CARINA
Fifteen

A few years ago.

The knock on the door woke Dio from his deep sleep. However, he was confused when he found his body so innocent without a thread. His clothes were also seen scattered on the floor. Usually, only the jerseys that he put off when he was about to sleep, are not plain like this. Until he saw a piece of paper on the pillow beside him.

Just wanting to read the inscription on the paper, his sister had again exclaimed, calling him for breakfast together.

"Mas, let's get up, breakfast," exclaimed Tiffany from outside the room.

"First, I want to take a shower first" replied Dio.

"OK!"

*I've forgotten what happened to us last night, Brother Dio is not wrong. I should have been able to resist when Brother Dio started to lose control. But, I don't know.

I promise, no one will know about this. Brother Dio don't blame yourself, yes. I'm goin.

From Karin*.

His eyes were wide open reading the contents of the letter in his hand. He remembered that last night with his friends, he drank a lot. I must have been drunk, so I didn't realize I was doing anything I shouldn't. And he, was his brain damaged to write this message? Foolish girl, your future is ruined because of me, and you want me not to blame myself for this?.

Dio grabbed the blanket, and sure enough. The reddish stain is there. "Shit .. shit .. shit!!!"

Soon he changed the sheets before anyone knew, and he kept them in his suitcase. Dio rushed to take a shower and met his two younger siblings in the dining room.

"Where was it?" ask Dio to Tiffany.

"Morning already nanyain Karin aja, breakfast first, Mas."

"WHICH CARIN?" Tiffany and Brian gasped, not usually their eldest brother was angry like this.

"You've come home before dawn, Mas" replied Tiffany terrified. Brian touched his sister's hand to calm down.

"He home? Before Dawn? Alone?" Tiffany nodded. "Based on a stupid girl, really stupid, shit," he continued with a fiery tone holding back anger. Anger that he was pointing at himself.

He scrunched his forehead, his head suddenly hurt thinking about all the possibilities that happened to the girl. Tiffany gave me a glass of warm water. He had no idea what his brother was thinking. All he knew was that Dio looked like he was in a daze.

"Mi-drink first, Mum."

Dio sighed, smiled and picked up the glass filled with water. "Sorry, yes, De." Tiffany nodded.

"De, where does Karin live? There's a need."

"Road H. Mahali, cost Princess Mecca. Karin's boarding there."

"Vin, I borrowed your bike, huh?" Brian nodded.

The man who owns an athletic body, clear black eyes was picking up iron horse gas belonging to his sister, with high speed. Like a racer who was competing on the circuit, he meandered through the crowded streets from the peak of Bogor to the intended address. Arriving at the boarding house that his sister meant, Dio quickly met the guard of the special residence of the female student.

Too late, he's gone. The caretaker and the hostess did not know where the straight black girl went. He just wanted to move a place.

One by one the addresses that his sister loved visited, and still, he did not find the girl he had taken his virginity.

*****

A day, two days, up to a week longer, Dio did not see Karin in the campus environment. Want it to feel like he was crying, imagining how the fate of the chocolate-sweet girl in the future. Lord, please meet me with Karin immediately, what if in her womb .. ah, my mind starts to fall apart.

Tiffany ran as fast as she could, following her sister who was sitting pensively in the library room. He must deliver the bad news immediately, even though he does not know what is really going on.

"Mas Dio ...," he shouted that immediately received attention as well as a reprimand from the library guard. Tiffany clenched her hands together, apologizing.

"Why the hell, De?" dio asked curiously, what made his sister run so far.

"Sunday, Mas .. she ...," she replied.

"What's wrong yesterday, De? Don't panic!" Hearing the name called, his heart rumbled, there was a storm raging there.

"I heard from Amel and Merlin, he didn't go to college here anymore!"

"WHAT!!!" The man full of charm was surprised instead of playing. He collapsed in his sister's arms.

Now the brothers are a spectacle of the entire library. Tiffany took Dio to the corner table, and he didn't want anyone to see his elder brother cry. Although there were no tears flowing, but he was very sure, in the deepest recesses of his heart, Dio was crying. He could feel it from his brother's trembling body.

"Hey, apparently my brother is in love. Believe, Mas. If you are a match, God will definitely ease the way to meet again" said Tiffany trying to comfort.

"It's not about a soul mate or not, De. But it's about the future of a girl, who's been torn with Masmu's heart. Mas scared. Obviously Mas was wrong, but instead he took a big risk," he said in his heart.

"We're home, yuk. No more classes, right?" Dio shook his head. "Today papa, mama, came home from Paris and, they're going to stay quite a while" he continued.

"You're mists?" Of course the beautiful girl nodded. The busyness of peerless parents, makes the three brothers lose many precious moments together, like most families.

*****

Years passed. Tiffany's day at graduation, behind the pink kebaya, and the flawless make-up, made her sweet sister look even more beautiful. Everyone was happy except Dio. Not unhappy his sister has become a scholar, he is sad to remember the dimpled girl who should now also be at graduation. He imagined that if the cursed day never happened, surely Karin would look very graceful in a toga robe.

His daydream was caved in when Papa Ario patted his shoulder. Next to the man he respected the most, stood the woman who became his first love. A woman who still looks fresh and beautiful, at her age who is no longer young. Who else if not the mother, Mama Maria.

"Papa see, from earlier daydream. Why?" ask papa gently.

"What's wrong, Pah. Dio wants a photo of Fany, the same Alvin. Aissh, the little girl is a scholar," he joked as he approached his two younger siblings who were busy taking pictures.

While busy taking pictures, the tail of his eyes caught a figure that looks like he who all these years he was looking for. Soon he ran away, leaving behind both his sister and his parents. Of course, the two parents were confused, because lately, the eldest child prefers to shut himself in the room, rather than hang out.

His eyes continued to search among the crowd. God brought him up, I'd go crazy if I kept going like this.

"Sir Dio ...."