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SYAKIRA POV

I'm Syakira Ayuningtyas, I'm used to spoiled father and mother, except for my brother the book crazy sociopath.

seeing that such a mother made me unable to think sanely anymore. I was disappointed with the decision runa. he always took decisions only with his brain and logic. he never thinks about his feelings and never cares about the opinions of others.

to be honest, I'm more willing to live happily even on the lies of a relationship, after all the father and mother who lived it. as a child, it's not appropriate that I am happy, growing up with a ring of affection, anyway, maybe that sounds selfish, but that's what's on my mind.it's their commitment, through them I exist, if I exist only to be let go then why did they make me born, why did they give birth to me just to see this destruction? that's what's raging in my mind.

why do I feel satisfied when I see Karuna hit by mother, although I was surprised to not expect the mother who had been meek was able to swing her hands at the daughter who had been proud.

"what's a mother's slap?"

I asked the sarcasm, because I also held back the anger over Karuna's actions.

/"what do you mean?"

"you deserve that runa!"

/"you support mom?"

"i don't support her, but I just want our family to remain intact"

/" hmm...really? I'm sure it's not that! come on Akira, to be honest, you are so greedy and thirsty for attention and affection, there is no reason you would disagree with me so noble.

he said arrogantly, he walked past me towards his computer,

/" come! I have a great show for you!"

he said as he waved his hand to ask me to look at his computer.

and how surprised I was to see the picture on the computer.I saw the hot scene of the mother with the man.

"haaaah.you're crazy Runa! you bugged mom's room?"

/"yeps!, and you know how long? since grade 2 Junior High!"

once again I was astonished at him, no matter what other surprises I would hear, see and feel, this heart was already powerless to feel even more disappointment.

" and during that time you pretended not to know, even you were able to pretend to be surprised?! great rauna, you're great!"

/" pretend not to know. yes.. hmh.. can be said that, I just hid it from you and dad. lf you know, I've been trying to remind mom, I've been trying to, whether you believe it or not."

is this the sister I have loved all this time? he was able to act like nothing had happened when it had just been hit by my mother, and he was still relaxed and calm serving me.

"really terrible! no matter what drip you are, you are able to behave like you have no feelings."

/"how can you say that while we're selfish?"

"what do you mean?"

come on Akira use your brain, don't lose to Dolphin brains!"

"okay! I admit I just don't want the enjoyment and perfection of my life to disappear because of you! yep! I don't care how mom and dad feel! but isn't that natural?!"

I said with explosive anger.

/"dumb shit! that reasonableness only applies to brainless people like you! now try to think, without me, would you not know? without this incident, can we make sure this harmony continues to grow us perfectly?"

"what do you mean? what else do I not know?"

I was confused, I was really not ready for what I was going to hear from my sister.

/"think, use your brain, if you can't, use your eyes, ears and feelings!"

"stop convoluted Karuna! I am a fool! but you don't deserve to treat me like this! a little bit telling me to use my brain! are you blind! I don't want to think about complicated things! I'm not like you who's good at everything!"

/"okay! are you mentally prepared to know everything?"

" yes! i'm ready!"

I answered Karuna's question that was playing tricks on me.

/"dad, already have a second wife in Jambi!"

"jederrrr!!!!!" like being struck by lightning, my heart is so messed up, so messed up that I don't even feel anything that's happened in this house all this time, my sinking cusp I'm in this intoxicating reel of affection.

"stop! wait, wait a minute!"

my legs are limp hearing it.

I was sitting limp in Karuna's bed.

a few minutes we were silent, and suddenly Karuna's alarm went off, which meant it was already 4am.

/"hmh, never mind! let's prepare for prayer and bath, then breakfast to prepare for school.Is not today your final exam? I will not graduate"

said Karuna calmly and lightly, I really envy her brain and her stable emotional control when she does not sleep at all, and even I'm sure last night was the first time that Runa had received a mother's hand dance on her smooth cheek.

"Karuna, how do I pass the end-of-school exam if my life test is levelling up which means more misery? hyx... hyx..."

I whined at him and cried, he started hugging me, and my tears broke, I can't believe he can still say,

/"enough 15 minutes no more no less, I allow you to lean on my precious shoulder!"

15minutes were up, the dawn prayer was reverberating, indeed, my family was still very layman for the sense of religion, but for prayer which is an obligation for our religion remains in priority.

after all, Karuna and I went to school as usual, but I really did not have the energy to even breathe, in an instant all of it was destroyed, he said, and I had to face the final school exam along with the life test, for my brain of course I couldn't share it. when we got to my school, Karuna suddenly said something that never came out of her mouth, and I didn't even think she said it to me.