I'm Going to Share a Husband
Still POV.Mayra [Finished]

This chest tightness felt when the word legitimate echoed in the room where my husband returned to say kabul ijab in the name of another woman.

It really wants to feel like screaming as hard as it is, but after a lot of attention, this heart also begins to calm down.

My feelings were not enough when I saw my husband enter another room with a woman.

Want to ban it but I can not do when I remember if the woman is the wife of Mas Ilyas also now.

Not wanting to get hurt more, I also went into my own room.Wind to cry but it feels useless also crying because everything has happened and will not return like before.

But when I wanted to close my eyes to forget what happened today.Tiba arrived my body warmed by someone's embrace.

Who else if not my husband did it.But I wonder, why is he even here?isn't this their bridal night?why sleep next to me and hug my body?batin asked.

"I'm sorry,"

While I was still busy with my thoughts, I suddenly heard a pretty slick apology from Mas Ilyas.

"Why are you here?shouldn't Mas be there with her." I replied without looking at my husband.

It still feels unable to look into the face of the man who has betrayed me, and betrayed our marriage.

"I beg you dear, do not force me to be with him.Quite the status that I share with him, but not with my body and feelings" said Mas Ilyas again, said,then Mas Ilyas tightened his embrace on my body.

Really, this is the thing I love about Mas ilyas.His warm embrace always makes me comfortable, but will this hug still be the most comfortable thing for him after there is another woman in this household?again my mind asks.

I could only close my eyes to suppress the pain, when I realized the harsh reality that I had to sincerely share my husband with another woman.

Fan it makes my heart more like in the iris sebilu.I realize, if all that happens is the will of the creator, but as an ordinary human, if all that happens is the will of the creator, but as a human being,I also feel that at this time I still can not accept if in my husband's life there is another woman.

Then, what should I do?repeatedly I kowtowed, asking him to be given to ikhlasan.But still, still too heavy.Thus when my son returned to spend his vacation he also knew if at this time his father had married again.

Broke my tears in front of her, all this time I might be able to hide my sadness in front of my husband and in-laws.

But for some reason, I can't hide anything from my son.This 10-year-old son has become my son, a child who has always been sensitive to his Umma.

"cry until Ummi is satisfied, after that let go of everything.Bismillah, Ilham believes that Umma is a strong woman who can pass this test.Honestly, Ilham was also disappointed in Abi.However, all this happened also because of his will, at least, at least,Abi did not fully betray Umma.Remember, Umma still has God who will always protect and keep Umma.Presse himself to him, so that Umma is much calmer and more sincere."

The words of the 17-year-old boy made me aware, if all this had been his will.

And only then shall we surrender.If this is his will, I am sure there is wisdom behind it that I have not found at this time.

May my decision to accept and try to make peace with this test of life bring blessing and chest spaciousness to myself and to my family.

Although not completely sincere, but I will continue to try to make this heart accept all of this with a spacious chest.

May Allah help me in reaching for the meaning of the word sincerity itself, Aamiin.

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