It turns out my Mom is cheating on my husband
Curse Yourself

Yudha returned to the nursing home with her gloomy face. He really is a nelangsa, when he really wants to change for the better, even there are those who make himself out.

"Fate-fate, maybe it's been this self-determination for like this. Can't apologize to the women I've been hurting all this time, "his mind is sad.

"Let's go, how else. Do I really have to be like this? don't apologize one by one to the people I've hurt?" inner again.

Just keep grumbling inside his endless heart. He feels now his life is lonely, there are no relatives and people in love or love him.

Yudha sat on the porch of the nursing home yard, her eyes occasionally unconsciously staring at the house, Ryan. Ryan is currently joking with the baby twins and his wife.

Suddenly he imagined himself in Ryan's position. Yudha was as comfortable as her own smile, and that smile suddenly disappeared.

"Damn it, why am I like this? I've been going crazy for a long time because I fantasized too much."

Yudha rubbed her face violently over and over again.

He also entered the home, because he did not want to be dissolved in sadness when he saw the happiness of Ryan with his wife and two children who are twins and are still toddlers. He wanted to have full power like Ryan.

"Hem, I was just building a household with Meysa. It's only been a few days but I've been playing with fire by cheating with Miss Ida. Now what do I get? nothing at all."

"I feel lonely like this. Sad yes, disappointed is amazing. But all this because of my own actions."

"More than that, I wonder why I can cheat with my own mother-in-law. It's old, but why am I always willing to be taken the same way, Miss Ida."

Yudha continued to curse herself with what she did in the past and have repercussions in the future. It's ruined everything now. There was no chance for her to find happiness.

"It seems no longer bada women who want to be my life companion. I'm sure I'll live like this forever. Only alone and always alone. Even I would be one of the waiters in the nursing home especially in the opa-opa pavilion," his inner self continued to grumble.

In his spare time, Yudha was often in rooms or in the pavilions of the opae. Rather than feeling lonely, Yudha prefers to chat with seniors, especially opa-opa.

He did it so that he could entertain himself. Because who else if not himself is trying to comfort self-restlessness.

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Late in the evening, Yudha helps the male nurses to hand out dinner to all the opa-opa. And unintentionally his eyes looked towards the pavilion of the Oma.

Where there are some women who take care of the Oma, are also distributing dinner. He stared at one of the young women who had also looked at him with a sweet smile.

"Who is the young lady smiling at me? it seemed like he had just worked here, because I had only seen him," Yudha's inner voice continued to gaze at the young lady without forgetting to smile at him.