LOVE 9 LIVES
LIFE 1
Love is life to me. It sounds exaggerated and absurd, but that's how I feel. I don't know why I can't live without love. For me, love will give happiness when the heart is suffering. Love will give you spirit when there is nothing more to fight for. Love will give us everything we want. Love.oh..love...!
It is ridiculous to sound when fighting for a love that claps one hand. Vain. It will only consume energy and also hurt your own feelings. Like dipping water in a tray, splashed his own face. Sometimes the struggle to get a love that claps one hand is just going to drop your self-esteem. And many people believe in that. But not for me. I'm willing to pursue a love I haven't had for eight times.
Name Cathy. Cathy Purnama Sari. People call me Cathy. A unique name, right? It could be that when I heard my name the first thing I imagined was a cute creature named cat. People say that names are prayers. And maybe that's what happened to me. For some reason, I could be likened to a cat. Starting from my eyes that said pointed and slightly up on the tail of his eyes like a cat. My nature is also very spoiled as well as cats. I will be spoiled to anyone who is close to me as a cat will stick to the feet of those who love him. For love affairs, I also have a cat-like nature. 9 lives. People often say that cats have 9 lives. And I too have nine lives for my love. Before the ninth life is lost, the cat will not die. My love is also like that which will not die until the ninth life.
Once counted, the life for my love is but one more time. Because the eight lives I have are gone. Lost in the hands of a man named Sega. I don't blame Sega. Because as I said, I'm willing to pursue a love that claps one hand. And Sega was the one who made me willing to do that. He does stupid things to get his love. If a love man says blind, make me more than that. For me love is life. Nothing can take away my love for Sega, except death itself when I have lost my nine lives for love.
It's been a month since Sega rejected my love. And in that one month too, Kisa was always there for me. Encourage to continue to live with happiness. Indeed, the nature of Kisa like a rooster that is not tired to crow every dawn wakes people up. Even though many of those people do not hear it and still sleep in dreams. Kisa also never tired to remind me of the beauty of this life. About how to live life with love and happiness.
Like the SMS Kisa sent me this morning.
Did you know that last night was a full moon? The moon is very beautiful up there with its bright light shining down on the earth. People worship the full moon for its beauty. As time passed, the beauty was getting lost and vanished altogether. Until later there will be a crescent moon that will become a full moon. I'm sure you're like the moon losing its light right now. And someday your light will surely shine on those around you, Cathy.
Of course the SMS was enough to make me smile this morning. And made me even more convinced to pursue Sega's love no matter what.
On this veranda I waited for Sri and Kisa to pick me up. We made an appointment to go to the animal shop. Kisa was initially astonished when I wanted to go to the animal shop because she knew I did not like raising animals at all. But, after I persuaded him, he finally wanted to drive me to the animal shop.
"Are you really okay, Cathy?"
Mom came to bring me some sweet tea. Mother was very considerate especially after knowing what I was doing when Sega rejected my love for the eighth time. Just like everyone else who cares about me, Mother told me to find another man to make as a companion for life. But, just like everyone else who suggested it, I could not accept any input from Mom at all. Not that I want to be an ungodly child, but I just want to get the happiness I've been craving. Happy with Sega, the man of dreams who is always present in my dreams. At first I did not want to accept my reason for choosing Sega, but over time I finally accepted my wish. And now I'm just trying to keep supporting me to get Sega's love. Even though for almost a month, I shed tears to see what happened to me.
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"I don't think, yeah. Turns out there are people worse off than me."
I also remembered the grin of that time. And the words that still ring today.
"Never consider yourself to suffer the most in the world because of one weakness. Because there are still a lot of people out there who are far less fortunate than us."
Indeed, even though it was still High School, Kisa's thinking was much more mature than other kids our age. And Kisa is also often a place to confide in friends. No wonder at that time Kisa was called Ki like a famous psychic-paranormal. And Kisa never protested with a call pinned to her. Kisa will be happy when she sees others happy. And that is the nature that he continues to show me to this day. Kisa will be happy when she sees me happy.
Kisa's attention is so great to me. But, somehow I never could to give my heart to Kisa. Kisa and I are like sisters. Although many consider me and Kisa to be a compatible couple, both me and Kisa never to bother with it.
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