A Million Dreams About You By: Stalker Night
9.THE PAIN I INFLICTED ON YOU

An unprecedented feeling, a feeling where everything is aloof, from a hope that makes me sure there is love from you,must be ignored by a destiny that exists between us.Although I must bear this pain, which I do not know when it will end.But I am sure of one thing, Night is not always dark, but I am sure,there will be a time when the moon will come to light the silence of the night.....

The time has shown at 12:23, Adzan also reverberated melodious, before the Dzuhur has arrived.Open the door for ayat2 prayer of Muslims who hope will be ridho\ Him.

At Abdul Radjak Hospital, the five friends are ready to go to Musholla which is beside the Hospital building.

‘Tante,Om.We want to pray first, then we come here again kok’.

‘Oh yes Ni, later on if you have returned, janagan forgot ,lunch yes, Aunt is ready at the table sana’, d,

‘Ya Aunt’.Hani.

The five of them then went to Musholla to perform Dzuhur prayers.Pure themselves with ablution water that makes the heart calm and cool the mind.

Wawan, Novi, Gilang, Fadila and Hani finally finished their prayers, the five of them sat 2 relaxed in front of Musholla while enjoying the fresh air for a moment.

‘Vi, tomorrow we are back to Lombok, who wants Johan?’.Ask Hani .

‘Ya Mama dan Papa lah Ni.cook bibik Cantin’.Ketus Novi's.

‘Ciee who again thinks of Johan’.Ledek Wawan on Hani.

‘What the hell,gue just worried about him’.Hani's reply was upset.

‘It looks like Johan will return to Lombok, so the treatment time is not a moment, surely Mama same Board bring him back to Lombok’.

‘Ya also yes, hopefully Johan can recover back’.

‘Ya Vi,gue also hope he cepet healed, so that we can get together again with us’.Fadila.

Shortly after they had a chat2, they returned to the nursery Johan.Disana, Mama Johan has prepared lunch for them.

‘Ih Aunt, so much food, we eat it just a little Kok Aunt, no need to bother2’.

‘Nggak Ni,Tante does not bother, you will have taken care of Johan since yesterday.Mast you are tired,mangkanya Auntie bawain lots of food, eaten yes,Tante who made the loh it’.Said Aunt Rina.

‘Hehe,ya Aunt,makasi many’.

‘Ya already, let's eat her food’.

‘Ya Aunt’.

While they eat, Mama Johan tidied barang2 and alat2 medical in the room.Mamanya Johan already consider them as his own child, since Johan is still sitting on the bench of High School,He never saw Johan as happy as that with his schoolmates.Only those who always make Johan never feel bored when at school, they have become true friends until now.

After teman2nya finished eating their food, Hani helped Mama Johan to clean clean.

‘Tante, let Hani aja cleanin,Tante rest aja, let's not tired’.Hani’.

Makasi ya Ni.Ya already kalok so Aunt stay bentar yes, so the Aunt wants to go out to buy food for later eat malem’.

‘Oh yes Aunt, no apa2 kok’.Said Hani kindly.

Shortly after sweeping and cleaning the place to eat, Hani also approached his friend2 who was dudujk with 2 in the VIP room sofa.

‘Ehem, there are people who have been chatting with their future father-in-law ni’.Ledek Gilang on Hani..

‘Apaan hell Gilaaaang’.

‘Hehe joked kok Ni’.

‘Ngomong2 we never returned to the hotel, we fear later we are sought again the same sir Hari’.

‘Turn back to the Hotel, let me just here who keep Johan’.Hani.

‘Truly, Lu don't mind if we go back to Hotel.’Reply Wawan.

‘Ngak apa2 kok Wan, I'm sure I'm tidakan you guys are against Johan already siuman’.

‘Ya udah.kalok so later in the afternoon we four back to Hotel’.

‘Emmm split with Hani’.Said Novi while pouting.

‘Ih, really Lu Vi,kayak want to split a year aja’.Ketus Wawan's.

‘My area,mau lebuy,mau jutek, the important thing is not like Lu,pemales,jorok,ihhhh’.Reply Novi to Wawan.

‘The two of you can't get along a day huh,steady on’.Fadila was upset.

While they were talking2, Johan's father entered the room.

‘Eh Om, where is Om?

‘Om just now from the supermarket, buy cigarettes.’

‘Ohh, Aunt Rina also just went out, she said she wanted to buy food’.

‘Oh yaya, by the way2 have you eaten?’.Ask Johan's father to them.

‘New selese Om, kalok Om already?’.

‘Udah dong,tadi at warung panan’.

His father Johan then took a cigarette while sitting2 with them.

‘When do you return to Lombok?

‘We're behind it four more days Om’.

‘Oh, that is, where are you staying?’.Ask Johan's father to them.

‘We stay at Hotel ‘Acacia’ Om, not far from here’.

‘Terus, when is the plan to return to the Hotel?, your lecturers are not angry?’

No Om, we have permission to share the Lecturer who is there, kalok problems behind the hotel, maybe we turn it on the afternoon Om’.Reply Wawan

‘Ooo so,Om think you guys behind it after’.Said Johan's father while smoking his cigarette.

‘Hehe, but only Wawan,Novi, Fadila, the same Novi who returned later in the afternoon, Kalok Hani said he still wanted to be put here until Johan's condition had somewhat improved’.

‘Ooo you do not follow back with your friends Ni?.

‘Ya Om, The reverse tomorrow just as Johan's condition has improved, let's not mind’.Said Hani gently.

‘Ya already, kalok gitu Om want to change clothes first yes, so it's sultry once’.

‘Oh yes Om’.

They were silent for a moment while looking at Johan who was lying helplessly in his bed.

‘Ni,Lu sure do not follow back with us’.Fadila.

‘Yeah La,gue is okay alone here, you guys will be here tomorrow again’, anyway,

‘Hemm, yes, but promise yes,Lu do not stay up again; Lu also need rest’.Said Fadila to his true friend Hani.

‘Yeah, get ready buk, I definitely keep promise’.Ledek Hani on Fadila.

‘Yahhh Gue so ibuk dong’.

‘Hahaha’.Laughter Hani.

‘Wihhh,asik both ni,sister sister’.Ketus Gilang's.

‘Ya dong’.Reply Fadila while embracing Hani.

Auntie Rina also returned from the supermarket, carrying the food she bought.

‘Hani, can help Aunt take this there, very heavy because’.Said Aunt Rina to Hani when she just entered the room.

‘Eh yes Aunt’.

‘Tante is not tired of carrying this much stuff?’.

‘Neither Ni,Tante can already bring this’.

‘Wihh,Tante is a dah’ stronggg.Ketus Hani while giving her thumb.

Not felt, Ashar arrived.After the five of them finished praying.They also returned to the VIP room where Johan was treated.Disana Wawan.Novi, Fadila, and Gilang, pamit on Papa and Mama Johan.

‘Tante,Om, we say goodbye first, tomorrow we come again kok jenguk Johan’.Gilang.

‘Eh, wait a moment yes,Tante get money first’.

‘Nevent need Aunt, there is still some pocket money we’.

‘Heh, no what2 kok Lang, saved only money, who knows you need to buy other necessities’.

‘Hehe,ya Aunt ,Makasi much so not good ni’.Wawan said embarrassed.

‘Yes, the same, you hearts hearts yes at jalan’.

‘OK Aunt’.

They also returned to the Hotel where they settled, except Hani who at that time decided to stay at the Hospital to accompany Johan.Diperjalan, Wawan and Novi who were chatting with each other, in conversation together.

‘Vi,Pretty attention to Johan, so envious of Gue’.

‘Yes, that's the name Sincerity of love,Ke Tu Lu San Cinta, not like Lu, who likes to make girls illfeel against Lu’,Ketus Hani.

‘Ohhh that is, Lu is now again the same I, so Lu is not illfeel dong same Gue’.Wawan said with a smile.

‘Ihhh Apaan anyway,Gue tabok ya!’

‘Eh uh, don't !Lu want us to crash, he already, kalok so I speed aja ni motor’, Ketus Wawan while increasing the speed of his motorbike.

‘Waaaaaan,aaaaaaaaaaa’.Shouted Novi while hugging Wawan.

‘Uhuuuuuy, finally there are also girls who want to hug Iueeeeeee,Uhuuu’.

A new bud, has now grown from the tree of their Love Friendship.Have the path of Love each, and will continue to develop into a sturdy branch, which will continue to grow,but it has one tree of life that tree of Love.Bagai a sunlight that helps the process of Photosynthesis of the Tree of Love, You and I will always need each other, do not look at the difference between us.Because we have already been united, because we have been united,in a Mystery of Love.

The twilight arrived, greeting the arrival of the Night.Thousands of seconds that have passed, not felt, but have the meaning of each second.

That afternoon before Maghrib, Hani was sitting casually in front of the Hospital Page, accompanied by music that he heard through headphones.Some time later, his cellphone rang.

‘Eh, there is thelfhone.Papa?’.He said with a smile.

‘Assalamualaikum Ni, how are you there?, alright?

‘Waalaikumsalam Pa, Alhamdulillah Hani is good just here.What kind of Papa Kalok?

‘Papa healthy kok Ni, same as usual.Papa just want to message you, do not forget to take care of your health yes son, do not be too tired, you also need to rest there’.His papa's message to Hani.

‘Oh,oke Pa, Papa also do not forget to rest, do not work until midnight, papa ntar turned into a bat!.Hani said with a laugh.

‘Hahaha, Papa's son there is aja’.

‘So Papa in Kasik tau Wawan, he said Johan again treated at the Hospital.how is his condition?.

‘Udah kindly fix Pa,Hani again in Hospital where Johan treated’.

‘Ohh so, Mama same Papa Johan there too?

‘Ya Pa.Om Yadi same Aunt Rina insulted also kok’.

‘Papa want to send greetings to them, and hopefully Johan can just get well’.

‘Ya Pa, later Hani said to Aunt Om’. ‘ First yes Pa,Hani will be ready for Maghrib.Assalamualaikum Pa’ Prayer.

‘Ya Ni,Waalaikumsalam’.

Hani immediately returned to his nursery Johan to take his face.Disana, Papa and Mama Johan were sound asleep because of fatigue to keep Johan all day.Hani then went to musholla.After finishing performing the maghrib prayer, he fell asleep,Hani also stopped for a moment in front of the stall where he and his friend2nya breakfast this morning.He stopped there for a moment to buy food.

‘Pak,please wrap the Chicken Noodles yes,four packs’.

‘Ya mbak’.Reply the merchant is friendly.

Moments later, Hani returned to the hospital, while carrying the food he had bought.Mama Johan who was just waking up, was busy preparing food for their dinner.

‘Nevent bother to buy food all Ni, already a lot of this, food’.

‘Hehe nothing2 Aunt’.

‘Ya already, let's eat her food’.

‘Ya Aunt’.Said Hani while taking a seat next to Mama Johan.

‘Om Yadi where Auntie, don't she come to eat ?

‘Udah full said,when he rarely eats ‘.

‘Hehe, same as my Papa, he often does not appetite, cigarette problems, can not miss a day’.Ketus Hani .

‘Ya Ni,Om Yadi is also the same.’Said Johan.

They also chat2 together while eating their dinner.

After eating, Hani then approached Johan who was lying in his bed.

‘Han,Lu when to wake up, we are all worried about Lu’.Said Hani while holding Johan's hand.

His mother Johan who was about to come out, happened to see Hani who was accompanying Johan, as soon as he fell silent while watching Hani.

‘You are strong yes Han, I am the same temen2 will always nemenin you kok,Janji’.Said Hani while fusing his pinky with Johan.

His mother Johan who was watching Hani at that time, felt moved to see Hani who was so concerned with Johan.

‘You did not choose wrong Han, you chose the right woman’.Said his mother Johan heart.

At the same time, Wawan, Novi, Fadila, and Gilang, were chatting2 on the front page of the hotel where they were staying.

‘Guys,guys,how are we going out, walk that way,Gue bosen here continue’,Ujar Novi.

‘Yes enah,males Vi, will be here’.

‘Ihh,bodo very,Gue don't care if you want to come or not, whatever!’.Ketus Novi on Wawan.

‘You fight mulu, all of you be aja, let's not fight continue’.Fadila said with a smile.

‘Wihhh,buer then!agree I La’.Refractory.

‘No want ah, disgust Gue, where anyone wants to be his girlfriend siWawan.Udah dekil,jorok,males’.Ledek Novi on Wawan.

‘Ehem, or no guys, so there's a hug Gure from behind fitting again boncegan’.Reply Wawan while smiling.

‘Who Wan?’

‘Who else is not a girl beside Gue’.

‘Novi?,Cieee there are diem like Wawan nih’.Ledek Fadila while glancing towards Novi.

‘Udah ah,Gue want to enter first’,Ketus Novi while walking quickly to his room.

‘Noviiii,Noviiii,uhuy’.

‘Hahaha’.Laughter Fadila and Gilang saw the behavior of Wawan.

‘Kalok Lu likes Novi, just reveal the feeling of Lu’.

‘Ih, not Lang,Gue just a smile see him ngambek’.Wawan actually liked Novi.

Not felt, Adzan isya has reverberated melodious, a sign for Muslims to stop all activities.Answering the call of the Divine.

‘Eh, already adzan, so we go in first, ready to pray’.

‘Oh yes Lang,yuk!’.

‘They then prepare to go to the musholla behind the Hotel, to carry out worship.

After they finished their prayers, they finally returned to their rooms, and prepared to go to sleep.

Unlike Hani who was sitting alone in front of the window, Johan's inpatient room looked at the night sky illuminated by the moonlight that accompanied the silence of the night.

‘Hani, don't you sleep?, it's malem loh’.Said Johan's mother .

‘’Later Aunt,Tante sleep aja first’.

‘Ya already, kalok that Aunt sleep first yes, later if you want to sleep, blanket over there ya Ni’.

‘Ya Aunt,Makasi’’.

‘Ya Ni’.Reply Mama Johan while moving to the sofa where He will sleep.Meanwhile, Johan's father has fallen asleep soundly on the thick carpet that has been prepared by Mama Johan.

Hani who was sitting in front of the window, then approached Johan.

‘Petan healed ya Han, so we can gather together kayak dulu’.Said Hani while holding Johan's hand.

‘I actually wanted to say something to you first, but I'm ashamed to reveal it to you’.

‘Honestly, I have never met a guy who is pendiem, but care so much with others, for example you are Han’.

‘Indeed the strange thing about the girl who first revealed her taste kecowok.But you did not hear what I just said’.

‘It would be okay if I confided in a little, you are not danger’.Said Hani with a sweet smile.

Night where a wave that I feel, such as moving the island of Love that we have.Complement every sweet and bitter struggle of our love.Make it become stronger and stronger.However, the,we do not realize what will happen tomorrow.Is a feeling we have never felt before will arrive?.Will this heart be strong against it?.Will the island of our love be divided?, and should it separate us?.Even so, I will always remember your presence in my life.If you have considered me not in the memory of your life.......

The next day at the Abdul Radjak Salemba Hospital.,,

‘Good morning viewers, come back again with ‘Latest news’.The news this morning came from the funeral home of the victim died from a bus accident Faculty of Business UI two days ago.Two victims died on behalf of Virgiyan Carlos and one friend, Fahri Saputra, who was the victim,reportedly will be buried This morning.’

Johan's mother, who heard the news on TV, immediately called her father Johan.

‘Pa,Pa,here's a sneak!!’.

‘Ya Ma, what is it?’.Ask Johan's papa while cleaning his mouth because the former coffee has been drunk.

‘Yes God, that's Giyan Ma?’.

‘Ya Pa, we go there now’.Said Johan's mother.

‘Kalok so,Papa ready ready first’.

‘Oh yes Pa’.

Hani who just finished bathing, saw Mama and Papa Johan who was preparing to go to Giyan's funeral.

‘Tante where to go?’

‘Tante same Om want to go for a while, so there is a friend Johan no one died in a bus accident yesterday’.

‘Inalillahiwainnalillahiroji’un,Hani is sorry Aunte’.Said Hani surprised to hear Mama Johan.

‘Ya Ni,Tante also did not expect him to go first, hopefully he was calm there’.

Moments later, Johan's father had already changed his clothes.

‘Kalok so Auntie same Om go first yes Ni.later kalok you want breakfast.Tante already ready to kok on the table’.Said Johan's mother was friendly.

‘Ya Aunt, be careful yes on jalan’.

They also went to the funeral home of a friend of Johan, who had left them.

Meanwhile, Hani, who was alone in Johan's Nursing Room, took the time to tidy up the items there.

Shortly after, he opened the bedroom to breathe fresh air in the morning.

‘Ngot felt yes, we are already as big as gini, feeling yesterday I still ask for toys with Papa I’.Hani said to Johan while looking out the window, and then he approached Johan.

‘You do not leave us, Han, will we six already promised to always be together until the end of’.

Not felt, Hani was sound asleep next to Johan, took hold of his hand.The sleepiness was no longer held back due to staying up all night.

‘A hope does not always rest sweet as it is in the back of our minds.It always irritates from the limits of the instincts we cannot predict,dragging us to fall into their mistakes.But not always we will stay and meet the slump, there is a time when we have to rise and assemble the footing yourself’.

While Hani was sound asleep, Johan who was lying weak at that time like being on another night, spinning erratically.Such as repeating the same millions of steps in his memory particles.It feels so strange but so clear in his mind.

He felt as if he were on a lonely road.standing alone.as if there was not the slightest impulse for him to step from his position.Then he saw the shadow of a woman who was familiar to him,he tried to remember.remember..twisting the wheel of his memory, but he could not remember anything, only passing a name, which is ‘HANI’..

‘Hani....Hani's...Hani!!! but the woman's face did not look at her, left her alone...

‘Hani..Hani.’.Johan's sigh, which made Hani who was sleeping soundly beside him woke up.

‘Han, Johan!.Ketus Hani was surprised when he saw Johan who had been awakened.

Hani, who had just woken up, was holding Johan's hand.

‘Han.ini me,Hani’.He held Johan's hand.

Johan who was just sober, could not control himself, He continued to call Hani who had always been by his side.Seed memories and sweet memories that he had stored, and disappeared just like that.

‘Sus..sister!,Hani where sus!’.Ketus Johan to Hani who at that time was thought to be a medical nurse from the hospital.

Seeing the behavior of Johan that he did not expect would be like this to him, Hani felt himself like he was in a vacuum.

‘Han, it's me,Hani!’.Said Hani while holding tightly to both shoulders Johan.

‘Sus..I want to talk to Hani sus!, please call me Hani!’.Johan replied to Hani.

Such a tight grip now begins to blister and loose, not as strong as it used to be.Slowly open the void gap.Start to imprint in every touch of hope,between you and me that one of us has to be hit by that meaningless splinter..

Not feeling all that He had done felt so vain for him, a precious wait that he had been yearning for, but just vanished.Hani who at that time did not know what to do, but,she immediately shed her tears, looking at the person she so longed for, ignoring her.

Shortly after, Doctor Deni and several other nurses came to Johan's room, they immediately tried to calm Johan who tried to open the infusion hose in his hand.

‘Dok, my friend where dok?’.Johan told Dr. Deni.

‘Quiet Deck Johan, don't move too much,Dek Johan just recovered’.Ketus Doctor Deni while trying to calm Johan.

Meanwhile, the already powerless Mani restrained his sorrow, quickly walked away from the room.

‘Dok!!’yelled Johan while trying to go out of his room.Because of his condition that has not fully recovered, Johan suddenly felt dizzy and weak.Sontak Doctor Deni told his nurse to immediately give Lidocaine (an anesthetic) to Johan.

‘Quick inject sedative!’.Ketus Doctor Deni to the nurse who was there.

The nurses immediately gave Johan a sedative and laid him back.

Meanwhile, Hani, who was walking towards the hospital yard, tried to hold back his tears.Continue to that moment, Wawan, Novi, Fadila and Gilang had just arrived and were about to visit Johan.

They also passed Hani who was also just out of the Hospital Building..

‘Hani,Han,Hani!’.Tegur Gilang when he saw Hani.Namun Hani did not understand the greeting of Gilang, He continued to walk to the hospital park.

‘Lang, let me follow Hani, you enter aja duad’.Said Fadila to Gilang who was about to catch up with Hani.

‘Owh ya already kelok gitu La, we enter first ya’.

‘Oke ’.Reply Fadila while smiling at her friend.

Fadila also followed Hani who was sitting on the bench of the Hospital garden.

‘Ni, why you?any problems?’.Said Fadila seraya

Holding the shoulder of his best friend.

‘No matter what La,Gue is just aj’.Reply Hani while wiping her tears.

Be honest with me Han, Tumben loh,Lu to cry like this, just tell me to I, who knows I can help’.

‘Gue don't know why La,Gue feels like he's alone in this world, everything I've done for him, feels free’.Said Hani while trying to hold back her crying.

‘Ceritain is the real problem, no papa kok Ni,emm’.

‘Gue did not expect the person I had been waiting for, not nganggep I’.

‘You mean Johan?’.

‘Ya La,Johan already do not remember I anymore,Gue does not know what to do now’.Hani said while crying.

‘Why can you?, wait wait, Johan did not want at all about Lu? how could Johan forget memory?’.

I also don't know La, Johan can't forget me forever right La, he won't leave me right?’.

‘Udah Ni, Johan will not forget us anyway, we pray the best for him’.Said Fadila while laying Hani's head on her chest.

There are times when we fall from the thousands of stairs that we have rafted, but not forever he will support the burden.Not forever He will stand firmly in a ladder,Sometimes He is fragile and can no longer survive, but that is the true evidence of a life.He always rebukes and teaches us not to be careless in everything, not to be complacent by the pleasure of the scenery that is up there,Sometimes we also have to fix the stairs to keep watch and strengthen our stance.And finally we will enjoy the results of the passage........