Passed Together
#17

The long-awaited day has finally arrived (today). Rinto's Birthday. Nadin and I are going to the show. Last night, I was sleeping in my room.

"Home.wake.hey.."Nadin woke me up. I'm always mad if someone wakes me up but since it's a beautiful Nadin, how could I be angry?..

"What are we going to make for Rinto?"Nadin asked as I sat down.

"i haven't thought of Din either." I replied Nadin."You have no idea?"

"not really.what is it?"Nadin asked as well.

"We go to the market?go for a walk who knows there is inspiration." I take him.

"hemm Come..now?"

"we'll wait for you first.later he goes with you.."

"oh.gitu yah.aku nanya to mother first.. father where well?"nadin said it was like pretending to bego.

"i'm getting ready, I'm also going to change.."

"don't want to ah. Here just want to see you change clothes.."

"ohh.that's okay"

I took off my shirt with a smile to look at Nadin.

"hey..!! How are you taking off her shirt?"Nadin screamed and ran towards the door.

"hahaha.kan want to change.."I laughed to see it.

"wait for me to come out first.."

"You want to see.."

"i'm not.."

Nadin ran out of my room. I saw her cheeks blush. Nadin and I are so close..Indeed, we have not officially, tied ourselves to dating status. No one has stated that yet.

But for me, saying love and then dating, doesn't matter anymore. The important thing is, Nadin and I are comfortable being around each other.

I think we really need each other, and will definitely miss to meet, if indeed we have to separate. But hopefully that doesn't happen.

A few days ago, I came home in the middle of the night. When I got into the house, I got Nadin asleep in the living room. When I woke up, he hugged me. And asked, why did I come home that late?.

I think it's way above the level of people dating. Why wait in a chair until you fall asleep? Of all the movies I've seen, it was done only by my wife to my husband, and vice versa. Or, a parent to his child, and vice versa as well.

I was watching a friend who did that too.but it was a comedy movie.and I think it was just to add to the funny value of the movie. Or did someone experience it directly? I guess not. Already.don't argue.

We continue. Nadin and I went to the market. We went around and found nothing to look for. We don't even know what we're looking for. The day started late afternoon.

"Eat a yuk?"I'm taking Nadin.

"uh uh? Didn't you get anything yet? Why would you eat?"

"a full stomach, makes the mind calmer." I replied Nadin with a smile.

"oh that's it.ok.we eat first.."

We went into one of the food stalls, and ordered meatballs there. Nadin really enjoyed his food.Prepiration poured in some parts of his beautiful face. Plus the lips are reddened by the sambal pedis on the stall table. Ah..Real pretty.

Seeing the beautiful scenery in front of me, I stopped eating and just looked at Nadin while stirring the meatballs in front of me.

Realizing I noticed, Nadin slowed his eating. He blushed in shame and took a tissue on the table, then wiped the sweat off his cheek.

"Do not eat?" Nadin asked.

"eat the coke." I answered recklessly scooping the meatball sauce on my bowl, then directed it to the mouth.

"Well-wild did I eat?" Nadin asked again, while continuing to eat the meat but slower than before."I ate it greedy yeah.."

"No, you are not greedy." I replied Nadin. "Mas.. She greedy didn't eat it?"I asked who had a shop. Who passed near us. Carry dirty dishes from customer's desk.

"hahaha.ngakun know.kan mas who saw it face to face." said the owner of the shop. Then he left.

"Hey.what the hell..Shame to know.ih.."Nadin stopped eating and put his bowl to the side.

"haha..Want to add?"i'm asking Him.

"no. it's full."Answer Nadin.

"huh.hot yeah.."Nadin fan-fan and continue to wipe the sweat on his face.

I looked at Nadin long ago..She is really Beautiful.Do I deserve to have such a beautiful Girl? Will she be my girlfriend? 'I don't know it yet'

"hey!.ngapain daydreaming?"Nadin surprised me who was still looking at him.

"Dina..You're Beautiful..I Like."the words slid from my mouth with a sigh but pass on the target that is He who sits in front of me.

"Huh..?Ran.wait.heemm.."Nadin was panicking. He took water and drank it."You said What was that?" he asked me to repeat what I said.

Nadin looked around. He didn't see anyone, we were both customers at the stall. Then he looked at me, and smiled.

"Randa.we're not high school anymore..I already knew that, From the first moment we met at the Stop" Nadin said slowly. I'm still quiet because I haven't got the answer I want."You likey? Same Me? Don't you?"

"Yes Din.."

"But you love isn't the same as me?"

"Love Din.."

"I will not reject Your Love Ran.that's your right.Thank you.but, do I deserve that Love?"

"why is that Din?"

"Home..I know you're sincere, so I don't want to hurt you. I'm sorry I don't want our relationship to be more than this. I've been very comfortable Ran. be your sister.please don't break it.."

then Nadin stood up, bowed to my direction and kissed my cheek.

"home yuk?"he said with a smile. But I saw his eyes glazed over. I know the answer shouldn't be like that.

After coming out of the stall, Nadin went back inside he said he wanted to go to the toilet. It was a long time ago, and then he came back. I know she must be crying. Her puffy eyes could not cover her fake smile.

After touring again, we finally bought shoes for Kadonya Rinto. Then we went home.

On the way, no words came out. I was driving, and Nadin was sitting behind me. She hugged me, her cheek on my shoulder, but she rejected me earlier. Ahh..what is this?.

I went into the room, and sat down on the edge of my bed. I held my head with both hands. I'm still not satisfied with Nadin's answer. Ahh.I also just remembered, I once watched a movie, Brother who waited for his brother to fall asleep in the living room.

But is my relationship with Nadin the same as that?. If yes, then Means all this time, I've fantasized too high, assuming we've been more than that.

Then, why did Nadin question earlier? Is the possible answer I heard, not the same as Nadin's heart? Or maybe Nadin was crying out for Pity to see me this stupid one?.

I think, the first real possibility happened. Maybe there's a reason for Nadin to reject me today. Hemm..Nadin I Love You. And will try to get your love too.

After saying goodbye to my Mom and Dad, Nadin and I went to Rinto's birthday party.

Nadin and I have been mediocre and trying to forget the incident this afternoon. But it's hard.I'm acting like I'm fine.and forget, that Nadin has refused to be my lover, with the comfortable reason of being my sister.

There were no more jokes I was able to put out to make Nadin smile.

"all ready?"I asked Nadin when we were on the bike.

"it's the card, so I've wrapped it up."

"okay yuk?"

"luck.."

Then it was just that.we got on the bike, then went to Rinto's house. Ahhe..Randa..where are the crisp words but able to make nadin always smile? Or the annoying words that always make Nadin become upset. But then make him laugh after that?.

There aren't. I lost all my crazy ideas for that. I'm being stupid, and hopefully not forever.

Nadin who was behind me was also silent a thousand languages. No words came out of his mouth. If anything, I might get an idea to change the mood for more fun.

'kok even nyalain Nadin anyway?'maybe he feels what I feel now. I should have understood that.

Can Nadin see my attitude change? Can Nadin see my depression? Is Nadin uncomfortable near me?

That's the only question that fills my head right now. I felt like I wanted to turn back the clock, and not declare my love for the nadin. Maybe it won't be like it is now.

Or maybe even further, I want to turn the clock around until I never meet Nadin, and then fall in love with him.

Nadin was close behind me, holding me, with his cheek on my shoulder. Things that always make me comfortable. But for some reason, now it's the thing that's tormenting me the most tonight.

Well..Nadin was very close behind me, but it felt like he wasn't there. I feel like I'm riding my own bike, and Nadin's somewhere far away. Even further away from the sun that has sunk.

Finally, we reached Rinto's house. There are a lot of people inside. We haven't gone inside yet, but, I'm guessing because there are so many bikes in Rinto's courtyard.

Fortunately this event in the village far from urban.if in the city, it must have been dissolved because it will be the place of spread of Covid.

"Yuk yuk?"I'm taking Nadin.

"yes, the helmet.."

"Oh iyya.." I took the helmet, put it on the bike.

"the lizard?."

"This is me who brought it."

"oh yeah.nih"

I took the gift, then that was our only conversation. 'Ahh..I don't get excited about writing it' but, where else do you want? That's what happened.

I stepped inside, and Nadin came behind me. Hopefully, inside, I can see the joy and hope, that joy belongs to me so that I can feel it on the happy day of my best friend Rinto.

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