Ustad Or Alkash?
What are Your Rights?

Love is a struggle, and

Love is sacrifice.

Fuck it!!!!

Pain when having to withstand a whack auction. The wound that just got carved. I don't know when it will end. Right now, making peace with yourself has not even occurred to me.

God, don't listen to my whining. Isn't it like you always have been?

I'm sorry God. Please do not carry my heart with me these words. I'm just not feeling all right.

Andin put back the crumpled piece of paper he found under the C12 room table. He was cleaning room C12.

Meta's really hurt. He had never liked someone this deep. Ah, I and you should never have been in such a clumsy position like this. It's all my fault. Purely my.

Andin was sitting limp on the floor. He laid off his job cleaning room C12. Instantly the shadow of some shadows regarding Meta's talk to him rattled. The shadow where Meta suddenly came to Andin with the goal of something important, something to be said, something you should know. So said Meta in starting his conversation. No matter what and no matter what happens, Andin always tries mediocre in the presence of Meta. Telling back and forth, indulging in the disgrace of someone, seems not a habit of Andin. He was in that shadow.

"I want to apologize to you Ndin."

"It's Meta, I'm guilty."

They both remained silent for a moment. I don't know what they think in their minds. And also of course because it was not familiar for some time that jacked up the clumsiness between the two of them.

"Do you really love Ustad Zidan, Ndin?"

Andin does not answer questions from Meta. He was afraid the answer would be wrong.

"Andin, please just answer my question."

"Ehm Met's...Ustad Zidan too..."

"Yes Andin, I know that. I know he loves you so much."

"La-lu?"

"I just want to be sure and want to hear from you. Have you really established a heart just for him, Ndin?"

Andin increasingly does not understand the direction of Meta talks.

"Why did you suddenly ask me that?"

"Andin..answer what is difficult?"

"Yes, of course I love Ustad Zidan so much, and vice versa. Of course, that's what he said himself. And you were asking about strengthening the heart? I am in a relationship with someone who is an adult, not with children. Of course, it's for my heart's business and he'll never play games."

"Andin..."

"I'm sorry Met, I didn't mean to hurt your heart."

"No Ndin. Not at all,"

Baffled. A word to describe for you this time. At first he thought Meta still wanted Zidan Haq. Therefore, he said things in front of Meta earlier with as simple as that. Apparently Meta looks mediocre. But Meta is a typical girl who does not easily forget someone. Surely he still loves Ustad Zidan right? It's just that he's better at hiding his feelings than Andin. That is what is currently still turbulent in the minds of Andin. Of course Andin will not easily believe in Meta after what happened between them.

"Andin, please trust me just this time." (said Meta)

"What am I supposed to believe, Met?" (andin replied not very interested)

"Don't you continue your relationship with Ustad Zidan..."

Angrier. I feel like getting angry. Apparently that's the main purpose Meta approached him. He even made small talk by apologizing first. Andin was grieving in his heart. He cursed because he had said that the wrong thing is not Meta, but himself.

"You're jealous?"

Although his blood was boiling, he was still trying to calm himself. He does not want his angry ego to cause havoc on himself. Playing pretty. Yeah, he'll do just that.

"Why am I jealous?" (the word Meta slightly raised his tone)

"Why are you jealous? Don't you adore her so much?" (andin replied with a grin)

Meta sighed and closed his eyes.

"Yes Andin. I admit I used to adore her,"

"But believe me, it was before. Now I don't adore her anymore."

Andin nodded his head. Trust the word Meta? Of course not.

"Then what's your reason for banning me from contact with Ustad Zidan?"

"Andin..." (Meta hangs up the sentence)

"Andin, i..."

"You don't need to know why I'm Ndin."

"What right do you have?"

Andin was grimacing hard. Again he was just grieving in his heart. He wanted to get his stomach out.

"Why should I obey your words?"

"It's for your own good, Ndin."

"What kind of good is it?"

"Mak Zulfia said that Ustad Zidan is not good for you Ndin. There's something you don't know about him..."

Is there something I don't know? Nope, no. You can't believe anyone else's bullshit, Ndin.

"Andin?"

"Andin..."

"Nnnnn... Why are you sitting on the floor like that."

Someone who had appeared in the shadows, suddenly became real. Yes, Meta approached Andin who was sitting on the floor. Andin returned to the real world. Only, he met the same person as in his shadow world earlier.

"Andin...?"

"Ah yes." (answered Andin and stood up immediately)

Suddenly Meta saw a scrap of obsolete paper that he recognized. He took it and confirmed whether the paper was his or not.

"Ah Ndin, this is a paper that has been around for a long time. Please don't take it to heart." (said Meta a little clumsy)

"Didn't I throw this paper away? Why is it suddenly here." (meta lyrics)

Even though Meta said softly, of course Andin can still hear well. Only, Meta did not realize that he was swearing in front of Andin.

Hmh! You don't have to try to be my best friend anymore Met. And as for myself, please this time you must act decisively and play an antagonist in front of him! Please don't feel bad like this.

"What did you say Met was?" (search Andin)

"I? I didn't say anything Ndin."

"Ah yes, all right."

"Andin...?"

"Yes..."

"You've considered what I've talked about, haven't you?"

"What are you talking about?"

"Regarding Ustad Zidan. You're not going to continue your relationship, are you?"

"I will obey the wishes of my parents. And if the two of them had betrothed me to Ustad Zidan, they would have been trying to do what was best for me."

"Andin, you don't know..."

"You think you know more than I do, Met? Remember, I've known him for a long time and even been very close."

"It's not like that I mean Ndin..."

"You're jealous of me, right?"

"I told you not to, Andin,"

"Somehow I feel Ustad Zidan doesn't deserve to be with you Ndin..."

"Yes, because the one who deserves to be with him is just you, right?! That's how you mean?"

"You misunderstood Ndin. All this that says is Zulfia's mother. And don't you believe her?"

"What should I believe in him?"

"Gosh Andin. I told you that it was Zulfia Ma'am who said that Ustad Zidan was the one who wasn't right for you."

"You two are the same."

You want to leave Meta. He was tired of having to argue with her. There will be no end. There will be no bright spot on the best path. Talking to him is a waste. How thought.

"Andin.I just want you not to be wrong in choosing."

Meta said while blocking Andin's arm. Andin breathed his breath. He really could not stand Meta's attitude to him. This time he crossed the line.

"Papah Arga and Mamah Kumala were both my parents. And they won't mislead me. Catch that!"

Andin takes off the rough grip Meta. Then he left Meta. Leave him in room C12 alone.

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