Love Stay Here
Mourned

"Mom, my husband Ma'am, it's gone" the sound of my mother's crying exploded as soon as I got home. He hit the thick body of his brother-in-law. The sister-in-law could only stroke the back of her sister who was being hit by the departure of the husband she loved so much.

"Sir..I failed, Ma'am...." Mother's cry sounded more heartbreaking. At the hospital, my mother was not that hysterical. Maybe because while in the hospital he did not want to look weak in front of his children. But when he arrived at the house spilled already the sorrow he had been detained since this morning.

PP father. Just because he was waiting for her to marry, the father had to be late to get medical treatment that should be done as soon as possible. But it had to be delayed because he asked for two days to think. Though he should have just accepted the condition even though he had to marry Abas, the man who had incised a wound in his heart. It's too late now, his father won't be back.

"Mother.maafin Sekar, Ma'am. Because Sekar father is not helped." After running to hug his mother, he cried sobbing until his voice was gone. Her mother still cries out for herself.

"Mother .. Sorry, Mom. Sekar selfish.sekar should immediately agree when you ask Sekar to get married instead of asking for time to think.huuuu," with a sigh he said words that stifled the heart including Bima who heard it.

"He regrets marrying me. O Allah bless my heart, may it be well" muttered Bima softly with a bowed face, not feeling her tears flowing. A deep sorrow lingered in his fragile heart.

"Don't talk like that, ndhuk all is fate," advised Budhe Halimah to calm Sekar while stroking the girl's back.

"If it were not for waiting for marriage, you would have survived, Budhe." still with a cry of sedu sedu. "I should just accept whoever is Sekar's soul mate is not waiting for Mas Bima to go home huuuuu..," Sekar's remark without realizing it has hurt the heart of her husband who is still silent behind her body that is struggling.

They dissolved in a chest-stifling cry. Likewise with Bima, the man's heart was so hurt to hear the regret of his wife waiting for him to come home. Sekar should not have spoken like that, no matter how now she is her husband. But as much as possible he tried to understand the feelings of his wife who was in mourning.

Pakdhe Suraji who heard Sekar's words immediately brought the poor young man forward to meet the guest who served in the house. The old man also felt pain when he was in the position of Bima.

"Patience, Son Sekar is just grieving. God willing, he will soon realize his mistake. Do not be discouraged, the girl just needs time to master her emotions," said Pakdhe while patting Bima's shoulder slowly.

"Yes, Pakdhe I understand," only that can be said from his lips that feel faint.

Sekar's father was a well-known and respected man in the village. So that mourners came from almost all the villagers. The small house of the Sekar family was crowded with mourners who came in that dark afternoon.

In the afternoon, the funeral of Maghrib was completed. It was time for Bima and Satya to bathe after the tomb. He was so shocked when asked to take a bath at the house of Suraji Pakdhe. He is confused how. Pakdhe who knew the confusion of the two brothers immediately approached the two.

"Come, to my house this Maghrib hunt. Ba'da Isya will be many people coming to tahlilan." Satya and Bima simply obeyed the old man and followed his steps towards his residence.

"It's a bath here and the prayers can be in the front mosque or at home can also be in the room" the grizzled man said, pointing to a room in one corner of the house.

"Yes, thank you Pakdhe" said Bima then he went into the bathroom to shower and prepare for prayer.

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"Where am I sleeping, Bang?" ask Satya after tahlilan. His head turned to find a place to stretch.

"There's no animals, huh?" ask Satya worriedly. He imagined if when he slept there was a slithering animal crawling on his body that was asleep then the animal entered in the nostrils or ears.

"Later if there will stay to eat starting from your brain," said Bima upset.

"Wicked is really a big brother" grumbled Satya. His eyes were looking for something that could be used to cushion his head.

"Mas Satya here's his pillow. Mas will sleep here with Mas Sayid and his children. Mas Bima too," Kirana said while giving some pillows to Satya.

"Where's my wife?" asked Bima looking for a woman who has now officially become his wife.

"There is a room, but tonight you can't sleep together because there is no place yet" Kirana said.

"What's wrong. Can I see him? Just want to talk for a second," asked the man in white.

"Yes, please."

Bima also entered the room Sekar. How sad his heart saw the room Sekar so tiny. only a narrow room measuring 3×2 m only. A single cot, a wooden cabinet and a small cot below for prayer in front of which there are many piles of books.

There is no dressing table especially spring bed or bathroom. The floor is still ground. The narrow bed is also used for 2 people. 'It must have been tight, ' he said inwardly.

He saw the wife who was lying down while staring at the ceiling of her bed net. Near him and rubbed his wife's cheek that was legal just 3 days ago.

"Honey, sleep it's been a night you lack of rest for a few days," said the man gently.

"If I do not ask for time to think and directly obey the last father's request may still be there," said the girl shrieked.

"I'm a bad boy who can't save your life. The man who was so good in my life and became my first love. It feels that my efforts to provide treatment for the father in vain still can not be saved," he added again with closed eyes and tears flowing soaking the pillow that became his head base.

The heart of the husband who will not hear such a speech from the mouth of the wife he loves so much. But he was still sane, his wife was just in mourning and needed time to make peace with reality.

"Don't know you're my wife, age is destiny. Death is something that cannot be advanced or reversed. Even if at that time the father was directly operated on there is no guarantee the father will be able to live longer. Have you forgotten the power of God? If you blame yourself for our marriage, it means you blame God who loves you so call him sooner. Don't keep crying, look at your tears my heart hurts so much."

Just quietly listen to all the words of her husband. She realized one thing, her husband was hurt by her words earlier. The woman averted her eyes and looked at her husband's face diving into the hidden feelings behind that sad face.

"I'm sorry I hurt your heart. I love you more than you know" said the woman, kissing the back of her husband's hand.