. Our mood suddenly did not improve, whether the sense of name what is now lingering in my heart, the clouds are no longer beautiful and the blowing of the wind does not feel friendly, I feel myself in the crowd. I lagged far from the compactness of their steps ahead. Only Laughter was heard, Dirgha's words were also increasingly disturbing me, whether they were not aware of how I was in my current situation. Ignoring is a problem, especially in asking a Kienaya want what I did not hear. Well, this is what it's like to be third.

Until the time came when I tried to pull the leaves back, something grabbed my hand suddenly.

“Akhhh, Liaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!”

I screamed as loud as I looked at my finger that was already flooded with drops of blood and the gaze of a Monkey that turned out to be the cause of my wound was getting hysterical. I ran after Lia and Dirgha leaving the Monkey who might have laughed and felt free because I didn't hold it to account. Basic evil! Without looking around, I continued to charge through the remaining strength. I can see from here the bridge is a bit high by not caring about anything I tried to climb it, bismillah.

“Gubrrrraaaakkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!”

I landed back smoothly over the bridge, but it was not my feet that made it to the ground first, but my back that took over and bore the weight of this body. I fell down, it hurt even more than before. Lia helped me stand up while Dirgha did nothing, I even saw that she was smiling indistinctly as if she was holding back the laughter of seeing my actions just now. Just look, if I hear him laughing, then I don't hesitate to pull his glasses so that he looks more and more like china balekkong.

“Yeah Aya, koq can be like this.?” lia exclaimed to help me stand up but she seemed unable to stand up on her own.

I've been very similar to a pile of wood that was so heavy that it had to be 2 people handling it. Damn, my smile is gone. I forgot how to shape it. We walked out, had not had time to surround this Mangrove I've been wretched. Lia still helped me walk while Dirgha brought my sandals that turned out to have broken but I do not know when, either with his hanging friend or when the action jumped my cane.

“Ay can hold this plastic, I dumped the bamboo?” Lia asked me by handing over the plastic was containing all guava.

“Dirgha alone held Li, Aya aching” hand grumbled me to make them realize that my wound was still bleeding.

“Can't, my trunk is full. if this stag also can't. The stag is a bit rocking and a little jammed” explained Dirgha later.

“In Lia's luggage only, just look at the empty trunk” my advice is to find a way out and remember when he opened his trunk on a petrol filling 1 hour ago.

“Bagasi Lia is also full, ah already. Let Lia put it in front. Ride Aya, slowly ya” voice Lia caught the exit itself.

We hunt with the road back, the afternoon wind gently rubbed my wounds, it was painful but I can not deny this is very soothing. Actually it's not too bad, just because I'm afraid the blood makes me have trouble covering up that I'm not okay. For some reason when I saw the blood I became shriveled and disgusted myself, as if even though it didn't hurt I still felt hurt because I saw the situation. But it's about the physical condition, I don't know what it's like when my heart is made hurt and if it bleeds you must also be the cure.

“Thank you so much Lia” said as I watched Lia finish her kindness treating my wounds.

Apparently the sound of adzan magrib was able to make us stay here, one of the places on the side of the road. The shape is like a floating restaurant, because it is on the water. I'm sure the water flowing over it is part of the river in the magrove, because the distance of the mangrove is not far from here. Either this is water flowing from the sea that ranges a kilometer away from our present existence.

While waiting for Dirgha who was praying I and Lia talked about the state of campus. The look on my face can definitely be read by Lia in no way shows the spirit side when it comes to discussing the matter of lectures, especially with our class. My problem and Revelation are still a little runaway though not as severe as the beginning of it. My friends hated me and started to disappear one by one. There's only Dirgha, Yudha and Lia my only female friends.

“Again Ay, maybe other friends want to apologize just not brave because uda ngeledekin deluan. Aya was calm, there were still Lia, Dirgha and Yudha who could really understand how things were and the truth of Aya's story. Ah, don't be sad. Lia sure yes definitely will be back to improve koq. The spirit of Adzkynaya Seiza” lia like making a speech when the sky is dark, my friend gave me the light that tomorrow is still full of new hope.

While returning his embrace, I left God to hope that Lia's prayer would be heard. We do not know which prayer God gives, can be from others who hate us let alone I can witness the blatant sincerity of prayer from those who love me. For the sky, I hope I can reconnect the picture and my thoughts about the beauty of the first child's struggle. O wind, tell the universe to help me secure it.

Dirgha came along with the waiter of this restaurant. I close my body with Lia to see what food menu I want to enjoy.

“Indomie seafood one yes sis. Drinking cold sweet tea” I explained to a friendly officer right he said.

“I'm also a sister, but drinking nutrient sari ya” continued Dirgha quickly, I just smiled thinly as he tried to throw his gaze.

“If Lia nasi fried chicken kak, drink it hot chocolate” argument Lia be the cover of this order.

We stared at each other trying to wait first who wanted to tell a story and I could catch the lens of her eyes staring at Lia, then Lia gave the keys to Dirgha. Then I don't know why Lia immediately pulled me to be accompanied to the toilet. We traced a path made of planks, not as smooth as asphalt but I'm sure it's very strong. Tumbler lights full of flickering gives its own feel to the situation. While flowers and other decorations are so beautiful, simple but still looks expensive.

“Come back, Lia not so to toilet” Lia voice surprised my daydream about the beauty of this place.

“Lho, Why li?” I asked later, but this girl ignored him.

Lia told me to walk faster in front. He was busy receiving calls on his phone, I follow the wishes of my best friend who has the full name Lia Maulida. I opened my pansus rope to enter into this dining room, the lesehan used really resembled the shape of the house, the atmosphere of eating with the family slightly playing its eyes to me, I feel like I miss home.

I approached Dirgha who was also busy with his phone screen, but suddenly...

“This is from me who always never sensitized you” the voice of this young man is not able to I gauli, a little soft and somewhat contrived like him.

Dirgha put on a smiley look and his sparkling gaze whether it was shame or a feeling he was currently representing me. The bouquet of plastic flowers and it was red he managed to hold perfectly, both hands. I haven't had time to land this body on the floor I've pulled back because I was surprised to see his behavior just now. I'm glued, Dirgha too, while our hearts hunt each other.

“What is Dirgha?” I opened my voice at last.

“Lia...sini...liaaaaa” shouted I was wrong to call the name Lia.

Lia did not push and I became even more excited as Dirgha gently pulled my arm to submit and position it right in front of him. My sweat suddenly boils when there is a night breeze and also a touch of beach water. My heart is also unstable as it does not want to work as it should when before I did not have a history of deadly hurt as I feel now. Moreover, I have tightness in the chest, whether this is asthma or a nameless feeling.

“Kynaya, this is for you”. Dirgha asserted that what I saw was not wrong, like an offer of love.

“I love you too, will Kynaya be my girlfriend?” dirgha's voice made things clearer.

“Hahahah, Geez Dirgha. But I just......

“I'm sorry that I haven't sensit” all this time he continued again and cut off what I wanted to say.

Then Lia came and smiled flirtatiously at the two of us, Dirgha's face flushed red while my gaze somehow had to be. We laughed at each other every conversation they spoke, it turned out that today was Dirgha's plan all, he deliberately invited Lia to accompany him to take me for a walk. Then, the bathroom request took my eyes off as Dirgha took the flowers in the trunk of his carriage.

“So I don't want to open luggage because there is a bouquet in it huh?” I'm upset, it must be true it can't be wrong.

“Hahah, yes Ay. It's all Dirgha's plans yes, I'm just helping. hahaha” Lia's voice really makes me want to pat myself.

I am apparently not aware of all their plans today, especially on this Sunday there are no hours of work in the world, Lia was willing to come when the sun was very hot and the reason took Yudha when it was just the three of us, and I could most say Dirgha was insensitive, I couldn't read the riddles around. You Kynaya, you suck.

“Si Dirgha dare to shoot yourself, fear him. Later you kik he all-out well fearing the intention he wants to shoot ga so. hahaha, hahaha, woooo suck basic ga dare” voice Lia mocked Dirgha but I welcome with laughter while the child just scratched his head that does not itch.

“So brave Li, the evidence is good also in romantic. hehehe” obviously I back tease him, well he presents red cheeks back.

We laughed passing through tonight, the clock hugging each other's arms lyrics, 20:22 it was night. Dirgha had already paid for our food earlier, I held Lia's arm and laughed when Lia told him about Dirgha's intentions which he had planned for a long time.

“Same with Dirgha only. Later Dirgha who took Aya home yes. Lia's house is in another direction, so Lia went back first ya.” Lia's argument ended our spilling today.

Dirgha and I have put caution on him, may he survive until the goal. There will be a return tomorrow that Lia will definitely be the one I have to look forward to because I know she could have leaked the incident tonight to The Gang, moreover, their mouths one by one I can not take care of, there are too many 6 people, not to mention our gestures that will be suspicious after that, he said, or at least I will invite Dirgha to stuff his mouth. give him rupiah if necessary.

I am not afraid that 1 unit will find out about me and Dirgha, but there is Rizqan there, this child always makes a fuss with me and then Dirgha always defends me. but the soul of selfishness is thrashing when said to have an insider, there is a kind of defense that I get when I storm with it. The defense was from Dirgha and that was always what Rizqan said every time he argued with her. He said Dirgha was my girlfriend, he liked me and stupidly I insisted at that time I had no girlfriend, I did not like defense and did not like anyone in this city.

Simply put, if he wants to fight me I submit, I can stand on my own feet, he said, no matter this city while I am just an overseas child who relies on Langsa belongs to anyone who has the status of a student at the same University. Rizqan thinks I'm afraid of what, no! not Kynaya then. But that was yesterday, about 1 month ago. And tonight Dirgha has proven Rizqan saying that I was dating him and in the courtship because he likes it and this city managed to make me feel like I managed to fall in love too.

Not that, I do not like Dirgha at all, nor do I intend to start love again after the last 4 years I fakum of the pink virus. So far, I've said insensitive because he doesn't understand the codes at all. Dirgha said he never dated even though when his first high school best friend liked him and harbored feelings during the friendship period and when it came to separation, then the girl was frank about her feelings, and then the girl was frank about her, but distance separated them.

Dirgha in Aceh while the girl in Jakarta. I never trusted a man who said he had never been in love or had never been in love. Until it is not wrong that I also like to judge him to prove his words and again this is beyond my reasoning, it turns out that something he never experienced finally materialized as well, yaknik fell in love and had a partner.

Sanggu ruwet, I am a typical woman who is difficult to fall in love.even though my co-star has been washed away in the cradle of romance and it has not also made me feel the same way with him at the same time. However, I can also at least refuse, for some reason it can be so. I was afraid he was angry, I was afraid he was disappointed, and I was afraid to experience the same incident with him one day, which was wasted in my heart when everything I had managed to give.

So despicable, I can't be that selfish. Like tonight, Dirgha was in front of me this was the first time I was so close to him, sitting in the back seat of his Variant train and listening to whatever he said, all I know is that Dirgha already considers me his lover even though I have not yet said consent to build this relationship with him. Who also Dirgha knows I have accepted it and his assumption as my lover he justified also in his heart. In fact, I can't interpret how I should be right now.