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Tede

Elzata was still sitting at home in Ega's chair, waiting for the campus lion who was busy eating lunch with the rector somewhere and how long. Actually his arrival this time wanted to talk about the problem of social service weekend. But because it was even a fuss about Ara's problems, the main purpose he met Ega was even missed.

"Ga, what time is it?", he decided to send WA chatt

Some time Elzata waited, there was no reply. Not wanting to die of style because of annoyance, finally opened every notification that entered on the phone that is still clasped in his hand.

Suddenly2 his eyes widened, looking at the one number that was there. His forehead was full of question marks.

And within seconds, he began to dive into what was written with an expression that was very difficult to decipher.

"Elzata you why?", Ara who saw Elzata's expression suddenly changed asked curiously.

"Ga papa ra, me first huh? If Ega comes back, tell me to send my WA back", Elzata replied while he went out.

Half-running, Elzata exited the BEM University secretariat towards the parking lot right in front of the building. He opened the car door, and he rushed inside.

A black cotton swab that marched with Elzata's car that afternoon. Unlike the usual clean white decorate the blue sky, cotton lumps that prefer the grayish black color of the sign will soon rain.

Perhaps that was also Elzata's current mood, for some reason after diving into a message he had just read.

Arriving at home, he immediately laid his body on the bed. Threw hp who was in his bag, read again a message from someone who made him restless.

There's Tede's name there. When the name is touched, soon a wedding photo will appear, followed by a message "you don't want to be with my wife? He was your schoolmate, wasn't he?"

Yep. It was a photo of Tede's marriage to Wulan, a classmate when Elzata was 3rd grade High School.

Tede is the ex-lover of Elzata, although he himself does not know when exactly the status of the girlfriend turned into an ex because until now both Tede and Elzata have never said goodbye. Even almost 4 years passed without them greeting each other or making small talk to just make sure who Tede is for Elzata and who Elzata is for Tede.

Elzata shouldn't be that sad. He should have been very prepared if something like this were to happen. Since graduating high school and starting to enter college, Elzata is indeed very much perceived to enter KAPN, a student organization that has been very cool since the reform era. And because of the binding rule that when you enter KAPN should not be dating, then Elzata has committed to not establish a relationship with anyone, including Tede.

Tede is a well-established man who has been in a relationship since Elzata sat in the 2nd grade of High School. In terms of age, their difference is quite far, 7 years adrift. So it is no wonder if he finally married, rather than waiting for an uncertain Elzata and maybe considering the increasing age as well.

But for whatever reason, seeing the wedding photo was Elzata's heart sliced in pain. The clear crystals immediately fell from the corner of his eye without being able to be dammed again. For hours he cried as he pleased while slapping his body on a pillow, shaking the whole room without anyone coming to lighten the load.

Yes, Elzata is very secretive about the problem of love to his family and friends. Mama, Papa and an older sister never knew Elzata's love story. All they know is that Elzata is a strong girl who doesn't need anyone else. Whatever problems he always keeps and solves on his own.

But somehow, this time he cried out what he was lamenting. Clearly, this time he had to think with his common sense.

"Why do I cry he sich", his grunts, a sign of annoyance to himself

"Not since I entered KAPN do I have to be ready for all this?", Elzata comforted himself.

Before long, he got up and shifted his body to lean on the end of the bed. He thought hp and soon he was busy playing his fingers.

"I have to say something to her, for the last one", her inner self in heart

No matter how long, even Elzat was late with sentence after sentence that he wrote himself in his cellphone.

*Tede,,,

Last time we met, we,

I felt that look piercing my heart

It is clear that sadness flows from the corner of your eye

If it's because of me, forgive me...

Four years passed without me saying a word

I'm just burdening you with that imperfect feeling I created

I know the sweet smile on your lips is actually bitter

I see that sadness on your face.

And if it's because of me, forgive me...

I have scratched the wound on your faithful because of my silence

I'm sorry, if that love isn't as beautiful as your expectations

I know, there's nothing wrong with our meeting

But life is a mystery

Even though you're not the first to stop by and bring flavor

But as far as my memory goes, it's only you that I've ever felt so in a vortex of love

Strange indeed, how the taste for you can be created so perfectly

I thought, God did present you to be a story that ended in a way I couldn't have expected

But because of my choice at the time...,

I'll let you just be the most beautiful story I've ever met, even if it can never be had.

All about us is a play of life, a piece of the story of the One who created us.

Even if we feel we have authority over ourselves, there are still parts of the story that we cannot control completely.

Including about a piece of our story that just happened, a simple introduction that turned out to be able to present an extraordinary taste.

Nothing is wrong indeed

I can only accept all the feelings I never invited

And it's not your fault that now I have to get hurt,

Because I'm a stubborn enough person to fight for everything.

In the end, I realized that this wound had to be me who bore

Tedes,,,

I know you deserve to be happy

Although my world seemed to end when the news was truly in sight

It feels hard indeed, though,

But I'm quite mature to accept, even though my injuries haven't actually dried up either.

You and I are as little as the stories of the past, let them melt away as time goes on.

I won't fall to watch you go, live my own dreams and ideals.

And I'm gonna be happy for you, Tede, and, uh,,,

On your wedding day

Between the curtains of longing,

I'm gonna make you happy with her

Always, forever*

***

Not reading any more messages he wrote, Elzata immediately sent the message. Once sent, he immediately blocked the number so that no reply to the incoming message.

His determination is already round, will be buried in a sketch of the taste in Elzata to a Tede who has been present for a long time in his life, even though he just left it since graduating high school. This is the end of a wordless relationship, which is really the bar in the end. Yes, for good.

After that, left hp who was next to him. He picked up the pillow he had been using to lean on. He shed the body until he finally fell asleep.

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