The Satisfied Girl Mr. Bima
Perplexities

"Drew you" I said, staring at Andre's face.

"Sorry Mel, but I really love you." Andre was going to hug me. But this time I tried to avoid it not because I did not love him. But, I already consider Andre as my friend nothing more.

"Sorry Drew, I can't. I'm more comfortable we're friends, I'm sorry Drew." Refuse me subtly.

"But, Mel!" Refuse Andre while holding my hand.

"I hope you understand Drew, that love can't be forced. I understand how you feel, but I'm more comfortable being a friend." I mumbled back to calm Andre down.

"But, Mel. I really love you, give me one more chance. I promise I'll make you happy?"

"I can't be sorry Drew," I replied by letting go of his handrails.

"alright. I will wait for you until you love me again" said Andre. I actually can't bear to see it that way. But, I also cannot force my heart to accept it back. "Yes, let's go" I went with Andre to the restaurant Andre had recommended. Along the way the two of us just sat quietly without any conversation with each other. I don't know why I feel so awkward at this moment.

*****

This afternoon I went back to the hospital to accompany my mother. But, somehow my feelings are a little restless. I was afraid that my father would come and give the video to my mother, and I was still confused as to what answer I chose.

"Son, you're okay, right?" Ask my mother.

"I'm fine ma'am, what's wrong!" Ask me back.

"It's okay. It's just that from earlier I noticed you look agitated son, did something happen!" Actually I don't want to cover up any problems from mom. But this time I was really confused about what to do.

"Everything's fine, ma'am, maybe I'm just a little tired so subconsciously I'm nervous" I don't know what I'm saying. I don't even understand the answer I'm saying.

"If you're tired, you better go home, son. I'm fine after all here are many sisters who take care of me" mother told me. And get rejection from me.

"No ma'am, I want to stay here with mom. I don't want you to know why when I'm not around" I said to embrace my mother's body.

"You're a big boy still, like a kid." Reply to my mother while rubbing my hair.

"Mother if I get married, will you come with me?" I suddenly asked my mother.

"No son, I will stay in our old house. Because even if you get an established husband, but mother becomes a bully of your household." Answer mom with senyuma.

"Why mom! Are you not my husband's future father-in-law?" Asking back.

"Because not everyone is happy living with their parents, if they are married later," I was silent for a while, before I asked anything else.

"Mom ma'am, if I accept father's offer how?" I ask carefully.

"Which offer is Mel?" Ask my mom with a frown.

"Just this morning my father came here to offer me marriage to my mother's son's friend" I said carefully.

"No. I won't allow it" my mother flatly refused.

"Why mom! Is there something you're hiding?" I asked with curiosity.

"Mom?" I came back when I saw my mother was silent. "Is it true that you're hiding something from me?" I grew curious when I saw my mother fall silent by turning her face away.

"I'm sorry if I've asked you like that, ma'am, I don't mean to" before I finish. But my mother cut it first.

"Leave my own mother Mel, I want to rest!" Sosor my mother without seeing my face.

"But, mom?" I bid with a soft.

"Go Mel," kicked my mother out once more.

"All right, ma'am, have a good rest, ma'am!" Finally with a heavy heart I left my mother alone. I don't know why I'm getting so sure my mom's hiding something from me.

"Does this have anything to do with me?" Inner asked.

"Then what, if I refuse father's wishes. I'm afraid you're going to show me that video" I muttered as I bit my finger. "What should I do?" I was getting more nervous as I watched the time go on. While I still can't make a choice for my answer to father.

"Argh, why is everything like this? I think with me selling my body, all the problems will be resolved quickly. It turns out I was wrong, the problem even more runyam," decak me while pulling my own hair.

While on the other hand, Bima again contacted Andre. And ask me to serve him again.

"Good, boss. I'll be bidding Melly for you soon!" Reply Andre behind the phone.

"Nonsense, why must Melly? Why not someone else," decak Andre while hitting the wall.

"Why do I feel so unwilling, do I really love her anymore?" Andre muttered before calling me.

Tut's..

Tut's..

The phone connection started connecting, it was a sign I was home.

"Hello?" Answer me behind the phone in a lazy tone.

"Good night Mel, am I bothering you?" Ask Andre to me.

"No. What's the matter with me, Drew?" I was a little lazy.

"I just want to convey, if lord Bima wants to play with you again!" Show Andre behind the phone. I don't know why I was so lazy, but I was in need of a lot of funds for my mother's second operation.

"Sorry Drew, I don't think I can. I'm so tired and again, I have to keep my mom in the hospital," I refused quickly.

"But, lord Bima is willing to pay you dearly!" Pinta Andre one more time.

"Sorry Drew, I really need that money. But, right now my body is very tired," I refuse the umpteenth time.

"alright. You got enough rest, yeah, I don't want you to get Mel sick,"

"Yes Drew, please apologize to Mr. Bima ya Drew!" My message to Andre before I close my phone.

"I don't know why my body feels so tired today. Not only was my body tired, my mind felt extremely drained. A lot of problems came today, plus my mother was angry with me. I don't know what made him so angry at me, when I just asked him about that guy?" I thought as I looked at the ceiling of the many rooms over, the cobwebs.

"If only yesterday's money that I got from selling myself, not at my mother's expense in the hospital. I must have moved into a house a little more worthy than this, "my mind drifted somewhere, all thoughts swirling into one. Not long after that, I fell asleep and was carried away to dreamland.