FLAVORLESS
Unfortunately He's Not Me

It all starts with the word forced and until the end is still forced, there is no such thing as really love, there is pretending love. No matter how much he loves me, it is very difficult for me to distinguish between love and lust. Being in control is not me, I'm used to being free - there are no chains that bind me, glad I don't take off my wings every day.

My freedom has lasted many years, but in the end there is a time to be in a control cage that I may not be able to avoid anymore, besides parents, age is also again a problem in this one piece of the problem. True I can not deny, this life is indeed in pairs, but what will be obtained in pairs, treasures? without him I've got the shock that I want, my position has reached the position that I want.

then what? Son?, I live the adoption of the child in an orphanage without having to waste energy for a long night.

The family? I already have. Dad, Mom, sister all I've got, then what's lacking?

let's say?

why are my parents still forcing me to get married, everything I have, it would be better if I don't get married, everything I can do without any restrictions and restrictions. Don't have to worry about something wrong and be angry with me.

By the time I was 25 years old, my parents even fell in front of me to get married, unable to escape the eardrum from the shouting of marriage from them. Not to ask about their physical condition but the mental blow they give every time they call. Asking men2 as I want, as if all this is gamang for me to pass as a beginner of love. Fortunately they have not been close to me for several years, if that happens it is uncertain how many men will climb the stairs of my house, dirtying the floor of the house that every day in cleaning bi Ijah. The problem is that my salary is paid, they will litter the floor of the house, there will be no brains.

This problem dragged on to become a big chunk of rock in my career. At 26, I was the only woman in my office who was single, she said, the man I considered a co-worker and confiding friend had a crush on me, but I never believed in it, he knows how much I hate relationships like that. Even friends are higher than that. My beautiful friend once told me, too,

"From the dizziness of finding a prospective husband, why not the same neighbor, it is more clear and also already visible form, know bebet weight,"

"If talking is easy sis, just you know the cave never considers more him if it has held a position before. I'm not the kind of person who likes to cross boundaries. "

"But you're comfortable with him?, "

"Yes comfortable, but comfortable in the category of friends "

"Always say friend, but he doesn't think of you as my friend"

"Where do you know, he never talked to the cave"

"Hei Nasyah, open your eyes, the whole world knows, the world of stars, the world of ghoib, the world of consciousness, what world of work is more, anyway know that she likes you shah, "

"Gua does not believe, he just said to the cave in the crush of girls, but the girl is difficult in deketin"

"Well... that ... that he told you... that's the chip code shah, he gave the code to you, that he likes you, that's it"

" Kok cave does not feel the talk he was for the cave, the cave felt he was just a story of his love problems he was a little complicated."

"And you foolishly give advice to him? "

"Goblock, (hitting the head of nasyah) "

"Sakitt.... Why are you rude? "

"yes yes, you indirectly love the green light to him, and now you say you do not know, you easily save him. "

"(switch position) how the cave is not emotional try, that he asked for advice to you, make him look for a gap"

"(emotion) Yeah which cave knows..... "

"And he's not treating you like you suggested? "

"Where the cave knows sis, is the girl who is not a cave. "

"Gua citak also palo lu shah, the cave means there is not in starting to change his attitude to you, a little sweet or how is it? "

"Hmmmmm"

"(With a deadly look)...... "

"yes. the cave means, like what he usually does. like that, nothing changes is still the same. (convincing)"

"What advice do you give me? "

"Gua said, be patient yes.... someday the girl will surely know with your sincerity to him, the spirit continues not to give up (show), That? is something wrong? "

" There is nothing wrong with your words, just his fault he is too dare not face the hardness of your heart, God is too fond of you heart that is like a stone, that's all. Comment no! "

I briefly touched on that short conversation, never thought by me that the best coworkers put a deep taste for me. I'm confused why he likes it? and is that true?

Why has he never told me this? is he afraid I'll be mad at him?,

That stupid question that fell on my brain, thousands of questions that came and one answer turned off this question, "Maybe not true, could be those who are a hobby of matching us. you have been friends for over 3 years. I'm like a brother. "

Dead had the question in an instant, and I was again busy with my work again, while my gossip-loving friend had already walked out of my room in annoyance.