The one I hate is my soul mate
THIS PAIN

After her meeting with Laura was over, Indri decided to send her driver home first. Today he was eager to calm himself, especially to calm his heart. A lot of things he was thinking about right now, but what was more of a burden on his mind was about Michel. For some reason now the name was very disturbing his mind,

Indri decides to go see her old residence before she becomes Alex's wife, feeling that only that place can change her heart and mind to calm down again.

Despite being married and living in Alex's house, Indri decided to keep renting this room. Indri thinks that one day he will again occupy this room, well. someday when his marriage contract and Alex will end, then he will again occupy this room.

Indri looked around his room, he sat on his bed and leaned against the wall. There were so many thoughts filling his brain right now.

Who is this woman named Michel?

Is she the woman Alex loves?

Is my decision to accept Alex's offer correct?

Lots of questions in his mind at this time, Indri began to feel regret about his decision to accept Alex's offer. He felt guilty for separating Alex from the woman he loved so much, considering the circumstances of Alex who continued to call Michel's name that night broke his heart. Indri feels that she is an evil woman who has seized the property of others just for her own benefit and even more painful is the reality she is currently feeling. The fact that he began to have feelings of love and love for Alex is a man that he had always been very idolatrous, although in fact he was not sure one hundred percent whether it was just a taste of like, but rather, a sense of awe or really he has fallen in love with the man now.

Indri took a deep breath and tried not to cry at this moment, he did not want to be a weak woman at this time. He tried to remind himself that the marriage he is living today is only temporary and one day all will return to its original position again.

Alex will be back with Michel the woman he loves and she will be back as the old Indri, an ordinary woman. Only one circumstance changed from his life that the burden he was carrying had disappeared, all that burden had been lifted by Alex at this time.

*****

Indri came out of a taxi that was stopping at the gate of Alex's house, which was, he deliberately went down outside so that he could walk to the house while looking for reasons that he would tell Alex later if Alex asked why he came home at this hour.

Today Indri came home a little late and he knew that this would be a problem for him, he hoped Alex had not come home so he was not scolded later. He looked once again at the clock on his HP.

"****** it's 8pm"

Indri pressed the bell button on the gate wall of the house, he accidentally pushed the bell button that was in the bottom position because it would be connected to where the house servants were.

"Yes." a woman's voice sounded.

Indri took his breath and tried to speak as calmly as possible

"this is me, please open the gate"

"thank you"

not long after the gate was opened automatically, Indri stepped foot with half a run towards the big house which was located a little far in front of him.

"fuck, why is the gate far from home anyway...? why the hell does this family have to make a house with a yard like this?"

indri's mouth panted with a breath that ran a little, he was afraid that Alex would scold him if he knew he was coming home at this hour.

By the time he was getting close to home, Indri saw a car parked not too far from the house. He stopped his steps while hiding behind a tree that happened to be on his left side, and let out a little bit of his head to find out who was in the car.

As he began to adjust his eyes to the light around the car, Indri immediately stood glued, his heart pounding, he could not believe what his eyes were witnessing at this time. He saw a woman at the helm chatting with a man he knew very well. They hugged and kissed passionately, as if this world was filled only by the two of them.

Indri held his chest, for some reason at this time he felt his chest was very painful, he tried not to believe what he just saw. But still, it is, the reality she was facing right now was to witness with her own eyes that the man who was currently her husband was kissing passionately with a woman in the car.

Unknowingly tears began to flow out of his two eyes, he decided not to watch the show in front of him again at this time. He steps away from the place, trying to find another way to bring himself into Alex's house.

Don't cry Indri, you have no right to cry.

Remember, you're just a wife on paper for Alex at the moment Indri. You've only been Kenneth's mistress for a while, so you have no right to cry let alone feel hurt from being betrayed.

Remember indri, remember your true position...

Indri asaha realized himself, he was trying to strengthen himself at this moment. Indri stepped up his legs while wiping away his tears that would not stop flowing, he accelerated his steps to get to his room before Alex.

*****

Arriving in Indri's room immediately headed to the bathroom and changed his clothes with a nightgown, he washed his face, brushed his teeth and immediately rushed up to bed. He doesn't want to see Alex tonight, so he decides to pretend he's fast asleep.

30 Minutes later the door of his room opened and footsteps drew closer to him, Indri tried to close his eyes as normal as possible as he was asleep. The footsteps moved away from him and he was convinced that Alex would soon be heading to the bathroom to take a shower and change her clothes, as usual the man did every night after work.

Indri took a deep breath without opening his eyes, trying to calm his heart and mind. He hoped that this night would pass quickly, so that he could get out of this pretense.