
I know in this world it is not eternal, but why is my sadness prolonged? When to change with happiness?
inner Zahra
Matrimony things have been arranged by God, but Zahra is still sometimes upset why she is easily baper and crybaby can not be as strong as the girl in the novel when faced with it.
It feels like the more here the ordeal gets heavier.
Today Zahra accidentally met Ummi Aisyah at the mosque after she finished Asar prayers, Ummi who saw the situation that was not good visible from her eyes that were reckless probably because of crying too long.
"Why you ra?"
Ask Ummi worried
Zahra smiled "It's okay Ummi"
zahra replied lying
"It's okay but your eyes are careless, papa if you don't want a story"
In the end, Zahra's tears fell back in front of Umm Aisyah.
"Ummi, can I confide in Ummi?"
Zahra asked as she wiped the tears on both of her cheeks.
"If it could make Zahra better than anything, please, Ummi would be a good listener".
Zahra also told Ummi about his life, about his current calamity.
"Zahra, rest assured that everyone has their own measure of life, the matter of soul mate, life and death everyone has their own rations like you now, maybe this is already the measure of Zahra's life, Zahra,patiently our duty is only to strive and pray, the result is the right of God, ask for the best of God, make what happens to you now as a learning to be more patient, so that more patient, Ummi is sure later if it is time to any extent, if a matchmaker will definitely be found, Ummi is proud of you, who are in this position but you do not waver with the temptation of courtship, Ummi is proud of you, who are in this position but you do not waver with the temptation of courtship, istiqomah in the way of Allah, Ra"
Ummi holding Zahra's hand gave Zahra strength, while Zahra continued to cry.
"Yes Ummi, maybe Zahra is less patient, thanks Ummi has reminded me"
"The umbrella can never and will never stop the rain, but with the umbrella we can stand in the rain without wetness,
Likewise with patience, patience does not necessarily promise victory, but with patience we are given the strength to face all trials"
After meeting with Ummi and hearing the advice of Ummi, now Zahra feels better, maybe all this time he is less patient, and too easy baper.
He has given everything to Allah, let it all go according to Allah's decree, better prepare knowledge for provision in the Hereafter, and provision to be a wife of righteousness, because he believes that women are good only for good men and vice versa.
The house was quiet after Nisa's tea and her bangs went home, no one asked Zahra to sleep again.
Zahra laid herself on the bed and looked up at the sky of her room, recollecting Ummi's advice, after half an hour in such a position, Zahra took ablution water and did not forget to open the Quran and read the letter of Al Mulk.
It has become a habit of Zahra before going to bed he always takes care of Wudhu and teaches.
The law of ablution before going to sleep is sunnah, which means if it is carried out it gets a reward, and if it is not carried out it will not sin.
"Whoever sleeps at night in a state of holiness (worship) then the Angel will follow, then when he wakes up the Angel will say, "O Allah forgive your servant the fulan, for he sleeps at night in a state always holy", (HR. Ibn Hibban & Mother of Umar r.a.)."
In addition to ablution, reading the letter Al Mulk is a sunnah rosul SAW, in some hadiths also explain the priority of reading the letter Al Mulk is to be a savior of the grave and a defender for the reader to go to heaven.