I AM NO LONGER THE ONLY ONE
Part 5 (My engagement left me)

At that time after Wira returned to the place of service, as usual Wira pampered me, Every day Wira gave news through Vcall, But every thing that Wira did there I find it difficult to believe it again...

Am I wrong if I don't trust the hero back??

Since the past incident my overpritective attitude has become more and more, I have increasingly curbed and denied Wira (Wira remains patient), At that time Wira said goodbye to me to gather with Let***gnya (I allow it but on condition that he must Vcall with me after arriving at the location) and true Wira obeyed my will, I invited Wira Vcall just to make sure the Wira right2 with Let***g, his, I ask the Hero every thing he does outside the house must say goodbye to me (not what 2 means, I just want Wira to keep her promise) Wira to do that a few months very sincerely and sincerely without any rebuttal...

But in May 2020 Wira began to charge me and rarely say goodbye wherever he went (what really is) ....

I know that maybe Wira is tired of my overprotective attitude like a child, but my attitude is like this because of her own actions (but still I am the one to blame) I don't know what else to do, God..

I once let the Hero be wild and finally he betrayed me, now I start to curb and slam his association and finally I stay betrayed, Do I have to leave him so he understands how it feels to lose?2?? (I thought it was dead-end)...

Long story short 2 months passed, Next month (August 2020) The 25th birthday girl and I will give a special moment for her (hopefully with this Wira can see me), 1 month before H day I began busy looking for a place to order (Nasi tumpeng) in the area where the service is, all the shops I have connected one/one however they all could not deliv (i began to despair and confusion) but at that time God gave me a way, and, yes my friend who was there told me and gave me no hp rice making shop tumpeng, I was so happy that I finally found a store that could be deliv to the place of service Wira (Whatever the important budget dapet deh) thought I was short at that time...

Okay the initial plan is finished, now just look for gifts for Wira, incidentally Wira is mengingkan one item (Jaket) and I find the item he wants, he said, fortunately I have a subscription store (jacket) jdi delicious stay whatshapp trus send hehe..

Again and again God gives the test for my relationship, 2 Weeks before Day H Wira ulangathun no wind no rain attitude of Wira changed Drastissss (Wira so rude) I was actually 2 destroyed when it saw the attitude of the Hero towards me that was outrageous, Wira never again Vcall every night as usual, Wira only occasionally contact me with goodbye he wants to sleep, ok after I say yes (although I suspect Wira not right2 sleep), I do not, coincidentally that night I actually2 kangen same Wira finally I tried to Vcall Wira but what happened (Wira called another) yes god nyesek bnget but I can still think positive at that time (maybe Wira was calling the theme), I kept trying to call until 01.00 Wib I was still trying to call but Wira was still called another (that's where I think the hero must call another woman), and I thought that, that night I was tired of finally falling asleep and the next day Wira still did not contact me (usually if there is a missed call the hero immediately reported) but this time did not hmmm...

That morning I did not ask any questions last night (i want the Hero who told it himself) but until the night returned Wira did not tell me anything (i am still silent) until finally the Hero said goodbye to sleep hurry with the reason tomorrow morning to go to the office (okay again I allow it), after a few minutes of saying goodbye I tried to nelp back using whatshapp darrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (Wira called again) I was destroyed bnget every night another call while I was rarely called again, but after that Wira called me back and said that he hbis call his friend (i also believe) because the other call was just a moment and the hero immediately called me back, I gladly told Wira to go back to sleep...

But at around 23:20 pm I am talking about nelp again (whatshapp) and allhamdulilah is not called another (i am very fond of), tpi is not limited to that, only, I also called Wira melui normal telp but it turns out (call waiting), god there I was destroyed umpteenth time, I was destroyed, the hero not only lied to me but the hero also fooled me (call other women with regular no) I called him many times until 01.30 Wib call is still waiting, he said, short story the next day I asked and urged Wira to menscreentshot/photograph the last call with whom (but Wira even a lot of reasons and berated me) there I was more and more devastated and sick, Wira continued to blame me until finally Wira changed her pp Whatshap Photo with her own Photos (previously Wira used a photo with me), Wira also deleted my name in her Whatshapp status, which is also my name, I'm more and more convinced Wira has another woman, because before the hero never got like this...

I tried asking baik2 to Wira...

D: "Syg I'm sorry if you've been accused 2, I want pp and status restored as before" (my call slowly opened the heart of the Hero)

W: "I'm sorry I can't, I don't want to tpi I often dpet reprimand from my senior because2 I put your pp and status use your name" (answer hero briefly)

D: "Oh that's it, how strange is it why the country is not from kmren2?" (Jawabku with plain pura2)

W: "Yes I gatau" (Jawab Wira ketus)

D: "Judah deh, tpi just now I saw have the A kok pp her still sma her boyfriend, she said can not?" (Because Wira and A one place of service)

W: "It doesn't understand me, but we're ready or we're married 2 I put again" (answer again)

D: "Yes syg, Ooh yes last night nelp who yank?"

W: "Nelp combined with my friends"

D: "Kok gk talk hehe usually say klw want to nelp anyone"(my answer is a little fishing Wira)

W: "Intentionally do not say tkut km angry, because I Vc same temen2 my High School and there are 2 people, you have been sensitive klw I Vc temen cwekku" (answered by Wira)

W: "I deleted everything, only your call is there" (Wira sent ss a call that I only had)

D: "Well, the tumben is immediately removed anyway yank"

W: "Yes because I don't want you to misunderstand" (Wira is still flirting)

Since then Wira has been a stranger to me, Wira also deactivated (last seen) and I am still patient because I do not want the moment that I have prepared for 2 days is destroyed because I want to know about Wira...

I try to strengthen my heart, I hold my emotions, I survive alone until the birthday of H Wira (I hope this surprise can make Wira remember me)... but the more days Wira increasingly shows that Wira has another woman (but I still pura2 stupid)...

The birthday of Wira is approaching, 5 days before the day H is our anniversary, but that night is not a special day for me but a day of destruction for me, yes unfortunately I did ask Wira memVcal me until late at night (because I want to say anniversary right at 24:00 Wib) but Wira scolded me all out on the grounds that I was disturbing his break time (i just silent) until finally Wira said I am a woman who does not know myself, that night I really did not hold my heartache for several days, today, I took all the strings until all the questions I had been hiding all this time to Wira, but Wira even more yelled at me, Wira more and more blamed me, This is not my Wir!! (I thought at the time) ', All this time the Hero never treated me this bad, even Every misunderstanding the Hero always apologizes but this time the true Hero2 does not care about me, I do not care, That night with my broken heart I told Wira...

D: "Sorry tonight has made you angry, I just want to say Happy Anniv yes mas, hopefully our relationship is good2, I love you, I love you, a thousand x you hurt me a thousand x I will forgive you mas, I do not know what my fault is until such time as this with me, honestly I am not strong with our relationship like this" (so I cried)...

W: "you mean not strong? Want hubs?" (Jawab ketus Wira)...

D: "No, I'm just tired of being alone, but changing"

W: "I haven't changed, but your mind has always been ugly to me" (Short answer Hero)

I deliberately did not reply to the message of Wira, the more I reply the longer the problem, until finally I stayed Wira sleep but in the middle of the night I woke up and opened the message from Wira...

W: "I'm sorry, some days I've been hanging out with a girl"...

D: "I already know but I'm silent, I'm afraid you're getting angry with me" (so god)

W: "Right now you have only my body but my heart, so you are always hurt by me"

D: "Gapp mas I'm happy about this, the important thing is that you're happy"

W: "The pain is there, mending to lose time rather than lose the person" (from here I know what the hero means) Yes Wira wants our relationship to end here, but I always keep the Hero..

D: "I'm usually hurt jdi gapp mas" (i replied cello but crying)

Since then my relationship was destroyed, Wira no longer maintained our relationship, While I was tired of fighting alone, I really2 could not afford to have to see my fiancee with another woman, since then I started to make decisions about my relationship with Wira..

D: "Over the last few weeks I have fought you desperately, I am the one who was hurt I am also the one who apologized, I who betrayed me also defend, I also defend, but for today I'm tired of all the drama you've made, I should have known from the beginning that you were never serious with me, I should have never given you a second chance at the beginning, I should not have known you from the beginning, I do not regret our meeting, instead I am grateful from you I learned how it feels to love sincerely, how does it feel to maintain loyalty and how does it feel to be hurt (so that later I will not hurt my partner), thank you for wanting to be a part of my life for 3 years, thank you for giving me happiness, and thank you for all your blessings, from this moment I sincerely you with your chosen woman, take care of her well2, do not hurt her like me, because I'm sure she is not as strong as I am, hopefully your choice is better than me, oh yes if later want to post a photo of both km and your woman please yes hidden from me, I can not be because hehe, until whenever I need to love you, you, although our relationship ended up here please do not let our parents know yes, justin our parents know we are good 2 only, nnti if it is time we explain good2 to them" (Writing this message really2 needs a strong heart)

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