Endless Longing
2 Years Ago Part 5 - Trying
"Taqi doesn't know either, but what's wrong with trying, does Salwa want to be alone forever?"
At night Salwa could not sleep, Taqi's words were always on her mind. Salwa wanted to call mom, but all this time she was hesitant and less open with her.
"until Taqi realizes that Taqi also needs someone"
Salwa had longed for that person. Mother Father is not his world anymore, om and atheu even though always a figure that Salwa can rely on, but still he is not Sani, Raihan or Ridho. It feels like Salwa is estranged in her own world. He saw a picture of his family, Mr Bu Ade misses, do you miss him too? there is a Taqi ka who wants to propose, what if Ade gets married later?
Not feeling his tears dripping, usually Salwa can divert through watching anime, reading books or sleeping. But tonight it feels different, his chest feels so tight, lonely, angry, disappointed and happy mixed in his heart. Finally Salwa understood that only crying could bring out all these feelings.
Tring,, tring,, hp notification ringing
"assalamualaikum Sal, sorry to disturb, Taqi a few weeks ago istikharah, which makes Taqi sure. Maybe if Salwa is confused can be tried. Do not be afraid that Salwa's beliefs are different from Taqi, whatever Taqi may receive"
Reading the chat from Taqi, stopping Salwa's cry, he hurriedly took the water. Salwa just wants calm, whatever it is that she must definitely calm her heart first.
...*******...
The next Saturday, Salwa pampit to Bandung on om and ateu using travel. Hearing Salwa suddenly to Bandung, Sani invited him to talk
"ga wait for Aldo to wake up Sal"
"pity San, must be tired"
"ask Dhodho gih anterin" Sani persuaded
"don't worry about booking travel"
"hmmm if you tell Taqi you must be angry"
"anything San anyways I'm used to travel, oh yes don't tell Taqi I to Bandung ya"
"why? are you the same as Taqi?"
"hahaha, why shouldn't we be marahan?"
"yes, maybe, you just don't accept the same way Taqi suddenly nglamar you"
"even I was amazed San, I didn't think it was just I didn't know my father how San. So I want to meet all mothers chat father also.you know for yourself how the condition. honestly I am confused" said Salwa sadly.
Sani hugged Salwa, "if the father and mother must be the best love for Salwa, because Sani sure wa Asti and wa Dimas love kok same Salwa. You are sure that's best for yourself"
"i'm afraid of San"
"fear what?"
"fear Taqi is not completely Nerima, or one day when we have married my order problem instead so Boomerang, do you know for yourself my mother how"
"hmmm, but Sal, if you keep thinking about it, when to think about your own life. If I were you, I wouldn't care about mom, I would focus on my own happiness. Because no matter what your condition is, ultimately it will remain problematic Asti, yes the problem is that he made his own, not because you are Sal. You desire to be happy Sal" Salwa smiled at Sani's words.
If I had been brave like you San.
Sani helps Salwa clean up every once in a while he checks Aldo in his room who is fast asleep. After Salwa was ready to leave, Sani drove her to the travel pool. Sani playfully recounts anything to comfort Salwa, from their Junior High School with Sani knowing what makes Salwa comfortable and vice versa. Although they were a year apart, Sani always felt they were twins. Sani and Salwa separated while studying alone, Sani in Jakarta was Salwa in Bogor.
Arriving at the travel pool Sani pamit go home. Salwa really enjoys her solitude at this time. What would your reaction be if you knew someone proposed to you, and if you knew Salwa was planning to go to Semarang. What should Salwa do when meeting with the father how his father's family reactions. Everything raged on Salwa. While looking at the streets, Salwa hoped that what she thought could be sidetracked, so she chose to sit by the window.
"do I want to try?!"
Salwa finally informed Taqi via wa
"Assalamualaikum ka Taqi, sorry last night his chat has not been replied to. Salwa again on the way to Bandung, Sunday home"
Kriiing,, kriiing, Taqi called right away
"Assalamualaikum Sal again to Bandung?"
"yes, this is again on travel"
"suddenly tight?"
"what time is it on Sunday?"
"you know you want it in the afternoon already in Bogor"
"ooh okay, later tidakin Taqi ya go home at what time"
"okay ka, Kaka again wedding?"
"iya usual Sal, if you have time tomorrow Taqi plan to pick up Salwa travel"
"ga ngerepotin ka?"
"let's go home at what time, hopefully"
"well ka"
"assalamualaikum"
"greetings waalaikum"
...*******...
Salwa was at home by day. They were having lunch after cooking together.
"De, I heard Taqi proposed yes"
"Yes Ma'am"
"Thank God you're so happy"
"mother ain't nothing?"
"not even happy. Why glum? not happy this mother's son yes"
"Ade hasn't answered Ka Taqi's proposal"
"ooohhh, why? Ade don't like it?" Salwa shook her head
"then?!"
"Ade confused tell the father, said om Hari no need to have a proposal event, just get married, before that Ade must go to the father of Bu"
"yes, it's much simpler that way. Ade hasn't called you?"
"yet"
"try to call first" Salwa looked doubtful.
"De,, I want to tell you something" said the mother after eating, bringing orange juice and taking Salwa to sit in the yard of the house. In the past Salwa here home garden is not maintained, since the mother lives alone while filling the time the mother takes care of ornamental plants, especially after moving the workplace the mother is not too busy.
"God, I'm getting married again"
"when's Mom?"
"yes right after you High School, the father told the mother, had wanted to ask no om Hari, may want to contact you, but the mother love you" Salwa heard this news did not believe
"Times the father asks you, but always the mother says, you will be hurt because the father is married again. Actually I don't want you to be in touch again with the father, the heart of once he left us de, left mother when there is a problem, handed you to Hari, even he can marry again" mother said while crying.
Salwa saw a fertile mother plant, Aaahh Bu, actually Ade was also equally sick, Ade came here to ask for a little spirit because Ade wanted to step up, Ade wanted to get married.
"yes already ma'am it has happened, Ade also plans to the father, maybe right in Bogor later just want to call father. If you don't mind Taqi, it means father"
"if you go to the father continue to meet your stepmother, I hope you do not invite him, because your father married the woman he cheated right in Jakarta"
"iya Bu, Ade wants to rest first yes tired" Salwa also left her mother alone.
Hhhh, ma'am, if I could lean on you, but I need more support. Sorry if ade has not been strong, it seems Ade is also not the right backup for mother.
