FEAR ONESELF
REPUDIATION

Nesya was still silent.Tak also went down even though the car was parked in front of his house.Not reluctant or heavy to leave Syailendra who was sitting behind the wheel but indeed he did not realize it had reached home.His mind wandered far away, think about how he lived his life all this time.Everything feels empty, all feels useless.For what he lived his life all this time.For whom he banged bones looking for money.Nobody enjoys, no one needs it.

Syailendra shows in real terms that he is unwanted.That he is useless to live in this world.The rejection is painful."Oh...Dad, you take me with you.I'm tired of living alone, I'm tired of living this meaningless life.I'm just a dusty grain to them.Unsensible."

*FLASHBACK A FEW HOURS AGO

"Son, can't you ask for something?"ask Mama Syailendra at dinner together.

"Soliciting especially Ma?Didn't I fill it?"answer Syailendra lazily.

"You don't ask for money."

Syailendra frowned not understanding."Continues to?"

Mama Syailendra looks nervous.She bites her lower lip while still thinking.

"What Ma?"syailendra asked curiously.He put away the plate in front of him and focused his attention entirely on Mama.

"E...ka...you want not pu..nya a...sister?"ask Mom to be nervous.

"I mean Mama?"Syailendra increasingly did not understand where the direction of his mother's request.

"Ma..ma want e...can you?"

"What the hell is that talking about?"Syailendra ruffled her hair in frustration.

"Mama wants to adopt a child,"grandmother timidly.

"O..."

Mama Syailendra gawked at her son's short answer."Just O?"

"What does she want?"ask Syailendra cuek.

"Well, what cake?"Mama looks pissed.

Syailendra smiled faintly."Aye." Yeah."

"How's he?"

"Yes, I can adopt a child."

"Seriously?"Mama still can't believe it would be that easy to persuade Syailendra.

"Seriously."

"Really?"

"My mom's really, baby."

"H Mama!"syailendra protests while rubbing Mama's former kiss.

"Hehe.sorry darling."Mama chuckles amusedly.

Sailendra glanced at Nesya.His face was immediately red withstanding the embarrassment of having just realized that Nesya was still around.

"Hehe...Cute boss deh."goda Nesya increasingly make Syailendra lose his face.

"Shut up!"boss's jolt covered his embarrassment.

"What a pity.Don't be fierce ah be a sister."Mama advises.

"Sister?"Syailendra and Nesya were confused.

"Yes brother.Syailendra brother and Nesya sister."Mama's eyes sparkled saying the word.It was clear she was so happy.

"Mama ngaco deh."

"Who is the ngaco?Mama won Nesya's adoption."

"WHAT!?"shouts Syailendra and Nesya at the same time.

"You guys would love to be brothers.You can go out together, work together, vacation together,se...."

"WHY!"cut Syailendra fast."I don't want Mama to adopt Nesya" Syailendra said without glancing at Nesya.

"Lho why?"mama Syailendra asked in shock."Didn't you just say Mama can adopt a child?"

"Yes, but not Nesya nor Ma."

"Why?Mama loves him, he also loves Mama.She lives alone also continues where are you worried about?"

"He's my secretary" said Sailendra.

"Continue what's the problem if Nesya is your secretary?He is also a professional at work."protest Mama.

"That's not the problem, Ma."Syailendra rubbed his face in frustration.Bingung had to explain what to Mama.

"What's the problem?"mama Syailendra asked.

Syailendra got up from the chair."Anyway I don't agree that Mama adopted Nesya.TITIK."

Syailendra left the dining table just like that.Tak realize Nesya who had been lowered down to hold back the cry.The rejection was painful for him.Once again he felt useless in this world.

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